i sucked my first cock at the age of 37 about 7 months into my marriage. it was at my wife's coercing and request and i was helpless to resist her desire to see me do it. it was in the extreme heat of a moment when i was allowed to watch her with another man. this man was a friend of hers prior to our meeting and knowing now what i did not know then, she got me to admit to her in bed one night my fantasy of being with a woman that would have a bf. well as i later learned, this guy had already been fucking her for almost two years as they were fuck buddies before we met and he had been dying to get her back in bed since she had gotten married but she kept telling him no, that is until i shared my fantasy about her fucking someone else and he was the first person she called. for almost two years she cucked me with him and sucking his cock for her became pretty much a regular thing, she said it made her so wet to watch her husband suck the cock of the man that was fucking her.

i ended up with deep repressed feelings of humiliation and emasculation that still plague me even today and we have not played or even had sex in a very long time now. i struggle with my ability to satisfy her after watching her with him, it changed me somehow, it seems as if it affected my Alpha status as a male.