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Her Royal Spriteness
i've been struggling for a while. Christmas is my favorite time of year. it's also the hardest. there are so many people that are no longer here to share in them. keeping really busy helps. last time i stopped being busy i ended up cutting my wrists. i don't want to do that this year, but the stress is just starting to close in again and i'm feeling lonely and isolated and doing what i always do, keep it all inside and don't let anyone know that things aren't good. so many things going on i don't want to talk about cause i don't want to just dump shit on people, so i smile, and deal and just do my best to get through the quiet times. i can deal with the busy times, it's always the quiet times that mess me up.
anyways, sorry, i just needed to be able to unload, and not on someone who has to shoulder it, but just on anyone who will listen.
thanks, guys. this helps.
xx
rach
anyways, sorry, i just needed to be able to unload, and not on someone who has to shoulder it, but just on anyone who will listen.
thanks, guys. this helps.
xx
rach
You can’t truly call yourself peaceful unless you are capable of violence. If you’re not capable of violence, you’re not peaceful. You’re harmless.
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i've been struggling for a while. Christmas is my favorite time of year. it's also the hardest. there are so many people that are no longer here to share in them. keeping really busy helps. last time i stopped being busy i ended up cutting my wrists. i don't want to do that this year, but the stress is just starting to close in again and i'm feeling lonely and isolated and doing what i always do, keep it all inside and don't let anyone know that things aren't good. so many things going on i don't want to talk about cause i don't want to just dump shit on people, so i smile, and deal and just do my best to get through the quiet times. i can deal with the busy times, it's always the quiet times that mess me up.
anyways, sorry, i just needed to be able to unload, and not on someone who has to shoulder it, but just on anyone who will listen.
thanks, guys. this helps.
xx
rach
I'm sorry it's such a hard and terrible time for you. You can vent to me anytime here. Just send me an email. Can you think of anything nice that happens at this time of year? If you're into knitting you could knit a huge blanket and donate it or watch something that always makes you laugh.
You could channel some of your anxiety into your writing, write a scary story or write something funny to take your mind off of the season.
You could call a help line too, Sprite. I love you and hate to see you hurt.
RAINN, a helpful site for information
Snake Charmera
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i've been struggling for a while.
anyways, sorry, i just needed to be able to unload, and not on someone who has to shoulder it, but just on anyone who will listen.
thanks, guys. this helps.
xx
rach
I'm sending you lots of hugs. If you ever need to dump on someone please feel free to send me a pm. I don't have all the answers but I'm a good listener. You have lots if people here who care for you. You are amazing and so strong. Please remember that
My Anti-Valentine Entry 💔
https://www.lushstories.com/stories/cheating/a-valentines-date-to-remember
My first EP and a top ten from the Pride Competition
https://www.lushstories.com/stories/lesbian/-love-is-love-.aspx
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i've been struggling for a while. Christmas is my favorite time of year. it's also the hardest. there are so many people that are no longer here to share in them. keeping really busy helps. last time i stopped being busy i ended up cutting my wrists. i don't want to do that this year, but the stress is just starting to close in again and i'm feeling lonely and isolated and doing what i always do, keep it all inside and don't let anyone know that things aren't good. so many things going on i don't want to talk about cause i don't want to just dump shit on people, so i smile, and deal and just do my best to get through the quiet times. i can deal with the busy times, it's always the quiet times that mess me up.
anyways, sorry, i just needed to be able to unload, and not on someone who has to shoulder it, but just on anyone who will listen.
thanks, guys. this helps.
xx
rach
I hear you.
A little kindness can be so valuable, yet costs almost nothing
In many countries being gay is a crime, and even in modern societies, politicians try to legalise discrimination. Your voice can make a difference. Have a look at All Out to find out how.
Hey... pssst.... that's an l (as in luscious) at the end of my name, not an i
In many countries being gay is a crime, and even in modern societies, politicians try to legalise discrimination. Your voice can make a difference. Have a look at All Out to find out how.
Hey... pssst.... that's an l (as in luscious) at the end of my name, not an i
Short Arse Brit
Quote by sprite
i've been struggling for a while. Christmas is my favorite time of year. it's also the hardest. there are so many people that are no longer here to share in them. keeping really busy helps. last time i stopped being busy i ended up cutting my wrists. i don't want to do that this year, but the stress is just starting to close in again and i'm feeling lonely and isolated and doing what i always do, keep it all inside and don't let anyone know that things aren't good. so many things going on i don't want to talk about cause i don't want to just dump shit on people, so i smile, and deal and just do my best to get through the quiet times. i can deal with the busy times, it's always the quiet times that mess me up.
anyways, sorry, i just needed to be able to unload, and not on someone who has to shoulder it, but just on anyone who will listen.
thanks, guys. this helps.
xx
rach
I love you
The Duchess of Tart
Please check out my new story, co-written with the amazing Wilful.
https://www.lushstories.com/stories/straight-sex/long-time-coming.aspx
And my latest poem, The Temptation.
https://www.lushstories.com/stories/erotic-poems/the-temptation.aspx
Please check out my new story, co-written with the amazing Wilful.
https://www.lushstories.com/stories/straight-sex/long-time-coming.aspx
And my latest poem, The Temptation.
https://www.lushstories.com/stories/erotic-poems/the-temptation.aspx
Short Arse Brit
I'm sorry to see that one of the threads most active members is gone. I hope she looks in she knows that we are thinking of her and that she will be missed. I hope she rejoins us again soon. Sending her lots of love.
The Duchess of Tart
Please check out my new story, co-written with the amazing Wilful.
https://www.lushstories.com/stories/straight-sex/long-time-coming.aspx
And my latest poem, The Temptation.
https://www.lushstories.com/stories/erotic-poems/the-temptation.aspx
Please check out my new story, co-written with the amazing Wilful.
https://www.lushstories.com/stories/straight-sex/long-time-coming.aspx
And my latest poem, The Temptation.
https://www.lushstories.com/stories/erotic-poems/the-temptation.aspx
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To all who shared
It is my hope
That you'll find ways
To deal and cope
With all that haunts you
Day and night
That you'll find back
The way to light
My wish for all
Who posted here:
To still have you
This time next year
Merry Christmas and may 2018 bring you all the good things you dream of and hope for.
It is my hope
That you'll find ways
To deal and cope
With all that haunts you
Day and night
That you'll find back
The way to light
My wish for all
Who posted here:
To still have you
This time next year
Merry Christmas and may 2018 bring you all the good things you dream of and hope for.
A little kindness can be so valuable, yet costs almost nothing
In many countries being gay is a crime, and even in modern societies, politicians try to legalise discrimination. Your voice can make a difference. Have a look at All Out to find out how.
Hey... pssst.... that's an l (as in luscious) at the end of my name, not an i
In many countries being gay is a crime, and even in modern societies, politicians try to legalise discrimination. Your voice can make a difference. Have a look at All Out to find out how.
Hey... pssst.... that's an l (as in luscious) at the end of my name, not an i
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Bug
This week, so far, we've lost Kate Spade and Anthony Bourdain to suicide.
I've said, more than once, that I lost my brother to suicide. Devastation doesn't begin to describe what it did to the little nuclear family from my childhood.
So, if you suffer with depression, please remember that you are loved. People care. No feeling is forever: not the good ones and not the bad ones.
I've said, more than once, that I lost my brother to suicide. Devastation doesn't begin to describe what it did to the little nuclear family from my childhood.
So, if you suffer with depression, please remember that you are loved. People care. No feeling is forever: not the good ones and not the bad ones.
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This week, so far, we've lost Kate Spade and Anthony Bourdain to suicide.
I've said, more than once, that I lost my brother to suicide. Devastation doesn't begin to describe what it did to the little nuclear family from my childhood.
So, if you suffer with depression, please remember that you are loved. People care. No feeling is forever: not the good ones and not the bad ones.
I'm truly sorry for your loss.
Thank you for the beautiful message of hope.
But people can have the same demons for decades, none of which we know about.
And they may not even know exactly what they are sometimes.
Sadly we don't know until it's too late sometimes.
Gravelly-Voiced Fucker
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This week, so far, we've lost Kate Spade and Anthony Bourdain to suicide.
I've said, more than once, that I lost my brother to suicide. Devastation doesn't begin to describe what it did to the little nuclear family from my childhood.
So, if you suffer with depression, please remember that you are loved. People care. No feeling is forever: not the good ones and not the bad ones.
I lost my sister to suicide. You are right, devasatation doesn't begin to describe it. It blows a hole through the lives of everyone who loved them (and suicides so often seem like people who are dearly and deeply loved, but just couldn't break through the darkness to see it). It ripples through generations. It's a buzzsaw.
She killed herself 9 days after 9/11. 9/11 had nothing to do with why she killed herself, but whenever the annual 9/11 hoopla starts, I think of it as an echo of my own loss. 9/11 is just the penumbra, 9/20 is when the true shadow falls.
I think of her every day.
Peace, Burquette, and everyone else.
Bug
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I'm truly sorry for your loss.
Thank you for the beautiful message of hope.
But people can have the same demons for decades, none of which we know about.
And they may not even know exactly what they are sometimes.
Sadly we don't know until it's too late sometimes.
It's true. And depression is so much more than sadness, that you start asking yourself, "What's wrong with me?"
Bug
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I lost my sister to suicide. You are right, devasatation doesn't begin to describe it. It blows a hole through the lives of everyone who loved them (and suicides so often seem like people who are dearly and deeply loved, but just couldn't break through the darkness to see it). It ripples through generations. It's a buzzsaw.
She killed herself 9 days after 9/11. 9/11 had nothing to do with why she killed herself, but whenever the annual 9/11 hoopla starts, I think of it as an echo of my own loss. 9/11 is just the penumbra, 9/20 is when the true shadow falls.
I think of her every day.
Peace, Burquette, and everyone else.
We lost our siblings in the same year. I think of him every day, too. So much love to you.
Gravelly-Voiced Fucker
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We lost our siblings in the same year. I think of him every day, too. So much love to you.
That is probably the first time I have ever used the hug emoji on Lush.
Thank you. Back atcha.
Normal Adjacent
I was just devastated hearing about Anthony Bourdain. I don't know why his suicide struck harder than anyone else's. A family history of suicide and several attempts on my part when I was a teenager may have something to do with it. Some days life hurts more than others. I read a quote on by Chris Hardwick that I thought was spot on.
hardwick"Anthony Bourdain was on the podcast a few years ago and was so open, warm, and hilarious. He was inspiring to me on so many levels, not the least of which was that he came out from under an intense drug haze and became successful by just being himself while following his curiosity and passions. I think a lot of us who have struggled with addiction, depression, anxiety—or any of the wide menu of mental health issues—looked up to Bourdain as our champion. The guy who beat it. And you know, maybe that’s not totally fair to put that on him because it isn’t a dragon you just slay once and you’re done. You wouldn’t exercise for a little while and go, “Ok done! I’m fit for life now!” It’s an ongoing process, and that’s okay, because everything needs maintenance. And why is it we put such emphasis on maintaining our cars, our careers, even our dumb fucking social media accounts and NOT our minds??? That other stuff is external. A distraction. It ultimately doesn’t matter. But WE matter. (and yes I see the irony of devaluing social media on social media—it does have positive uses, but it shouldn’t be more important than our health so maybe put that FIRST). Also, what happened with Bourdain does NOT take away from all of the amazing things he achieved and the issues he overcame while he was alive. Between what happened with Kate Spade just a few days ago or any of the 800,000 people worldwide who sadly take their own lives each year, it is important to remember that mental health issues are unbiased. It doesn’t matter how much you have or don’t have. It doesn’t matter what your race, cultural background, or religious beliefs are. It can affect anyone, anywhere, and does. I BEG YOU, if you feel like you’re trapped under the weight of your own brain DO NOT hesitate to get help. It isn’t embarrassing, it doesn’t mean you’re broken, and it doesn’t mean you’re weak. Everyone needs help sometimes and it is a strong move to ask for it. If anything, please let the big takeaway be that no matter where we are in life, we should seek help when we are feeling swallowed up. Take care of yourselves, everyone. The world is a better place with you in it."
to everyone.
hardwick"Anthony Bourdain was on the podcast a few years ago and was so open, warm, and hilarious. He was inspiring to me on so many levels, not the least of which was that he came out from under an intense drug haze and became successful by just being himself while following his curiosity and passions. I think a lot of us who have struggled with addiction, depression, anxiety—or any of the wide menu of mental health issues—looked up to Bourdain as our champion. The guy who beat it. And you know, maybe that’s not totally fair to put that on him because it isn’t a dragon you just slay once and you’re done. You wouldn’t exercise for a little while and go, “Ok done! I’m fit for life now!” It’s an ongoing process, and that’s okay, because everything needs maintenance. And why is it we put such emphasis on maintaining our cars, our careers, even our dumb fucking social media accounts and NOT our minds??? That other stuff is external. A distraction. It ultimately doesn’t matter. But WE matter. (and yes I see the irony of devaluing social media on social media—it does have positive uses, but it shouldn’t be more important than our health so maybe put that FIRST). Also, what happened with Bourdain does NOT take away from all of the amazing things he achieved and the issues he overcame while he was alive. Between what happened with Kate Spade just a few days ago or any of the 800,000 people worldwide who sadly take their own lives each year, it is important to remember that mental health issues are unbiased. It doesn’t matter how much you have or don’t have. It doesn’t matter what your race, cultural background, or religious beliefs are. It can affect anyone, anywhere, and does. I BEG YOU, if you feel like you’re trapped under the weight of your own brain DO NOT hesitate to get help. It isn’t embarrassing, it doesn’t mean you’re broken, and it doesn’t mean you’re weak. Everyone needs help sometimes and it is a strong move to ask for it. If anything, please let the big takeaway be that no matter where we are in life, we should seek help when we are feeling swallowed up. Take care of yourselves, everyone. The world is a better place with you in it."
to everyone. 
Snake Charmera
Anxious
Heart racing
Hands shaking
Hard breathing
Why
Does no one see me
Am I that unimportant
Why does this continue
Why
Crying inside
Bury myself deeper
Smile on my face
Why
See me
Feel me
Know me
Why
Can't I make it stop
Can't I just be normal
Can't I tell you how I feel
Just why?
Having a rough day.
Heart racing
Hands shaking
Hard breathing
Why
Does no one see me
Am I that unimportant
Why does this continue
Why
Crying inside
Bury myself deeper
Smile on my face
Why
See me
Feel me
Know me
Why
Can't I make it stop
Can't I just be normal
Can't I tell you how I feel
Just why?
Having a rough day.
My Anti-Valentine Entry 💔
https://www.lushstories.com/stories/cheating/a-valentines-date-to-remember
My first EP and a top ten from the Pride Competition
https://www.lushstories.com/stories/lesbian/-love-is-love-.aspx
Hanging in the background but around
Quote by TonyaL
Anxious
Heart racing
Hands shaking
Hard breathing
Why
Does no one see me
Am I that unimportant
Why does this continue
Why
Crying inside
Bury myself deeper
Smile on my face
Why
See me
Feel me
Know me
Why
Can't I make it stop
Can't I just be normal
Can't I tell you how I feel
Just why?
Having a rough day.
I'm sorry, honey. I hope you are feeling slightly better now.
sending good thoughts and vibes your way. Please take care. I hope your days get better.
It took me many years and much thinking to realize when super bad things happened to me, it wasn't my fault.
I had always mentally blamed myself.
That, was worse than what I went through, no matter how long or short the duration was.
Or what horrific act was presenting itself to me.
I hope others can see that as well, in their own time and way.
I had always mentally blamed myself.
That, was worse than what I went through, no matter how long or short the duration was.
Or what horrific act was presenting itself to me.
I hope others can see that as well, in their own time and way.
Her Royal Spriteness
i still have panic attacks from time to time. lately, it's been pretty bad - i know why, and it's not surprising, but really, i'd like to be over all that.
You can’t truly call yourself peaceful unless you are capable of violence. If you’re not capable of violence, you’re not peaceful. You’re harmless.
