I'm 51 years old, my wife Terry is 52. We have been married for 30 years. I love my wife and would not want to hurt her, but, if she found out what I have done she would never forgive me. Our sex life is not that great, maybe three times a month by mutual agreement. I do use viagra with some results. We live in N.C. and my folks live in Virginia. We go to Va. every other Christmas. Last year was a Virginia Christmas. We u...