Now just the mention about the sexlaess marriage just makes my skin crawl . I spent many years in one myself as a Male and she was a narcissists. But life is short its time to re-invent or get things started again in a kinkier way. Get him naked and start talking different thoughts on kinks and see if his penis is triggered in any way and then run with it , again lifes too short to not be getting laid. Alright that wasnt going to happen for me cause lioking back at the turmoil i lived through brought me to a decision ultimately walk if not run as fast i can away and find myself.

Now I am 50 and ny sex drive is like a teenager . I also learned I have a rare chromosome deficiencie xxy so this means I am by science terms intersexed . Now I said I was 50 but my body thinks I am in my twenties lol xxy halts the puberty from reaching completion. I used to be so self counciouse of this always feeling way immature. Knowing all this now i just let it go and maybe I find somebody wanting to enjoy together here soo.

Back to the original thought of filming yourself close up sounds hot and I do feel I might have this kink as well although I don't film I do close ups in a tasteful way. Looks great being the young appearance . Feels like it's more exposure and more of a turn on . Not like home videos so far away . This is up close and very personal in a touchy, feely kinda way. A kink all in its own . I should try the filming . Where is this pages for viewing .

Another thought since I am intersexed could it be th xx part of me going into sexual prime which is creating the sex drive ? Also had a lady I sent a body pic too asked if i was over 18 lol