I started like most "cross-dressers." I was sixteen and I developed an urge to wear my mother’s lingerie. I didn’t know why. I had never heard the term “cross-dresser.” But I did know I liked wearing her underwear.
The more I wore her bras, panties, and slips, the more I enjoyed it. I enjoyed the sensual feeling of being feminine. I wore mom’s things every chance I got. And of course, I got careless. She came home unexpectedly one day. There I was - a sixteen-year-old boy wearing a bra, panties, a girdle with garters attached to a pair of stockings, and a half-slip. To top it off, I was wearing lipstick.
But she didn’t get angry at all. Mom told me she suspected I had been doing this for some time and was actually glad to finally talk about it.
“Honey, you've stretched most of my bras, and my things are never where I left them.” She just laughed.
We had a long, somewhat embarrassing talk. (She wouldn't let me change.) She was quite understanding and explained that if I wanted to wear girl’s clothes, it was fine with her.
But she said, “It would be better if you get your own things, rather than wear mine. Then everything will fit you appropriately."
“I don't know why, Mom, but I just love being feminine," I said.
“Well as I see it, it's harmless, and if it makes you happy, you should do it. Let me ask you this. If you could, how often would you dress up?"
"I'm not sure, Mom. I do know I have been wearing your things every chance I get," I shyly replied.
"Well then, we better get you your own feminine wardrobe."
The next day after breakfast, Mom said, “Let's go shopping.”
It was exciting and embarrassing. We bought everything - panties, bras, slips. “Since you had my girdle on, let's get you one, and a garter belt too."
I told her I wanted everything a girl my age would have. We bought a few pairs of stockings and pantyhose. We went to another store and bought two dresses, some skirts, blouses, and sweaters. At a shoe store, we acquired three pairs of girls' shoes, including a pair of pumps with three-inch heels. To say the least, I was embarrassed when she had me try them on.
“Mom, people are looking at us,” I said.
“I don't care,” she replied. “You'll be happy we did this.”
We bought two wigs and went to the makeup counter where she picked out all kinds of things. “I think that's everything you need for now,” she smiled at me. Finally, Mom asked, "Do you want a couple of nighties to sleep in?"
My smile was my answer.
I couldn't wait to get home. As soon as we walked in the house, Mom said, “Go ahead, go get dressed.”
I ran upstairs, took off my clothes, and put on a bra and panties. I slipped on the garter belt and stockings. I put on a dress. Then I slipped on one of the wigs. I put on a pair of sandals with a one-inch heel and came downstairs.
“Well, that's a start,” Mom said. “Now let’s go do your makeup.” Mom showed me how to do every step of applying makeup. “There,” she said. “You really do make a very pretty girl.”
I went to a full-length mirror. The transformation was beyond my dreams. I was looking at a girl.
Mom taught me the finer points of being feminine: how to walk in heels; do perfect make-up; even how to sit and properly cross my legs. She surprised me with silicone breast forms.
Mom encouraged me to dress as much as I wanted. Within a year, I was dressing and acting like a girl on any day when my father wasn't around.
After I turned eighteen, near the end of senior year, Mom told me I needed to get out of the house as a girl more.
“You look like a girl. You act like a girl. You even talk like one. And you're not too tall to pass as one. (I was barely five feet, eight inches.) It'll be good for you," Mom said.
I was wary. We had gone out for evening drives, and a few walks, but I hadn't really been in close contact with the public.
Mom suggested we go clothes shopping. “I'll buy you a new dress.”
Before we left, I suggested that I should have a feminine name. I'd been thinking about that for a while.
Mom replied, "That's a good idea in case I need to refer to you in front of someone."
"I would like to be called Linda. Would you call me that?" I asked.
"Of course. That's a lovely name," Mom responded.
As we walked around the mall, It was clear everyone thought I was a girl. The only people who stared at me were teenage boys. I was so happy to be able to try things on. We'd have fun shopping together at least once a week. Occasionally we would go to lunch or a movie. I got accustomed to being out as Linda and loved it.
While I loved dressing and acting like a girl, I also loved being with girls as Bob. I appreciated their femininity. I loved the work they put into their look. In turn, they liked my sensitivity. I was good-looking and had no problem getting dates. Nevertheless, I couldn't resist the desire to dress regularly. At times I felt guilty. It was a conundrum.
After graduating high school, I decided to attend a major university in another state. Part of the reason was that I thought that i could get over my desire to dress like a girl. I lived in a dorm . I couldn't dress because I had a roommate. He was a big athletic guy and I didn't think he'd like knowing his roommate liked wearing dresses. It was forced derivation and by the Spring I realized my plan wasn't working. I missed being Linda.
Perhaps fortuitously, but sadly, my father passed away. He had been suffering from cancer and it finally got him. I decided I needed to transfer to a school near home and move back with Mom.
She was of course happy to have me back. And I was happy to be able to be Linda again. My denial was a total failure. We started up our shopping trips again. We would go out to dinner. I'd go shopping as Linda by myself. I would even attend some of my large lecture classes as Linda. i loved being out in public.
I enjoyed school. I continued dating girls. I did enjoy their company. Again, the recurring conundrum. I would go out on a date. Have a great time. Then go home and become Linda.
I talked about this conundrum with Mom and she was always supportive. She would tell me, “If it makes you happy, I don't see any harm in it. It's just part of who you are.”
By the end of my senior year, I was comfortable being Linda. It became second nature.
I was twenty-two when I graduated. Linda was now more a woman than a girl. I had become a very stylish dresser and was going out often. I had finally accepted that I was a cross-dresser.
I became aware of a club where cross-dressers went on a regular basis. I decided to check it out. I realized there were many other girls like me. Some of them clearly didn't pass, but some did. I also learned that there were a lot of men who liked women like me as well. While I enjoyed the male attention, I didn't see myself dating a guy. I was convinced I wasn't bisexual despite the fact I dressed as a woman.
I met a couple of other very attractive cross-dressers at the club. Donna and Sharon were as passable as I was. I suppose that's what brought us together. We started hanging out together. Once a week we would meet at the club. We'd do dinner and go shopping. We did everything young, attractive women did.
I told Mom about my new friends and she was very happy. She even had them over for dinner. The girls loved Mom and we had a great time.
Donna was seeing a guy named Jay. But Sharon was like me. She loved being a part-time woman, but dated women in guy mode. Donna was only five feet, six inches tall. She had also grown her hair out. She was slight and very cute. Sharon was taller than me, very thin with great legs. It was fun getting together with my new friends, including Jay.
Jay was constantly trying to get Sharon and I to go out with two of his friends. His friends liked women like us, he said.
Finally, to get him to stop, Sharon and I agreed we would all go out as a group. Sharon picked me up and we drove to the club.
Jay introduced me to Tom. Tom was over six feet tall and very attractive. He was very nice and told I was beautiful. The six of us went to dinner, and I had a better time than I thought I would. We returned to the club for a nightcap.
Tom and I sat and talked. Sharon came over and told me she was leaving. She whispered that her date was okay, but not really her thing. Tom said he'd be happy to drive me home. I told Sharon I would go with Tom. After all, I was enjoying myself. We chatted and he couldn't have been sweeter. Finally, I told him I better get home.
As we walked to his car, he put his arm around me. It felt nice. In the car and he leaned over and kissed me. Surprisingly, I kissed him back. We kissed for a minute, and I finally pulled back. "We'd better go, Tom. It's late." My head was spinning. "What am I doing?" I thought.
Tom pulled into the secluded driveway alongside the house. He leaned over and kissed me again. I kissed back. Our mouths opened and our tongues met. We were passionately making out for a few minutes when I felt his hand slip under my dress. He rubbed my erect cock through my panties. It felt nice. I kept kissing him.
He took my right hand and gently placed it on his crotch. I could feel his hardness. I rubbed it as he rubbed me. I was caught up in the moment. He reached down with his left hand and undid his belt, unbuttoned his pants, and pulled down his zipper. The tip of his sizable and stiff cock extended above his jockeys. "Wow," I thought.
We kept kissing. I was enjoying myself. I was feeling incredibly feminine. I pulled down the front of his underpants and grabbed his impressive shaft. I began stroking it. I had never touched a penis other than mine. His was both longer and thicker.
"I am enjoying this way too much," I thought.
Tom's right hand was caressing my neck. His grip tightened ever so slightly as he gently pushed my head forward and down. Our lips parted. Suddenly my mouth was only inches from the cock I was gripping with my right hand.
"Oh God, what's happening?" I thought. He didn't push me any further. He was leaving it to me. I instinctively lowered my mouth and took his thick cock into my mouth. I had received blow-jobs, so it wasn't like I didn't know what to do.
I stroked his lower shaft while my lips slid up and down the upper part. He shoved it gently upward with each downward motion of my mouth. I sucked harder as he kept pushing it deeper into my mouth. "Oh, Linda, I'm going to cum!"
His body tightened as he raised his hips. I didn't let up but sucked harder. He let out a moan, and I felt my mouth fill with warm, salty cum. I continued to suck until he stopped moving. I let him slip out of my mouth as I swallowed. Then I licked his entire shaft clean.
We both sat back. "Wow, Linda. You're incredible. I hope you enjoyed that as much as I did. And I hope I can see you again."
I just smiled. "Tom, I'll be honest. You're the first man I've been with. I did enjoy it, but can you let me think about it?."
"Of course, Linda, I understand. Will I see you at the club?" Tom asked.
"I'm sure you will. Anyway, I did have a nice time."
Tom came around and helped me out and walked me to the front door.
"Can I kiss you? He asked.
Rather than respond, I leaned forward and gave him a big, wet kiss. "Good night sweetie," I whispered in his ear.
The next morning I got up late. Thoughts of the evening were skipping around my head. What did I do? More importantly; why did you do it? Did I like men? Was I bisexual?
I put on a bra and panties, slipped on a wig, and put on a pink satin robe with matching slippers. I went downstairs to find Mom having coffee.
"Good morning Linda. I heard you come in late. Did you have a nice time?"
I poured some coffee and sat down. "Well yes, I did. I'm a bit confused, but I had a great time."
"What do you mean honey? Mom asked.
"I didn't tell you, but I had a date with a man last night," I explained how I'd been talked into it by Donna's boyfriend. I told her that I just thought it would be a group dinner. "But then I let him - his name is Tom - drive me home."
"That's no big deal," Mom responded.
"I ended up kissing and making out with him before I came in." I obviously wasn't going to tell her I also gave him a blow-job!
"Did you enjoy that? she asked.
"That's what surprised me, Mom. I did."
"So what's the big deal? You're a beautiful woman. Why wouldn't you enjoy being kissed by a man?" Mom responded.
"I guess you're right. I just never thought I'd like being with a man. I like women," I pleaded.
Mom replied, "You like women when you are Bob. I guess it's a little more complicated when you're Linda."
"I think you're right, Mom," I replied
"Is he handsome? Are you going to see him again," Mom asked.
"He is very handsome, very nice, and very tall. I don't know, Mom. What do you think?" I asked.
Mom said, "Why not? You said he's nice and you liked him."
We didn't talk much more about it. I did see Tom at the club. He asked me out again and I accepted.
I started seeing him once a week. He was a total gentleman and treated me like a princess. We started having mutual fellatio. I enjoyed it.
One evening, after he took me out for a romantic dinner at a nice restaurant, we returned to his apartment. We had drinks and started making out like we usually did.
Tom whispered in my ear, "Linda, I'm crazy about you and I'd like to take our sex to the next level."
I knew what he meant. "Oh Tom, I don't know, honey," I responded.
I knew this might be coming. "I just don't think I'm ready. I like you, and I hope you understand" I said.
"0f course I do. No pressure," he said.
I continued dating him. I even invited him over and we had dinner with Mom. "Oh honey, he is so nice, and he is really handsome," she said after he left.
While my new, unexpected love life was going well, I did have a problem. I hadn't been able to find a job in my major field. I graduated almost a year ago. I was frustrated. I had worked a few part-time jobs but the pay was low and I kept quitting.
After expressing my frustration to Mom, she told me she had seen an ad for a part-time position at a nearby restaurant. “It says no experience needed,” she said. “At least you'd have some income."
"What kind of position," I asked.
Mom smiled and replied, "It's for a waitress."
“Are you joking, Mom?” I responded.
“Not at all. You'd make a great waitress. And it would keep Linda busy."
I thought about it. I needed money. And I could learn a job that might be useful in the future. I decided to apply in person.
The manager, Joe, was a good-looking guy, about forty or so. We had a short interview and he hired me on the spot. I was to start the next day. I'd be shadowing an older waiter who was quitting in two weeks. I had to wear a uniform consisting of a short plaid skirt and a white blouse. It was kind of cute.
My mentor, Paul, was older and really sweet to me. By the end of the two weeks, I was ready. I started working three nights, Monday through Wednesday. It was slower then, and I had a chance to get good at the job. I loved it. I was getting good tips, especially from men. I found the more I flirted with them, the better the tip. My hours increased, and I was making good money. The rest of the wait staff were men, so it was a fun position to be in.
One evening, to my utter surprise, a cousin of mine came in with his wife. I hadn't seen him since their wedding a few years ago.
I greeted them as I brought them menus, "Good evening. My name is Linda and I'll be serving you."
My cousin clearly didn't recognize me. I flirted with him while his wife was in the lady's room, and I got a nice tip out of it. Mom got a big laugh out of it when I told her.
I worked the waitress job for the next few months. It was fun and it got Linda out of the house. Then I finally got an interview with a small marketing company. The interview went well, and I was offered the job. It was entry-level, but it could lead to something better.
When I gave my notice at the restaurant, Joe was sad I was leaving. “How about just one night a week?" He asked.
“How about I just fill in when you need someone?" I replied.
"Great idea. I'll just call you when I need you," he said excitedly.
I started the new job and was enjoying it. The people were nice. While I went to the job as Bob, Linda was still going out with Sharon and Donna, as well as dating Tom. I also ended up at the restaurant one night a week. Bob was happy with his new job, and Linda was a very busy woman.
After about six months, I applied for a different position in the company. I was now almost twenty-five. I was interviewed by a very attractive manager who looked about my age. She had beautiful features and was really well-built. She dressed in a business suit that was a little too manly for my taste, although it was very well tailored to show her curves.
She introduced herself. “I'm Katie Jarvis, and I'll be conducting this interview. Please call me Katie.”
“Nice to meet you, Katie. Please call me Bob.”
The interview lasted an hour, and we seemed to really hit it off. She offered me the job. I would be working with her and two other low-level account managers.
After working with Katie for a few months, she was promoted to another section. She called me into her office to tell me. I was disappointed and told her, “We seem to get along so well.”
Katie replied, “I agree. I really like you, Bob. But there is an upside to this.”
“What's that?” I said.
Katie smiled and said, “I can now ask you out. How about dinner tonight.?"
I smiled broadly. I really liked her but hadn't thought it appropriate to ask her out. So I was thrilled. “Sounds great,” I said.
“How about you meet me downstairs at six?” Katie asked.
“I'll be there.”
We went out to dinner and had a great time. Katie drove and when she dropped me off, she leaned over and gave me a long kiss. “Let's do this again Bob.”
We started dating, and we were soon seeing each other a couple of times a week. I was very busy. I'd waitress one night, see Katie the next, Tom the night after, and go to the club with Sharon and Donna another night. I was too busy and decided to put my relationship with Tom on hold. I had to figure out whether I liked men or women, or was it both?
He was very disappointed but understood.
"We can still see each other at the club," I said.
The first time Katie and I had sex, it was amazing. She was very confident and dominant,
“You’re the most sensitive guy I have ever known. I love that about you Bob," Katie told me one night.
I loved her being dominant. I realized she brought out my feminine sensitivity, which in turn, she seemed to like.
Katie had a townhouse, so I spent a lot of time there. I still lived with my ongoing conundrum. I loved being with her. We had great sex. But I still was Linda at home, at the restaurant, and at the club. I wondered what would happen if I was out as Linda and I ran into her. That thought excited me.
I spent more and more time with Katie. She loved dominating me. She would sternly order me to lick her pussy on a regular basis. And she always preferred being on top. “I hope you don't mind, but I prefer playing the traditional male role,” she told me one evening. I told her I enjoyed it.
Time passed, and our relationship just got better. Although we were about to celebrate our one-year anniversary, I was still Linda much of the time. Despite my love for Katie, I still loved being a woman.