Kiera,
Thank you for sharing your story. I hope it didn't cost you too much to expose something this private. Be strong. Your love shines through.
R
Ain't this the most beautiful thread of them all?
A little kindness can be so valuable, yet costs almost nothing
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Hey... pssst.... that's an l (as in luscious) at the end of my name, not an i I come to this thread and just read and cry at times for each of your struggles. I don't post but am always thinking of all of you. Today reading your stories hit me very hard. Life is such a strange thing. There are days if it wasn't for my dear Alyssa(gypsy), G (ping), Mr. P and warren (wazz) I don't know how I would get through them. I can relate to so many of you. 2016 was horrible and 2017 has not started much better. The only thing that keeps me getting out of bed everyday is my 2 year old. Harley is my own angel and I almost did not have her. If I had the money we had called the clinic to have her terminated. I know what you want through Sinner. I was there. If you ever want to talk please send me a message.
Sprite I'm thinking of you and all the rest that Cancer has touched. My best friend in this life was just diagnosed with rectal/colon cancer. She is not a well person fighting everyday just to breathe due to a different issue which has weakened her lungs as well as her immune system. She is on oxygen and surgery is more than likely going to be the end of her. We know this and pray chemo shrinks her tumors. Sending you so many hugs Sprite, and Larry we've talked often you know I'm always thinking of you.
Kiera thank you for sharing your memories both good and not so good. What parents do to their children is hard to change in their adulthood. I'm glad you can remember the good years you had with your husband. You are a beautiful woman who loved him deeply and I'm sure he knows you did all you could.
Each of you are wonderful beautiful people both inside and out. Please don't ever forget that there are so many of us here for you with an understanding ear. Life has not been easy for many many people here in our lush world and i wish each of you peace and happiness in your life.
this is a first time thing for me, so please bear with me. i'm not known for sharing my troubles, but for whatever reason in these wee hours i felt the need to do so. i'm going to apologize right now for rambling - it's gonna happen. also, you'll more than likely find numerous typos, please be kind.
late tuesday morning i was in a good mood and wanted to drop a positive message here and in tonya and gypsy's thread. i've not posted too much about my own struggles here, just wanting to share a kind word here and there for those who might need it. truth be told, i can't really spend too much time scrolling through these personal, yet oh so public, confessions. i tend to absorb emotions like a sponge and have to be careful about what i allow myself to encounter. i've read a few posts here and there and am always impressed by the sheer bravery that is displayed when making your own faults/issues known. i say a silent prayer as i read and ask that you are given the strength to conquer all that you endure.
when leaving this thread tuesday, i happened to see the thread dedicated to alan in the crawl. being familiar with dirtymartini i had to see what it was about. i was shocked when i realized what it was and that it was in fact true. i immediately got transported back to a place i was almost three years ago. when my best friend from online was taken off of life support. unlike many here, i had the privilege of learning first hand because i was in close contact with the family. i didn't suffer the shock of finding out when logging online. until now, i didn't realize how fortunate i was until i read through the heartwarming posts in alan's thread.
so many people are quick to discount love that is developed and nurtured a great deal online. whether that love be platonic or romantic, so few seem to 'get it'. the love and bond i developed with tommie was just as real as the ones i developed with my 'real life' friends. her passing affected me in ways i didn't expect. yes, i knew i'd mourn her death - just not to what extent. although i never got the chance to spend physical time with tommie, numerous hours, days, weeks, months and years spent online and on the phone cemented our bond. i think i was even closer to her than i am my friends that are in the same state.
when tommie passed, i wasn't able to visit my old site for months. i finally drew up enough courage and went on her birthday. as was expected, i sobbed the entire time. reading old mail and posts was just too much. i decided that it was in my best interest not to go back to the place where it all began. that is when lush officially became my sole site.
while tommie was battling cancer, i spent more and more time here to distract myself. i never guessed i'd find refuge on a sex site. but i did and HOW! i was fortunate enough to meet two people who went on to become dear dear friends. when i decided to become active here in 2014, i only allowed myself to friend men. the thought of possibly growing as close to women as i did tommie seemed like blasphemy. like i would be cheating on her. i didn't want to have girl talk, trade secrets, develop inside jokes, and the like. how could i? i didn't want to chance losing any part of her memory.
i finally talked myself into adding a few women in early 2015. i always felt like i held them at arm's length. i just wasn't ready. i wound up deleting them with no reasons as to why and decided to try again in the future. in december of 2015, serendipity took her place in my inbox. i decided to try again and added a generous geek, a sweet stranger and a marvelous madame. these truly outstanding women have NO idea what their presence has done for me. they gave me the courage to reach out and try to have new friendships with other women here. i'm truly grateful. i've been blessed enough to be in the company of wonderful women and am still attempting to widen my circle. it's still hard, i'm a rather reserved person and choose to be in the company of few. that doesn't stop me from wanting to relay a kind word or message when i feel someone outside of my circle may need it. i really do feel that words are powerful and can aid in the betterment of our society and try to share them as much as possible.
writing this has truly felt like another piece of my heart is being stitched back together. hard to believe a tragedy has helped me heal. to those of you who took the time to read this, thank you. i hope it gives you courage to lay your own burdens down, if you haven't already. this thread is truly a sanctuary and you'll be met with open arms and an understanding that you can't fathom.
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I am having a bad day. I guess the emotional scars aren't as well healed as I thought.
Let tomorrow be better
Please don't ever lose hope.
I hope everyone is having a better day today.ur6N9YYek6NxPs4v
I was wondering if anyone else has had the problem of dealing with finding the right medication(s) for their problems. I am starting a new medication again, sigh... . It must be about the 20th or so med I have tried and so many combinations over the years. I have some medical issues because years of lithium use doctors believe led to my kidneys and liver not functioning at 100%. Most of the newer medications I can not take for those reasons. I am just tired of playing medication roulette. Which is why I often just forego any and deal with things myself until I can't anymore. They all have so many side effects and you have to wait for weeks to see if they are having any effect. I'm not sure it's worth even trying anymore. I really have no idea why I am putting this here, maybe I am just tired and still recovering from minor surgery. It's just nice to know you are not alone sometimes.
I need this week to be over. I'm used to a bad day here or there but this whole week has me in a turmoil. There is so many things going on and in the wee hours I was going to write this long post but everything was very negative. I am so grateful for this thread and so many people here. I really just want to say thank you at this time. Having this place i can come to when I need to. Hoping to share more when I can.
i read comic books and love comic book movies. i love fictional superheroes. they are, however, fictional. it's the people who fight battles with mental and/or physical issues and still go to work, support their family, help their kids with homework, mow the lawn, fix dinner, all the while being in pain that amaze me. people who reach out and use their pain to help someone else are heroes and they do it without even thinking about it. thank you, Regna, and all the other heroes in this thread. 
*hugs* thanks for the love :)
