I’m just here to try to reconnect with someone I miss.

Sarah,

I hope that someday you read this. I miss you. It's been years since we had to say goodbye, but I still miss you as much as I did on that first day. It broke my heart when you had to cut ties with me, but I need you to know that I understand. I would have done the same. We always agreed that what we had could never come between our real-life relationships with A & J. I just never imagined it would be so hard to let go of.

Sarah, you have to know that the past few years have been really good to me. 'A' and I are still happily married. We have a beautiful daughter who was born in Dec 2022. We also have an incredible baby boy born Oct 2024. 'A' is the most wonderful father, I think you would be proud of him. Motherhood is everything I hoped it would be, and sometimes when it gets a bit overwhelming I think of you and your wonderful family, it never fails to cheer me up.

Quite often recently I find myself thinking back on everything that we went through together. The birth of three of your children, your big move up North and my move to Belfast. Multiple failed relationships on my part, meeting and falling in love with 'A', the start of my first pregnancy. You were by my side for so much, and I will always be grateful. I have a little patch of bluebells in my garden that remind me so much of all the advice you gave me on my wedding day, I always smile when I look at them, so much so that my daughter now thinks flowers are funny.

My life is everything that I ever could have hoped for Sarah. I hope that you feel the same.

H