“The truth will set you free. But not until it is finished with you.”
― David Foster Wallace, Infinite Jest
The night before and the morning after
A slender crescent moon hanging in the dusk sky, with a brilliant Venus hovering just overhead.
Women know what they want, and who they are. Girls are still in the process of learning those things. I would think the same applies to boys and men, but that is probably an "ask the gals" question.
The devil and the deep blue sea.
You are not alone, though it may feel that way. There is a whole community here who is riding this out with you. Your words and your heart have touched a lot of people here, so let us repay the favor. Our thoughts are with you. I have some experience with brain chemistry run amok, and know how scary and endless it can seem.
Sweeney Todd
Sunday in the Park With George
Urinetown (yes it's real, and really good)
The Threepenny Opera
Oklahoma
It's also fun to write from a woman's point of view. You might try that. I don't do it to attract a female audience, I do it because it's fascinating, and informative, and even a little hot, to imagine yourself feeling as a woman feels. Writing in a woman's voice is kind of freeing.
But, yeah, what everyone else said. Write what you'd want to read. Express yourself, not what you think people might like.