Thank you for your replies, which reassure me: it's normal not to be. And everyone should continue to be free to make their own choices.

When I pubish a story, I constantly feel like clicking "Recall" because I always find things to improve. How do you manage this?

Well done to the winners. Your stories are fantastic. And they make me realize how far I still have to go, as a novice amateur, to reach your heights. The road is long, the slope steep, but one day, I will see the horizon like you. Congratulations!