Tears and blood

That's what I have 

A monster is what

I have become

Trails of love

Of heartache left

On the alter gazed

By the Gods

Cursed to transform 

My face begotten 

My body unrecognizable

Seems I shall remain

Frozen in my own

Inward path of 

Destruction.

Through tinted windows

Painted with money

And carved with hate

My lust for self 

Knows no humility 

No humanity 

No reasoning

No reckoning 

A lost soul

Money and power

Are what I crave.

But one would not

Yeld to dysfunction destiny

One souls that heard a plea

That heard a cry

That could see through 

The tented window

Was you.

I yelled, you stood

I ran, you waited

I broke, you fixed

I seduced, you conquered 

I cried, you held

I gave in, you saved

I kissed, you broke

How could this be?

The curse broken

The spell undone

The rage gone

The fight gone

The fear gone

The tears gone

The lonely heart.... gone

You have saved me

Now you lay before me

Dying

Trying to fight

But losing

Fighting with all your strength

All your heart

All your soul

Yet..........you lost

You saved me, 

yet I failed you

Now I sit here

Tears have returned

Blood from my hands flowing

Punching your tombstone 

Dagger in hand

Yet unable to join you

Because you would be disappointed 

In my selfish attempt to join

You at your side

Wait for me belle

I'm coming

And I will wear this pink for you

Losing you will hurt the man

But meeting you has saved the beast