Quote by Shylass
Dear You,
Okay! She's annoying! I get it! I have to put up with it every day! I totally understand the need to vent about her! But I do not fucking need to do it every single time the poor woman isn't in ear shot! I do not need to belittle her, judge her and make persnicketty comments about her constantly to her family and friends. I have the internet for when it gets too much to bear, and you are a fucking self-righteous, mean, small-minded, judging cow! I don't CARE if you are a trained pychologist, you are a BITCH! Your so-called pragmatism and positive thinking are actually patronising fucking bollocksy bollocking crap. ON A STICK.
And whilst we're at it, when you are making horrible comments about how unfit she is compared to some other woman who lives thousands of miles away, FUCKING REMEMBER that the woman you are making crappy snide observations about has fought and won against breast cancer, undergoing the removal of a breast and intensive chemo, plus has received two new kneecaps and a pacemaker, and suffers from severe arthritis and neuropathy in her feet, hands and back, causing her immense pain. And yet she still has that irritating smile plastered on her face! I vent about her, yes, but I STILL FUCKING RESPECT HER!
And do you FUCKING REALISE that every time you go on and on about her, I am terrified that you go on about ME when I'm not there? I was in SO much much pain today, like two blowtorches were melting away my ankles, and I still dragged myself round your fucking walk! And I know I was NOT the only one out of breath and finding it hard-going. How does it feel to be a FUCKING HYPOCRITE? Oh, that's right, YOU DON'T FUCKING CARE because you are a NARROW-MINDED FUCKING BITCH! WELL, YOU AREN'T FUCKING PERFECT!
Oh, and before I forget: when I say I don't like having my picture taken, it's because I DON'T LIKE HAVING MY PICTURE TAKEN! And I know FULL WELL you will be taking those pictures home to your fucking snidey nasty son so that he can do his usual "She's so fuckin' fat an' ugly!". I WONDER WHO HE LEARNED THAT FROM! I posed for your fucking crappy photos! I don't CARE that you think you can take a good picture of me (it doesn't fucking exist and never will do, you selfish cow), don't you DARE make it seem as if it's an imposition and that you are trying to "help" me by "allowing me" to stand behind other people, and then say "I'm just tryin' to be accomodatin'..." NO, YOU FUCKING AREN'T! If you were, you WOULDN'T HAVE TAKEN THE FUCKING PHOTOS IN THE FIRST PLACE! Oh, I am SOOOOO sorry I am so paranoid and me, me, me about all this. I must work on my positive fucking outlook.
And I don't WANT a cushion with his face on it. He's dead! Stick a fucking cookie on it and I'll love it. Stick his face on it, and I will destroy it. It's GREAT you like to remember people that way. I DON'T!
By the way, before I finish and have a good cry, CLINICAL DEPRESSION is a CLINICAL CONDITION. It doesn't matter how much you think "positive thinking" is the cure. Because CLINICAL DEPRESSION MEANS THAT POSITIVE THINKING IS IMPOSSIBLE FOR SOME PEOPLE! Stuck in a rut of being ill? You think I fucking ENJOY having to think about how to get out of my bedroom in the daytime? That I love having to run to the toilets for a cry at work for no fucking reason and tell my bosses I'm having ANOTHER Bad Day? That I love not being able to respond to conversation or concentrate on the most basic of things whenever and wherever I want and need to? Oh sure! I LOVE being this way! I love saying, "I'm ill, I can't do that!" I think it's GREAT I can't meet up with my mates like a normal person and hold decent conversations with them. I LOVE how I just want to hide and make the world fuck off and not be here, and how I have to push certain thoughts away from me. It's a great joy. I looooove it, I want to aaallllwaaaaayyyyyyssss be like this!
And I ESPECIALLY love how I can say all of this to your face and for you to actually HEAR, UNDERSTAND, and SHUT THE FUCK UP! Oh wait... no... that was just a dream I once had when I was hoping for the best from you.
I can't wait until you go.
Fucking Bollocks To It All,
Me.




