My username says it. I’ve gone from having shameful but incredibly exciting feelings as far back as the 1970s (although with no true context) to having a sense of community here today. I’m certain that the almost religious delirium I feel at the thought of my wife experiencing intense pleasure in the arms of another man stems from a break up period with a beloved girlfriend knowing that she was seriously dating someone else. I felt the angst. I felt the joy at the thought of her pleasure. It’s an incredibly exciting cocktail for those of us who are vulnerable to it. My wife is a beautiful professional woman at the top of the food chain in her field. She’s an incredibly exciting and giving lover. She’s also very discreet and, as far as I know, has never cuckolded me during our marriage even though I let her know in a very clumsy way very long ago that I was very open to the idea. If I’d known what the internet community has taught me now, I would have approached her a different way. She did mention in couple’s counseling that she found new lovers to be very exciting and that she’d treated herself to a sensual bachelorette party with a fighter pilot from our local Air Force base just before we married. I’ve gotten a lot of mileage out of those comments. Anyway, I have a very rich fantasy life wrapped around my lovely wife. I would love to find some friends to discuss similar interests!