The Mediterranean coast rolled along in the heart-tugging light of a late summer evening. Pinks, oranges and a red that flushed like blood bounced off the waves and heaved into the sky above. Her curls stretched in the warm wind, eyes weeping harmless tears in the rush. The motorcycle snaked along an ancient road curling into harbors and ripping along beaches. As the engine responded to the challenge of shifting gears, it seemed as if each revolution sent a beckoning call to the part of her pressed and burning against the leather saddle.
Two months ago, she’d kissed her parents at the airport and stepped into the adventure that was now reaching its bittersweet end. A college graduate with a fresh diploma just placed on her childhood bedroom wall, her family’s largesse had afforded her a massive getaway through Europe. She and her best friend Pia had landed in Berlin and raced their way through the Old World with Euro passes and a drive for knocking off items on a long-contemplated bucket list. Conceived in late-night dorm room discussions and Sunday brunches in the dining hall, their itinerary consisted of all the places they’d like to go, the things they thought they should do. Every item had been diligently crossed off, all according to plan.
They rocked in a sweaty frenzy until late morning in a techno dance hall in Berlin. Had leapt off a mountain in Switzerland and paraglided down into a chewy green valley with black and white cows and straw-thatched farmhouses. In London, they packed into a soccer stadium, fueled on beer and dressed in home team colors to sing and cheer along with tens of thousands of anonymous friends. In Brussels, they ate Chateauriand followed by Dame Blanches in the Grand Place. Spain brought them to the Basilica de la Sagrada Familia, where their necks hurt from staring into the tangled celebration of the vaulted ceilings well over a century in the making. Wine tasting, shopping and long days in the Louvre matched with long nights at Le Madam overloaded their senses in France. To Santorini they went for sun and sand. Then it was a boat ride to the Italian portion of the trip with its jaw-dropping coastline, sumptuous meals and decided lack of seriousness.
Every stop along the way was chronicled in handwritten letters home. Packed with detail and nuance, the perceptive recipient might have sensed a hint of desperation in the prose, a sense that everything conveyed was tinged with a disappointment for the time and opportunities quickly fading behind the prominence of what came next. The price of their degrees was the course their lives charted upon returning home. Jobs, programs, offices, business suits and relationships that looked attractive but threw a shadow of predictability that was not awful or exciting.
Whipping against her thighs, the white mini skirt was not ideal for the ride or protecting any of her usual modesty. The very fact that she’d accepted to get on the bike was a surprise even to her. Without a helmet, without knowing the young man she now hugged for her safety, without any idea of where they were going, she’d just nodded her head when “Claudio” pointed at the bike. It was impulse, the likes of which she never responded to.
On this roller coaster of pocked cement, day was quickly slipping into night. Each corner they took, every rise in the road led to some place and some thing farther from her certainty. She loved everything she was feeling. What she was thinking, in the brief moments that she gave over to her thoughts, was more conflicted. But the stars were shining and they were coming into a small town of time-worn buildings splashed with brightly painted shudders and doors. A stone’s throw from the beach, antique fishing boats with collapsed spider web nets rocked to the chronic rhythm of the sea. A couple of downshifts and the motorcycle and its two passengers leaned into a turn, then another, sending them down an impossibly narrow street before easing in front of a beaten door up three dusty steps. For a moment, she forgot to let go of the firm body she held to her chest. When she did, Claudio was off the bike, removing his helmet and presenting himself: all sparkly eyes and white teeth just as when they’d danced together earlier in the evening.
“Buonasera. Welcome,” he said in cautious English and held out his hand for an assist as she lifted herself off the warm saddle and stood next to him in the dark. They looked at each other with nothing to say. In a froth of supple bodies and pounding bass, they’d banged into each other in front of a stage along the beach. For the rest of the show, they’d stayed in close proximity to each other. Moving with screaming, shaking boys and girls and regularly coming to face again. It was plain that they were attracted to each other but he could not speak English. She, no Italian.
He turned for the door to the apartment building.
“Wait”
“Que?”
She let out a heavy, embarrassed sigh and started to laugh. What was she thinking?
“Un… Ooo NO mo… uno momento.” It came out in a gush. She was over her head, caught up in the evening, in the trip, the Mediterranean breezes, the thick, smoky hash and a little too much Brunello.
He smiled. No words were necessary to understand the hesitancy. Dark eyes dropped for a moment, leading his head in the same direction. In the moonlight, Claudio shifted the weight on his feet then looked up and right back into her eyes.
“Si, Si, Si.” The smile never left his lips as his fingers tapped along to his words on the helmet he carried. He understood and kindly did not seem to judge.
A flock of butterflies busied themselves up and down her torso but a heaviness lingered just below. The war pitting her head against her sex battled in the space in between. She didn’t do “one night stands” and she’d certainly never fucked a stranger. But, my God, if she was going to say, “no,” why didn’t she do it thirty minutes and fifteen miles ago?
Pia’s reaction when told what she was doing rang in her ears. “Vicky, you really shouldn’t do this.”
They’d been together the entire two months and on the last night, she left her best friend for a stranger. Albeit, a really handsome one with a positively silky way of dancing.
He reached out a tanned hand and tucked a curl behind her ear. Claudio’s fingers rested there for just a moment. Salt air and motorcycle rides wreaked havoc on the jumble of her Coke-colored mane. A self-critical appraisal in the moment assured her the frizz factor must be on full display.
“Nice,” he ventured.
“Nice? Really?”
“Si, bellissima.”
The butterflies morphed into a hammer now thudding in her chest. She wanted so badly to turn to his door. To lose herself in the evening, in the moment before her. High cheekbones, lips a weather-worn red and green flecked eyes, this was a fantasy right before her if she could just give herself over to it. Close enough to feel his breath, her legs felt slightly unsteady. This scene, the situation was everything she was not. There was no plan, it made no sense, she would regret it. But would she regret fulfilling what she actually wanted to do or would she be haunted by the rational choice of finding a way back to the hotel and giving up all that would be left behind.
His hand slid to the back of her head, fingers furrowing through her tresses. With a half step, he closed the distance between them to almost nothing, if she took a deep breath, he’d feel her breasts against him. The heat under her skirt could not have been more obvious.
“I really should…” the sentence wouldn’t finish for her. What an oppressive word, “should” seemed to be. And yet, it ruled her life. Just once…
Her phone buzzed, she took a step back digging in her purse for it, the tension between her and her unlikely lover eased. As she answered, she turned from him and took a step up the street and away from him.
“Pia?”
“Where are you?”
“I’m just, I don’t know, down the coast a little bit.”
“Are you okay?”
Turning to her motorcycle driver, she found Claudio on the top of his stoop, waiting at the door. Again, he smiled.
“I’m fine. Don’t worry.”
“This is a little out of character, that’s all I’m saying.”
“I know.” Vicky paused as a rippling breeze caressed the hot skin on her neck and naked thighs. “I’ll text you when I’m heading back.” She hung up and put the phone in her purse. The light spilled out of the open door, Claudio was silhouetted against it. Again, her heart pounded with both desire and fear. What was up those steps and inside the man at the top of them, was a mystery. She wanted to go to him to solve it but she didn’t trust her legs to carry her to this unfamiliar place. She knew this was not the way she behaved but adrift in the Old World charm of this evening, it was excruciating not to simply surrender to it.
From above, like an old friend showing up in an unlikely place, the opening bars of Carmen drifted down into the street. Her favorite opera suddenly appearing in this storybook town, in this moon-kissed night seemed simply too perfect for even her stubborn mind to ignore. As the chorus swelled, her struggle with the sensible slid into the rising tide of sensuality. Whatever she “should” do would have to wait this one night. With a smile, she mounted the stairs, threw her arms around her man and put her mouth on his.
The momentum of their union carried them inside, the door closing behind with a thud. Her tongue ran along his teeth, over his thick lips. Pulling him close to her, she thrilled at the hardness she found against her. A surge of power built in her as she turned aside and placed her hand on him giving his thickness a rewarding appraisal. If she was hesitant at first, she felt unstoppable now. That’s what happened when she made up her mind. Through his jeans, she rubbed his cock looking boldly into his eyes. The language barrier gave her the courage to say things she’d sometimes wanted to but never felt she had the license to.
“You like that, don’t you. Claudio, that’s going to feel so good inside me.”
Overwhelmed by the transformation in her, Claudio backed against the wall and raised his hands in the air, a minor surrender.
Laughing sheepishly, he said, “Lentamente, lentamente,” and pointed up the stairs. She loved that she’d put him on his back foot, that she was just in much in charge of this situation as one of the stops on her European agenda.
“Upstairs? Okay, let’s go.” She took his hand and trotted up the stairs, knowing full well that at the given distance he was getting an eyeful up her mini-skirt. She loved being on display, giving his eyes an appetizer for what was to come. In another few minutes, she hoped he would be buried back there.