I had expected to find them fighting. Pounding on each other and clawing each other's faces and pulling each other's hair, so when I saw them like that, for about half a second that's what I thought they were doing. That they had been fighting and had ripped each other's clothes off, and Cait had thrown Lucy down on the couch, and Lucy had gotten her in a headlock between her thighs, or something stupid like that.

But that's how my brain made sense of the whole thing.

And then I thought I was hallucinating, or dreaming. I really did, because what I saw was just impossible, so I wasn't even there. I was at home in bed and I was sleeping, and this was just a dream. A wet dream, but a bad dream, and I really, really needed to wake up.

Because it hurt.

And the thing that hurt wasn't that Cait was cheating on me. Well, that hurt too, of course, but it wasn't so much that she was doing it. It was that she had told me so many times that she never would, and I had idolized her for that. And now this perfect person that would never cheat on me wasn't so perfect after all.

But what hurt the most was seeing Lucy like that, and the thing that kept running through my head was 'That should have been me'.

I should have been her first, and that's why I had hated her boyfriend so much because he got to be her first, and I had probably even hated her stuffed unicorn in a way because that thing actually got to be her first really.

Lucy had always been so pure and perfect, like a goddess, and I was her best friend and she was mine, and either she should have stayed untouched all her life or I should get to be the one to touch her first.

She was mine to defile if that makes any sense at all, and that probably makes you think I'm a horrible person, but that's how I felt.

But now she had done all these things without me, and at least I had had dibs on being her first girl. If that was ever going to happen, how could it be anyone but me?

And now that was gone too, and that hurt because there was nothing more left, and Lucy wasn't mine after all.

She was someone else's.

She was Cait's.

They hadn't seen me, so I just turned around and walked out the door. And I stood there in the hallway for a second just to get it through my head that I wasn't dreaming, I guess, and then I walked to the elevator. But then I heard Cait behind me, and she said, "Babe?”

I turned around. She was standing there in the door completely naked and her hair was a mess, and I realized I was looking at her through my tears.

"It's okay, Cait," I said.

"Come inside," Cait said.

"No, I'm going home."

I pushed the button by the elevator doors, but then Cait came out and walked over to me, and she took my hands.

"No, baby. Come inside, please."

So I let her take me back inside. Lucy was putting her clothes back on, but she had only gotten her panties on when I walked in, and she covered her tits like she was for the first time ever embarrassed that I had seen her naked.

"It just happened," she said.

"How?" I said, and I didn't really want to know the details about how it had happened, but what I meant was, how could Cait get her when I never could?

Lucy shrugged and said, "I don't know, it just happened," and then she sat down. Cait walked over to her and sat down next to her, and she actually took her hand and Lucy let her, and seeing that hurt way more than all those other things.

I sat down on the couch opposite them, and I said, "But you hate each other."

They looked at each other, and Cait said, "Yeah, I guess that's why it happened."

"What?”

Lucy turned to me and said, "Look, Cait's just… she's not you and I'm not me."

"What?" I said again.

"You always had all these girlfriends," Lucy continued. "But you never even looked at me like that. Even when I was there, you always waited till you thought I was asleep. Like with Veronica. When you thought I was asleep, you couldn't keep your hands off her.

And Veronica, she even asked me out several times. And she tried to kiss me and… and other things too, but you never did. And I wanted to wait for that, I wanted to wait for you. But I'm just not your type, I get that. I like pink and rainbows and unicorns and Tinker Bell and childish stuff like that. You're into girls that will stick their… their pussy in your face on the first date.

I thought maybe I could change, that maybe I could be like that too, but I can't. Not around you, because you're the only one I could always be the real me with.

And when I met Toby, you just left me. You just let us be, like I was finally out of your hair. And now I'm with him, and you're gone. And then Cait shows up, and she's angry, but she gets it. She knows you and she understands what I'm talking about. And we talked all night and all day, and it was like, she's not you but she's almost you, in a way. So she's the you that I can be a different me around. You know? So I…"

"So she stuck her pussy in my face," Cait said and laughed.

"I did not!" Lucy said.

Then Cait said, "It's like they say, if you can't be with the one you love, be with her cousin," but we didn't laugh, and Cait rolled her eyes like she was saying 'Tough crowd'.

Lucy got up and walked over to me. She sat down on my lap straddling me, and she said, "I'm sorry I lied."

"What?" I said again, and it felt like I was never going to be able to say anything other than that word for the rest of my life.

"I'm sorry I lied," she said. "About being in love with you."

And I whispered, "I'm in love with you too," through a lump in my throat the size of a mountain.

I think I heard Cait say, "Told you," but her words disappeared into this cloud that suddenly wrapped around my brain because Lucy kissed me.

I kissed her back, and she tasted so sweet, and I didn't realize until then how much I had wanted this. She unbuttoned my blouse and put her arms inside of it and around me as she kissed me more, and she unsnapped my bra.

She put her hands under it and on my tits and just massaged my nipples with her palms for a while, and then she pushed herself down, slowly gliding down my legs until she was crouching on the floor in front of me. She pulled at my pants, and I lifted my ass so she could pull them down, and then she pulled my shoes and my pants off.

I was practically hyperventilating by then, and I looked at Cait. I couldn't really read her face, and I thought about telling Lucy to stop because I guess that would have been the right thing to do, Cait being my girlfriend and all, but there was just no way in a million years I was going to do that.

Lucy had already gotten my panties off anyway, and she pushed my knees apart and then she looked up at me, and that innocent fairy-tale princess that couldn't hear naughty words without blushing was back, and she said, "It's my first time, so you have to tell me if I'm not any good."

I nodded, and then she put her mouth on my pussy.

And she wasn't 'not any good'. She was wonderful.

I mean, I could tell she hadn't done it before, but the way she tried, the way she tasted me and explored me and felt her way around all of me like she was genuinely curious, like she was doing it more for herself than for me, was amazing.

Cait got up and came to us, and this time I recognized the look on her face. She sat down next to me and we kissed, and she held the back of my head with one hand and ran her other hand all over my body, and sometimes she stroked Lucy's hair too. Lucy put her lips around my clit and used her tongue on it like she was french-kissing it, and then she kissed it and let go several times, so she made that wet, smacking 'mwah!'-sound, and it sent bursts of lightning through my body, and when she realized I liked it so much, she kept doing it.

I was about to come, and I threw my arms around Cait's neck, and her tongue was wrestling mine, and Lucy went "Mwah! Mwah! Mwah!" and when I came I pulled Cait to me and just hugged her so tight, and my body shook and twitched and I moaned and squealed into Cait's neck.

Lucy kept kissing it and kissing it until I had to push her face away because it was almost torture, and she looked at me like I had hurt her feelings.

"Didn't you like it?"

I was struggling to catch my breath, and I said, "I loved it but… you have to… know when to… stop."

"Oh," she said, and then she smiled like she was so proud, and she got up and sat down next to me, and now I had Cait on my right and Lucy on my left, and I was in heaven.

Lucy put her head on my shoulder, and then she said, "You taste like pumpkin pie spice."

"Uhm…" I said, and Cait burst out laughing.

"What?" Lucy said. "You do!"

Then Lucy made popcorn, and we watched a movie, or really we watched the first ten minutes of a movie, and we didn't even touch the popcorn because we went to go to bed instead.

Lucy wanted us to sleep in her bed, even though Cait and I kinda had our own bedroom there by then, and the three of us showered together, and we brushed our teeth together, pushing and shoving each other and giggling like we were 9-year-olds or something, and then we went to bed.

They have a huge bed, and Lucy lay down on it, and then Cait and I lay down with her between us so our feet were on their pillows and our heads were by Lucy's feet, and Lucy said, "Ha hahh! Very funny!"

And we didn't sleep at all that night.

Then early in the morning, we were just talking, and we were talking about Lucy's boyfriend and I suddenly felt really bad, and so I said "Lucy..."

She was resting her head on my thigh, just looking up at the ceiling and almost drifting off to sleep, and Cait was sitting crossed-legged next to me just running her fingers up and down my arm, and Lucy said, "Mhm?"

"I... I kissed him one time," I said.

"Oh, wow," Cait said.

"I know," Lucy said.

"You know?" I said, and she flipped over and looked at me.

"Of course. He told me. We tell each other everything."

And I said, "Oh."

"You have to do that, you know. If you love someone."

"I know."

We were just silent for a few minutes, and then Lucy sat up and grabbed her phone from the nightstand.

"It's four in the morning," I said.

"That's okay."

It took a while for him to answer, and we could hear him say, "Hey, angel."

Lucy jumped down from the bed and walked out of the room, and as she did we heard her say, "I have to tell you something."