Quote by trinket
I have to keep my friends, my follows, friend requests and private messages closed and my wall hidden because I have a crazy chicksending nasty messages to my friends and I. I'd love to open everything again but I'd prefer to keep the friends I've got. i can't block her because she joins, sends a msg then deletes. It's tough having fans.
I'm grateful to be able to hide everything.
Quote by CecilyJayne
Wow. This thread. I had never come across it before. There is SO much strength here.
I am not really in sharing capacity, and I'm not sure I ever will be, the weak and vulnerable in me is well squashed and bricked by walls that rarely come down. It always tugs at the heartstrings to read of others' experiences, in spite of that, it is comforting to know that there are others who understand your pain in ways that those around you generally don't. Many many sincere hugs to all who post here or lurk in the background needing the support.
glad you decided to drop by - you don't need to share, you don't need to have the most messed up story here, you don't need to do anything but what you're comfortable with. you're always welcome here. Nice to meet you. 
Quote by PanJinlian
I have written and deleted about 6 posts on this thread without submitting them because sometimes I read back my words and think about how whining and attention seeking my words look, and think to myself about how I should stop thinking things which wallow so much.
And then I try very hard not to judge myself and follow my counsellor's advice and ask myself who is judging me (it's me, of course) and who has decided what SHOULD or OUGHT to happen (and that's me too). So basically I subconsciously decide that my opinions are unsuitable for others because they haven't met my own standards, so I self-censor and stop all talking beyond the 'surface smile' entirely (which is a hugely positive step!).
My mental health has been well and truly fucked by being so ill, so often and for so long. Cancer has cost me everything from my ability to have babies to my chosen career, via pretty much every hobby I've ever done, my independence and my financial stability. It's been taking from me for 20 years now, it just keeps coming back for more and it doesn't appear to be done yet.
At the moment I can't even repeat the positive affirmations that my counsellor wants me to say (I have a thing about not deliberately lying and I won't just mouth positive words unless I can at least feel some reality in them) and He asked me to promise Him that I would not decide to stop being here without talking with Him about it and I can't do that either. I considered a semicolon, but that seems rather like a statement of a war that I hope that I'm winning and at the moment I can't be confident in the least.
I'm going to push through and post this, but it comes with apologies in advance that I may never return to this thread to face it again, or I may return and delete my post.
Congratulations to everybody who manages to succeed to keep breathing on a daily basis.
Quote by Simplicity
I have suffered this for several years. I thank God that He has stood beside me and held onto me through my roughest times. Then He sent me Milik. I also have a tattoo going down the inside of my left arm that says " My story isn't over yet ; " My tattoo guy also knew the meaning of it when he did my tattoo. I am very proud of this tatt, because I have made it through the worse part . I still have my bad days. But I now have someone in my life that holds me and gets me through it. My heart goes out to anyone suffering from this. Hold on, it does get better. I'm living proof.
I also have on the inside of my right wrist the words " Loved & Forgiven " so when I am feeling down depressed worthless, I can look at that and always know I am Loved and I am Forgiven. It has helped me in so many ways.
Quote by ChuckEPoo
I've been through so many crazy things if I said them all you'd either think I was exaggerating or that I need intervention therapy. Lol.
I was shot down in combat flying a gunship... Twice. Surfed a 30 foot wave... unsuccessfully, and was rescued by a jet ski. Survived a main chute failure in airborne training and managed to deploy the reserve. Ended up breaking my tail bone on the hard landing. Hang glided off the cliffs in Carpenteria. Flipped a jet ski. The real crazy crap I'll keep to myself.
Quote by kiera
Hey everyone
Hope you are all doing well?
I just wanted to let you all know I am getting some new tats on Thursday one of which is a semicolon on my wrist in honour of you all here and this thread... the tattooist I spoke to today I think knew of the meaning behind my request as he is doing the semicolon for me for free.
Love to you all and stay strong but more importantly reach out if you need support because help can always be found here.
Quote by Burquette
No...not doubts. But I did identify as lesbian for many years after my (now) wife and I became a couple. It let me avoid conversations about how being bi doesn't mean I get one of each.
Quote by trndytruck
Yes Moderator..Probably a bad choice of words...I will endeavor to rectify that.
Quote by Tnadnuder
No. I want to be notified why my account was deleted, making my username available, when I got an E-mail from a staffer asking for my old Username, which I took as a sign they were checking why my temp.-ban/suspension ended & my IP was banned instead.
