I was on Lush previously as Cleavage95 with my boyfriend, where we shared a lot of my chat, PM’s and Lushmail for 5 years. While we are now only occasionally lovers, my former BF continues to support me through my personal, health, and relationship issues. We are now great, life long friends, and he supports my play on lush, as well encouraging my exploration into the BDSM - Dom/sub lifestyle.

Recently, I experienced a week of intense D/s training, exploring my submissive side with a true Dom on Lush. I wish to thank him openly for giving me that chance. In that week I learned much about the Dominant/submissive lifestyle, and more about myself than I had in decades of self exploration and self-help. Looking deep within, I discovered causes of my triggers and deflections that have surfaced at the worst moments throughout most of my adult life. I now have the realization that the hurts from my past have prevented me from a rich life, and limit my ability to love myself and from serving a Dom respectfully and appropriately. I now endeavor to better myself and grow, so that one day I will be able to be happier within, able to trust and love others, and to be worthy of serving a real Dom. Once I do the self-work that I have recently become aware of, I hope to be given the chance to serve in a manner that positively reflects my affection, proper training, and obedience. I am aware that my behaviors will reflect either poorly or positively on any future Dom, and will continue to work hard to put to rest, the demons from my past. I am eager to grow into being the sub that a Dom would be proud to own. In addition to my own emotional work, in order to become a good sub, I have to learn to trust, and carefully follow instructions and tasks. Since I’m a bratty, newbie sub, that has been quite the challenge. While I am very eager to serve and extremely naughty ;), I can be impatient, causing me to not clarify instructions, which leads to failures in servitude.

I have also recently been able to explore my exhibitionist and voyeur sides, through play and posting my markings in chatrooms. With permission and encouragement from the wonderful Dom that trained me, I have learned to play and serve others in the same capacity in threesomes and foursomes in lush chat rooms. Thanks to the exceptional Dom that trained me, and the trust and openness of my best friend, I have enjoyed being a cumslut submissive, immensely.

Treat me as the submissive cumslut I yearn to be.

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