There's something about the way you left me

I never thought I'd have to deal with this reality

And I have to deal with the fact you're not here

But I can't seem to shed anymore tears.

You made this hole in my heart

And sometimes I have to remind myself to start

Breathing.  Over and over; day after day.

But the pain refuses to go away

People claimed it would become easier, too.

But it's been so long

And pain still lingers over you,

I'm afraid that I was wrong.

Why did you have to go?

You didn't even let me know!

And you sliced six times and tied knots

And kicked the chair and your breath caught.

What were you thinking?  I loved you!

And the truth is that I still do.

I know we must have meant something to you.

And I'm hurting inside, I don't know what to do.

I'm missing you so deeply

I cannot really sleep.

I dream about us together, just you and I.

We could be together, and you made that dream a lie!

I've hidden pain for so long, it seems like years,

Afraid it would fall on deaf ears.

I miss you, I wish you were home with me.

Hanging out all summer, completely carefree.

We'd have fun, pain wouldn't last.

But I realize our summers are in the past.

This winter is almost around the bend.

And just like the seasons we shared, someday this pain will end.