I woke up to my usual routine of getting ready and making sure I had my homework in my backpack. As I left my house I heard my mom call for me.

“Don’t forget your permission slip that your father signed for you so you can return to the football squad.”

I quickly grabbed the slip my mom held out for me.

“Thanks mom.”

My mom smiled at me and simply stated, “Have a good day at school hun.”

I smiled back and walked my normal route to school. The entire walk I prayed to myself hoping that Amanda had already left for school so I could walk in peace to school. And who knows I might be able to figure what I was going to do about her. I laughed to myself and realized that I doubt I will ever figure out what I was going to do about her.

Lost in my thinking, I finally heard her speak.

“You idiot.”

I looked over to see Amanda sitting on her pouch obviously waiting for me.

I simply looked at her, “How am I an idiot?”

She walked up to me so she could face me.

“Why were you afraid to tell me you lost your virginity?”

I looked at her searching her face to see if she was pissed at me or if she were hurt. The only thing I could find in her face was sorrow.

I brought my head down, “I don’t know. It’s just kind of embarrassing.”

She continued to talk to me while my head was down.

“How is that embarrassing?”

I sighed, “I don’t know. I think it was because it wasn’t with someone special.”

Now her face changed from sorrow to what looked like she was hurt.

“Then why did you do it?”

I scratched my head, “I don’t know. It sounded like a good idea at the time.”

She just huffed and simply stated, “Fine. Whatever. We better head off to school or we’re going to be late.”

She turned around and started walking to school without me. I quickly hurried up and followed her to school.

The entire time we walked we didn’t say a single word until we got to school.

She turned around and faced me. She held up a note for me, “Seeing how we have a couple of periods before we have class together again. I want you to read this and I expect a reply before we have class together.”

I grabbed the note and before she let go she said, “Do you promise?”

I gave her a small smirk, “Only if we are good. Then I’ll promise.”

She smirked back at me, “We’re good for now.”

I smiled back at her and watched her as she hurried off to her class.

I sighed to myself and rushed off to my first period.

“Ah Jay. Good to see you. Did you bring in your permission slip like I asked?”

I looked at my teacher, “Yes Coach. Here you go.” And I handed him my slip.

Coach laughed, “Please we’re not on the field. Here you can call me Mr. Morrison.”

I quickly replied, “Yes Mr. Morrison.”

He looked down at the slip and smiled, “Good.

So we’ll see on the field next week.”

I swallowed at my coach, “Yes Sir.”

He looked at me, “Good. Go ahead and sit down. Class is about to start.”

I sat down and waited for Mr. Morrison to start his lecture so I could read Amanda’s note.

As soon as he started his lecture, I immediately pulled out Amanda's note, opened it, flattened it so it looked like it was part of my notebook so if Mr. Morrison looks it'll look like I was taking notes, and began to read.

Jay,

I'm sorry I didn't call you last night after I got dinner. But you're note kind of put me in a loop. First I was thinking to myself why you didn't tell me to begin with. Then I thought why you would try to hide it from me. We have been friends for a long time. I have always shared everything with you. And up until now you have shared what I hope has been everything to me. I know I can't understand what it's like to lose your virginity because I'm still a virgin. So for now I'm willing to give you a pass and let you get away with not telling me that you had lost your virginity. Only if you promise that we continue to tell each other everything and not hide anything. With that out of the way. Tell me what it was like? Or at least the girl you lost your virginity to? Who was she? What did she look like? Please tell me. -A

I smiled to myself as I read the note realizing that Amanda wanted to continue to be friends and stay how we were. Only problem I didn't want us to stay how we were. I wanted to broaden our relationship.

I thought about my answer for a little while trying to figure out how I was going to word my reply. Finally I figured what I was going to say.

A,

It’s alright you didn’t call me last night. I understand. I’m just happy you are going to forgive me, I was kind of afraid of that you might be mad at me. I don’t know call me silly. I don’t know what I would do if I lost you as a friend. As for me losing my virginity. I really don’t know how to describe it. As for the girl her name was Jessie. She was a nice girl I met at the Les Promenades restaurant in Le Mans, France. We hung out for a few days and once she found out I was a virgin she instantly got turned on and pretty much raped me. Don’t get me wrong. It was nice to finally have sex, but it just didn’t feel right. I think it was because it wasn’t with someone who I actually knew. I don’t know if I’m explaining that right. Or if it makes any sense. Well I hope I have answered your questions. What about you? If you didn’t know I lost my virginity what would you think? Or do for that matter? Well I look forward to your reply. – J

I folded the new piece of paper and wrote on it Amanda’s name.

Just as soon as I got done folding the paper the bell rang signaling the class was over. I had entirely missed Mr. Morrison’s lecture because I was focused on writing back Amanda.

The rest of the classes were pretty quick until the final moment came. The class I shared with Amanda.

Be on the look out for part 3.