I can never forget the summer of 2005. Like every year, I paid the customary visit to my parents, who were staying all alone at Madurai, my hometown. The only difference was I was alone this time. My wife and kids could not make it because my son was taking a college entrance exam. Usually there was nothing much to look forward to in that silent village, where it was customary for people to get into bed at 8:00 pm sharp. I reached home from the railway station at midnight and slept immediately afterwards, being tired from the hectic journey. The next day was a Saturday and I woke up late. I found my parents had already left for their regular temple visit. Breakfast was nowhere in sight. I was feeling hungry.
My uncle’s house was adjacent to ours and I wondered if my Aunt was home. My Uncle (dad’s younger brother) died in the year 2000. His children were all married and settled now. I was told that his youngest son and wife stayed with my Aunt. Like me, my uncle too, was a public sector employee who worked in Rourkela.
My thoughts went back to the days I was a management trainee posted to Rourkela and how I used to frequent my uncle’s house. He had three children. One girl and two boys. I had never really interacted much with my cousins prior to this. Sindhu the girl was the eldest and the 2 boys were younger. I got very close to Sindhu during that period. I was a very horny guy and my liking for her was more than brotherly love. Call me whatever you want to, but since the day, I set my eyes on her I wanted to have her for myself. I saw her like any other girl that needed my attention and my love.
She just barely passed her class 12th and was a miserable failure in her graduation course. She was not particularly intelligent and was raised on a diet of Hindi film and gossip magazines. I used to buy her gifts and presents now and then and she liked to go to the movies with me. I got her to my hostel room on a few occasions. She was a very lovely girl, almost my age and very sensitive. She enjoyed my company a lot and slowly I got very close to her. I used to playfully hug and kiss her, which soon led to serious petting and mouth to mouth kissing. We were like a man and woman and my body trembled with excitement and lust every time I hugged her. Thinking about her also used to get me very excited. In my eight months of stay, well all I can say is, we did not have sex but did every thing else.
Coming out of my trance, I suddenly longed to see Sindhu after such a long time. I heard she was married to a rich guy in the gulf. As I walked around my Uncle’s house I found all the doors locked but for the kitchen door which was ajar. As I peered in I saw someone at the gas stove. She did not look like my aunt. My heart skipped a beat with the faint suspicion.
Oh, my God, I wondered, “Was it, Sindhu?”
It was too good to be true. When I tiptoed closer, I could immediately make out it was my Sindhu, my past love and my lustful companion with whom I had lot of unfulfilled desires. Sindhu had not changed a lot and had only become fuller. Her buttocks and chest were full and her height was the same. I slowly tip toed behind her and was not sure if I should give her a hug or a kiss. I was not sure how she would react to my kiss after such a long gap. As she was lighting up the stove, I hugged her from behind. She was surprised like hell and turned around and saw it was I. She quickly relaxed and let me hug her. I was relieved, she still liked me. I asked her if anyone was home.
She nodded her head and said, “No.”
I was happy and relaxed now. I knew I could get to be intimate with her now. I took in her womanly smell and I kissed her feverishly. It was such a long time and all old memories of her flooded back, about what we did and what we wanted to do. She just went limp like a doll and let me have my way. I told her how I missed her a lot. She just looked into my eyes not believing a word I was telling. I had not met her after she was married. She was angry, as I did not attend her marriage.
She looked so beautiful but sad. Her wishes of owning a car and other costly things were fulfilled due to her rich hubby in the gulf. But I was not so sure about the desires of a woman, I got a feeling she was not very happy. Her sis-in-law too had gone to her parents and Sindhu was all-alone with her mother (my aunt). I was thinking to myself about how happy she must be with all the costly things she was getting from her hubby. It used to be her childhood dream to wear those nice costly dresses and own beautiful things. But then I saw she was sad.
When I told her that she was lucky to have a rich hubby, she asked me, “What is the use Suresh, I am so lonely all the time and you never called me after you got married. How could you forget me so quickly?”
I acted surprised and asked if she really missed me that much.
"I missed you so much that you cannot imagine. You made me so addicted to your cock and I started masturbating so heavily after you left for Bhilai. I thought marriage would give me what I wanted but it was not to be. Having a hubby working in gulf is so frustrating Suresh. I now have all the comforts and enough money but what is the use. You know how much you made me love cock and now that is something I cannot get at will. Do you know I have cried many nights after masturbating thinking about you while you are so happy fucking your wife every night, its just not fair Suresh. Being a woman I cannot go seek other men. Could you not have come once in a while to enquire about me and give this poor girl a taste of your fat horny cock, at least for old time sakes. Why did you give me the taste of this sinful pleasure? Sometimes I hate you so much Suresh, that I cursed you in my heart."
I knew I was the fist man to touch her that too in all those intimate places that no one else had explored before. She was my lover and my sex friend. Our playful intimacy during my bachelor days soon turned to physical intimacy and whenever I got her alone I used to pet her and kiss her. She loved to let me caress her breasts and rub my hardness to her crotch, which we indulged very liberally. So many times I had put my hands into her panty and rubbed her pussy till she was wet and hot like crazy and I gave her mind blowing orgasm every time till she as addicted to tit. The only reason I spared fucking her was the fear of getting her pregnant. Being her cousin it would be so disgraceful for both of us. My cock was the first one she got a good look and feel of. I would make her touch and fondle my cock and I even taught her how to massage it and stroke me to a nice orgasm. She liked to watch the fruit of her labor in the form of squirts from the tip of my cock which she loved to let it flow on to her hands. I even taught her to suck my cock in return for my licking her nice cute pussy. After all this she was really hungry for my cock and on many occasions begged to put it in her, which I curtly refused. There were times I was so frustrated and desperate and even contemplated having sex using a condom, but better sense prevailed and I still feel happy I did not budge in my resolve not to penetrate her.
All those memories of yester years flooded back and I was sure she was thinking about the same; my cock became so hard that I was surprised. I pushed it against her butt to let her know how badly I wanted her. She pushed me away scared and shy.
“What are you doing Suresh? I am a married woman now,“ she said in jest.
I knew she was just playing with me, for she made no real effort to push me away. Anyway my aunt could come back any moment so I disengaged from her and asked for some tea and snacks. After having eaten them I said I’d be back. I came back in the evening to meet my aunt and we talked about old times. That is when I asked if Sindhu had any children. She lowered her eyes sadly. "I do not know Suresh, why I am being punished by god like this. It is three years and I am not getting pregnant. I do not know what is wrong. Every one thinks it is my fault. My in-laws and even my husband taunt me. My aunt asked me if she could take her to a good gynecologist and get checked up, I agreed."
Sindhu and my aunt made small talk and she asked me how I was and whether my wife and kids were fine.
It was 8:00 pm and our families had dinner and made preparations to settle down for the night. My body was burning with lust. I wanted to be with her so bad.