Your pale skin is a living canvas that never hides your emotions, your most primal and secret acts. The way you blush when you're excited or nervous. The way your hips have been left with pale red imprints from my hands, or how your back will show the jagged lines my nails made when marking you. The curls of your auburn locks fall just shy of your shoulders. The crystalline, dusky color of your eyes, fixated on me now as you slide the shower's glass door shut.
Random frames from last night play through my head, flashes that lead up to this surreal moment. Telling my friend I'd drop by, but only for a few light drinks because I had to work the next day. You showing up with some new guy, some arrogant prick I immediately felt like punching in the face. Both of us avoiding one another save for random eye contact throughout the night and I would always wonder what you were thinking when your gaze would linger for more than a few seconds.
Then I'd fix a new drink, stronger than the previous one, to dull that thought process. In the last few months, I've spent more than enough time trying to figure you out, to forget you, and to no longer ask why it seemed so easy for you to move on while I was still looped in some kind of stasis.
I woke up in a loveseat, body stiff from sleeping curled up in such a cramped space. You were asleep on the couch nearby, alone, your hoodie being used as a pillow. I always loved to see you like that.
When awake, your eyes always seem to hide so much, like the beautiful blue in them was merely swirls that covered up a darkness beneath that you could never let others get too close to. But I did try; at least I can say that much. Asleep, though, you seem entirely at peace.
I checked my watch, happy that I still had time to grab a shower and maybe a quick bite before work. Plenty of time to wake up and shake off the slight hangover pounding in both temples.
First, though, I grabbed a spare blanket from my friend's closet. I covered you up and silently cursed at myself for watching you to way I used to. Like when you used to spend nights at my place and each breath you would exhale felt like a warm breeze across my skin. I'm watching you like you're still mine. I don't know if you ever were.
At least, I thought, I can just take a shower, leave, and put you out of my mind bit by bit as the day goes on.
But, you're here now, only a few inches away. Every stitch of clothing gone. Every curve of your voluptuous frame shiny with what's splashed against me and ricocheted onto you. Several teeth bite your lower lip as you reach out for me again.
I stay still this time, paralysed from need, my length already growing from slow strokes. Whenever we've been together, one simple touch like that from you always sets things in motion. The same goes for the several times since we parted ways as a couple. It hasn't changed.
Lately, each day and night has been like drifting through a fog, lights and voices trying to reach through each tendril that surrounds me. Much like the steam that surrounds us now, every breath and movement changes its path, its collisions.
Your presence is like that to me; a force that can break through the cold chrysalis my heart has been encased in, turning the debris into pure heat and need that screams louder than everything else inside. The other parts of me, the ones that should make me leave or ask you why you showed up last night with some shallow clone of me, fall silent. I become all animal instinct here, ready to spring into motion, to claim and mark my territory.
We collide with a sound akin to a slap. Your hair, left in tangled curls from the water, whips against my neck as we kiss. Hungry lips are raw and ignited, as they cover and crest over one another.
Your entire body shivers against me as if your every cell brims with feverish anticipation as I grow harder from the slippery friction of your hand. My own hand trails lower now and I savor the surprised gasp you utter when my fingers part your smooth slit, trespass beyond lips, and delve deep within where you long for me the most right now.
Even as the water rains down on us, I can still tell the difference between it and the heat that pulses inside you, quivers through your inner muscles as I begin to probe them.
Our times together have swayed between soft and sweet (you even once confessed that I was the only person you ever felt like you were really making love with) to just furious bursts of taking one another. I burn for you either way, the fires just fan out and sweep over us with different speeds. In the end, we're torched with the same intensity.
Everything feels raw this morning to me, basic and immediate. I just want to take you now, remind why you always come back to me.
I spin you around and see how caught off guard you are, eyes awash in a mix of surprise and need. Then, a playful grin, because you know you're the only one who can summon this side of me, this ravenous animal that lies dormant until charged into life by your presence. A part of me hates that you can render me so untamed. Deep down, though, where my desire for you is inescapable, I still give in. Lose myself in you.
You follow my cue and ready yourself, one hand against the wall, the other clutching the top of the shower door. I break into you, a singular thrust entirely filling you, sending shakes through both legs.