I hate myself* for falling into this oneitis/regret ridden trap <_<
Back in early June, I met this girl and I knew her boyfriend pretty good. I added both of them on facebook. A week later, it was prom, I didn't go since I didn't want to go my junior year. I posted as my status "how was prom," she responded. From there on she responded or liked pretty much all my statuses, even my stupid or lulzy ones. I started doing the same, but not as much. Her boyfriend broke up with her and I didn't really know until she got another boyfriend (an old friend of hers).
Now (as in the past week) after I talked to her in person for a while at an event, I started to develop some urge to go out with her, because she is a good personality/interest match. I can't because she is taken. So I feel regret for not doing anything when I could of and starting to get oneitis after being completely disinterested in dating (or girls, not in a gay way) for 3 months <_<
*figuratively
I just realized I don't really have a strong sex drive (although I do work out consistently). Well it never really went anywhere to begin with. I haven't done anything, ever. Such as actively flirt, ask someone out, hold hands, kiss, ect. Its not that I don't want to do any of those things, its just that I see no point to it (maybe because I've never experienced them).
I really just don't have the motivation to go out there and at least try. I got to this conclusion after deciding if I should go to prom or not. If I went I'd have to get a date, go to an after party, and get laid (or at least thats the tradition). At first I thought it wasn't such a bad idea since I could easily get it done, but then I thought to myself, I don't really have to do this. Its not just the whole "prom" thing, its the spending time/effort to get laid or whatever.
I do get horny, have urges, ect, but I don't think they have been able to "overwhelm" me enough to get me out there. I'm also 18, one of the most horny years according to older friends.