49yo recently widowed and have always had a secret submissive feminine side. Enjoyed crossdressing for as long as I could remember. But only in private and was just beginning to allow my late wife to explore this wild side of me b4 dhe passed. No other person has ever seen or known anything about it. Very shy and nervous about it so looking for someone to take control and feminize me and dress me up in sexy lingerie and makeup and high heels and teach me to submit to his/her every desire. Im open to try anything fun once. Not looking to be completely degraded but looking for someone sensually dominate not cruel to get ball rolling and keep it rolling. Interracial, public, groups, bdsm, deepthroat and cum baths are some turning