They took control – and I let them. She got out her harness, fitted a medium-big dildo in it, then had me get up in doggie position and took me slowly from behind. Meanwhile, he knelt in front of me, his cock in my mouth. They started working me in unison, moving towards each other, then away at the same time. It felt like I was being squeezed between them, his cock pushing down my throat and she was pushing me towards him while burrowing deep into my cunt.
She was going at it harder than he, and since I needed to be used roughly, I grabbed him by the balls and used them as a handle to pull him deeper, until my nose pressed against his pubic bone and the fist holding his balls touched my chin.
They caught my need. She started to fuck me harder and faster, and he matched her until I lost it.
I was finally getting the fucking I had so desperately wanted all through our training, but couldn’t have…
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Norway
Our Cohort was down to eighteen, and I was on the third of three teams of six. We were shipping out to another camp, this time in Norway, for the next part of our qualification and training.
Our wake-up call was 2200 hours – 10 p.m. – for an 0400 departure. We dressed and straightened up the bay where we had lived for the first camp, gathered our travel gear, ate a light meal, and were loaded onto a bus that took us to an isolated airfield.
Just before getting off the bus, we were told to pull our balaclavas down over our faces and keep them down until further notice. We were also told to not talk amongst ourselves or with the aircrew unless told otherwise. Okay, no problem; nap time!
Our ride was a NATO C-130J transport plane, the biggest plane I had ever been on, but with far fewer amenities than any civilian transport. That’s okay – I planned on sleeping, so I didn’t care what it looked like.
To a casual observer, if there had been one, I imagine we all looked mysterious and dangerous as we were all armed and wore black tactical uniforms, boots, gloves, and light assault packs. It was quite the fashion statement.
Since the pallet with our kit bags had already been loaded, we went from the bus and walked up the aircraft’s tail ramp. Once seated and strapped in, the ramp was raised and the aircraft took off almost immediately.
I drifted off despite the racket of the engines. I had learned that you slept when you could, wherever you were because you were probably going to need it later.
The flight lasted about two hours and when we landed it was still dark. The plane taxied directly to another isolated hanger and stopped. The ramp was lowered and we were directed to a nearby bus. I noticed that the bus windows were blacked out. When all of us were on board and seated, a curtain was drawn between us and the driver, and we departed. All very secret and hush-hush. I just hoped these boys were enjoying their games. I went back to sleep.
I was clueless about where we were, but after an hour of bouncing around in the bus, we jerked to a halt at a facility surrounded by forest. As I got out, I could feel that it was distinctly colder – certainly below freezing – and wondered what kinds of fun and games we had ahead of us.
As the bus pulled away, we formed up and were told to “uncover” (remove our balaclavas), then led to a classroom for a briefing that lasted about an hour. From there we were sent to break down the pallet we’d built for our kit bags and stow our gear in our billets.
Our new home was modern, clean, and relatively comfortable – a definite upgrade from the stalag where we had lived for the first part of our training. The living area was still an open bay, and since there were fewer of us, we had more space. There were no bunk beds, plus the building had a separate dorm room for those instructors who had accompanied us.
It was now mid-morning, and we began drawing gear appropriate to the terrain – skis, ruck covers, over-whites for our fatigues, and additional gear for each team, such as a sled to transport equipment in the snow, a small tent, a stove, and similar equipment appropriate to maneuvers in a cold climate.
Then it was on to training.
A typical morning began with calisthenics at 0500, followed by timed wind sprints interspersed with crawls and buddy carries on a football field to replicate evacuating a casualty.
I mass about forty-five kilograms, or about 100 pounds, and I was supposed to drag some guy who was twice my mass or more for ten meters.
Fortunately, there was no lifting required. We would pair up, he’d stand back-to-back with me and I’d link with his arms. Then I’d lean forward and pull him with his heels dragging for ten meters. Slowly. Then we’d switch and I’d get to ride for the next ten meters. Somehow, my riding never lasted as long as my dragging.
Sometimes, in lieu of the wind sprints, we’d go for a five-kilometer run, which was no problem for me. My legs might not be as long as the rest of the Cohort, but I didn’t have as much mass to lug around and my endurance was among the best.
All of this was followed by an hour in the state-of-the-art fitness center. We assembled in teams and followed a different exercise circuit each day involving the use of free weights or exercise machines. Then after each circuit, we would perform a ten-meter/thirty-two-foot rope or pole climb.
Pole or rope climbs were my strong point. The guys could all throw more weight around, but none could scamper up a rope line or do a pole ballet as I could.
On our first pole exercise, the instructor in charge of that event asked if anyone had experience climbing a pole. I kept quiet, but he called my name anyway and told me to give a demonstration of a pole workout. Without knowing specifically why he picked me or what he had in mind, I worked that pole like a stripper, swarming up it with hands and feet in nothing flat.
When I got to the top, I leaned back, no hands, and did a slow head-down corkscrew around the pole. After coming about three-quarters of the way down, I reached up so my head was upright, did a descending one-handed swirl, landed lightly on my toes, then took a bow to a cheering ovation from my teammates.
The instructor grudgingly told me my pole exercise was a good if somewhat unorthodox way to gain attention prior to giving a class.
Then he said, “Now teach these guys how to scramble like a squirrel.” So I did – which, unfortunately, doomed me to being called “Squirrel” from then on. Oh, well – I’ve been called worse. But as time wore on I became the designated roper and tree climber, which made sense because I was the lightest and most agile.
After our workouts, we would clean up, change into our “work wear,” eat lunch, and muster with our equipment kit.
Then the entire Cohort would ski to the range and shoot from the firing line to “warm up”. Ha, what a term, it was fucking freezing! Then we would ski from point to point engaging pop-up targets along the way. Then we’d ski to one of the other training sites.
Next, we practiced things like climbing, rappelling, or wilderness survival. Everyone else in the Cohort had been trained in these things before, so it was no big deal for them. Me? I was an embarrassing newbie starting at square one.
I found mountaineering particularly challenging because I really had to focus and catch up. Climbing, learning how to fall, rope work, knots, building a traverse, rappelling – this is all fun I kept telling myself. Fortunately, when we did mountaineering or target shooting, we worked in pairs, which helped as I drew a bright and supportive guy from another team named Albert. Albert was an actual Alpinist. For him, the mountaineering training we were doing was rudimentary, so he was able to coach me and help me over the rough bits.
Was it luck that I was paired with Albert? I don’t think so. During training, the cadre had begun pairing us with people from the other teams so we could coach each other. It was also a way to get us to know others and draw us out of our team cocoons.
Even though I was a novice shooter at the beginning of the selection process, to almost everyone’s surprise, including mine, I had done well. I really paid attention to what I was taught, but I would also slip into what I called “The Zone.” I had learned and developed this in my training as a slave, as well as in martial arts, yoga, and my dance routines. In The Zone, I let go of all the distractions around me, focused on the target, relaxed, controlled my breathing, and gently squeezed the trigger until it broke. As a result, when I shot, I hit. Thank you, Miriam!
As for Albert? He had more training in shooting than I had but was stiff when he shot. I helped him loosen up on the range, and he helped me up on the mountain.
As it happened, this phase of the training got me interested in competing in national and international biathlons later on. This turned out to be a real plus since being a legitimate competitor or a corporate sponsor for international competitions was a great way for me to “visit” places of interest without suspicion.
In the afternoons the Cohort would remain together for topics like advanced and wilderness first aid, communications, surveillance tools and techniques, and tactical planning. Then we would regroup as teams to refine or apply what we had been taught. Finally, we would break for dinner.
After dinner, we’d return as teams to the classroom or fitness center. The location would alternate. Some evenings we would learn basic phrases in other languages (an aptitude test, perhaps?), maybe do additional combat training or spend time on the climbing wall. Regardless, we were always building upon what we’d done before.
This phase’s graduating event was during the third week. Operating as teams we were required to perform a clandestine surveillance of a “criminal element,” being a group of instructors. This required planning, stealth, patience, and accurate reporting. We were inserted by helo, then had a day and a half to reach the target area, which required skiing, climbing, and traversing rugged terrain. We set up a stealth base for surveillance which was moved daily, snooped to obtain the required information, and then reported the results by encrypted radio.
Finally, we were told to exfiltrate to a distant extraction point. I was not the one only who wondered if we were being set up again for another trip to the Gulag. Accordingly, we were hyper-vigilant and detected and successfully bypassed two ambushes. Yes!
We knew something was amiss when we received a message informing everyone that Team Two was not responding to contact efforts, and was therefore presumed lost. We later learned what actually happened during the post-exercise debrief – they had stumbled into an ambush and were flunked out. So the six on that team, plus another two who had been injured during the exercise, were gone, which was sobering.
One of the injured guys was from my team, who had blown out a knee. We treated him and checked on him during halts. Whenever we moved, I took point as team scout. My job was to make sure the way ahead was clear and keep us out of an ambush. The other four guys on our team handled the communication and navigation and carried our injured guy on a jury-rigged litter.
That division of labor made sense. They had the brawn whereas I had demonstrated a “feel for the forest,” and could sense when something wasn’t right. Our extraction went off without a hitch, and when we arrived at our landing zone, we loaded our teammate into a waiting medical vehicle and bid him goodbye, then the remaining five of us boarded the helicopter back to base. There we were taken to a meeting room, debriefed, and told to prepare for transfer to Scotland for the final phase of qualification and training.
The Cohort was now down to ten.
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Scotland
Our departure for Scotland was the same song, second verse. Another early wakeup and flight in the dark. Same rules of non-engagement, same type of aircraft as before. Balaclavas down, keep mouth shut, nap, and go where we were told. The only difference was that there were fewer of us.
The training in Scotland emphasized direct action. Most of the guys spent their time in the “firehouse,” where they did live fire exercises, including Breaching and Close Quarters Battle simulations.
I only spent only a half-day doing that because I was told it was only necessary for me to become familiar with the drills, not to be proficient in executing them. Instead, I and three others were going to be receiving what was called technical training. As a result, we had a different training schedule and became immersed in pre-operational surveillance techniques and advanced marksmanship.
The surveillance techniques covered things like wiretaps, phone cloning, bug sweeps, and so on. Our instructor for this topic reminded me of the tech guy, Q, in the Bond films. He even had the same exasperated air about him and jealously protected his equipment.
At the start of our first session, he set the scene by telling us to imagine that we were alone, without support or assistance in hostile territory, charged with gathering the info needed for a successful, upcoming operation.
I didn’t say anything, but I had flashbacks to my times in Brussels, Frankfurt, and Stockholm. I suspected that it wasn’t chance that landed me in this group and that I was being led along a predetermined track.
The other part of my training, advanced marksmanship, and target surveillance, meant I was now expected to be able to accurately engage – kill – targets up to about 600 meters away. Consequently, I swapped out my previous rifle, an HK416, for an HK417 with a sniper scope, and spent time on range honing my skills. This included the techniques used to make a stealthily approach, and conducting surveillance of a target.
One time, during a break, while we were on the range, our instructor said, “Compared to the other types of action, what you are doing now requires an ability to act on your own, to be patient and vigilant, and to be able to respond quickly to change. It’s more personal because you’re working solo – there is no one else to consult or discuss things with. You either have what it takes to do this kind of work, or you don’t. We can’t train for it.”
That was probably why I had been selected for this training: because I had done precisely this kind of surveillance and intelligence gathering on my own, and Victor knew it.
Anyway, while the four of us were practicing shooting, crawling about, or tinkering with the gadgets, the other six members of the Cohort were refining their assault skills. Finally, we were all put to the test at the beginning of the third week during a three-day, live-fire exercise.
Starting on the night prior to Day 1, I and another tech were inserted and began surveillance of the target. Based on our reports, plus video from a drone that we launched and controlled, the other two techs, who were at the assault team’s rehearsal site, were able to build a refined target profile. As the plan evolved, the assault team rehearsed their attack. Upon signal, I switched roles from surveillance to sniper.
My partner and I moved separately to new positions and were in what is called Overwatch. Our job was to engage the four external guards, two for each of us, and then deal with anyone who tried to enter or depart the target site. Fortunately, the assault went like clockwork, taking seven minutes from start to finish.
Upon completion, the whole Cohort was assembled and debriefed. Then we were told we would be going on a Romp, which is instructor-speak for a cross-country hike. No big deal, right? Then they gave us the rules, and it became clear that it was no kind of fun and games.
First, there was a time limit for completion, and we would not be told what it was, but if you didn’t reach the finish line in time, you were out.
Second, each of us would be given a different initial destination. Pick your own route, then when you arrived at that destination, you would be given your next one. The process would continue until completion. We wouldn’t be told where the finish line was until we got there.
Third, if anyone wanted to quit, there would be no shame attached to it. Just sit beside a main road and someone would be by to pick you up.
Questions? No? Good. Let’s get started.
So: no known distance or time limit, no known route. All the while we would be zig-zagging over hills and dale and thru marshes and moors. Probably no sleep either. Just go and don’t quit. Ja, ok, I get it. Fun!
So it began – as did the rain. As I learned later, we were expected to cover approximately eighty kilometers in less than seventy-two hours. I didn’t quit, but I did cross paths with a few of the others who were running low on energy and desire. Some of them recovered and pressed on. I was dog tired, and starting to feel lightheaded, but I’d felt that way before. I didn’t like it, but I knew I’d survive, and that I had to keep going.