Being a sissy means being aroused most of the time, most days. I'm very attentive to women's bodies and have sexual thoughts most of the time. When I'm at the office, I pay special attention to women's feet. I love the warm months because that's when they wear sandals and open-toe shoes. Just the sight of a woman's bare feet sends a thrill through me. Even short socks on a woman's foot can capture my attention. I once saw a woman who was wearing short white socks in her sandals. I could see the lines of her toes. It excited me. Sometimes a woman wearing shoes on her bare feet will slip off the shoes while distracted with a task, or move the shoe on and off, dangling it at times. That excites me too. I have to pretend not to be looking while finding a way to see her feet. Just writing these thoughts and remembering such scenes excites me, so that I'm touching myself at times as I write.
I also notice women's busts. I envy them so much, wishing I had breasts like theirs. I'm on the thin, though fit side, so I definitely don't have breasts like theirs. I do have nipples, though, and when I touch them gently, they get hard, which I like. When I feel them that way, it's like pretending to have girly breasts, which I wish I did. Whenever I'm with a woman, I do notice their breasts, clothed of course. Again, I have to pretend not to notice, not to stare, even though I'm looking. When a woman wears an open at the top or a low-cut blouse, it's very hard not to stare. Sometimes a woman dressed like that bends over, and I can see the top of her breasts. That's exciting!
Most of all, I feel like a sissy, most of the time, and especially feel that way whenever I'm around women. I act like a man, like a boy, but inside I'm feeling very girly and submissive. I like it when a woman tells me what to do, even in some expected situation, like when I do need instruction in something and it just happens to be a woman providing it. That excites me. I listen to her closely and follow her instructions, and all the time I'm aroused, but hiding it.
If a few women are talking and I'm nearby, I like being around them that way. I pretend I'm their submissive sissy and openly known to them, and they're talking and ignoring me, which feels right. I wish I could play at their feet, like a puppy, licking their toes, or being on my back, knees up, wishing they would play with me with their feet. One of my fantasies is to imagine myself naked, hugging a woman's leg, then resting my butt on her bare foot, the top of her foot between my asscheeks, her big toe penetrating my 'pussy'. So hot!
In the office, I notice when one of the women goes into the single-use restroom. If I can, I'll go in afterwards. It's a thrill just being in there after her. I undo my pants and drop my undies, then kneel in front of the toilet. She sat there, so I reach out to embrace the seat, feeling, if I'm lucky, the warmth of her still there. If I feel it, I lean forward and lick the seat. I know it's icky, but I can't resist. I imagine her seeing me, telling me to do so.
As a sissy, I always carry a little bottle of lotion in my pants. Especially if I'm in the restroom at a time like that, or other times too, after an exciting view of her bare feet or a peek at her open-blouse bust, I need to take down my pants and undies and touch myself, a little lotion on my fingers. At times like that, I wish so much I was kneeling in front of the toilet, her sitting there, her bare pussy right in front of me, and me leaning forward as she pees, her pee wetting my face and into my mouth.
I also imagine myself being babied by a woman. She teases me, gives me a pacifier to suck on, or has me drink milk from a baby bottle. I imagine her wetting the bottle nipple in her pussy, then giving it to me to suck. I imagine making a cummy in my diaper, or peeing and pooping. The embarrassment of her seeing me do this is so intensely arousing! After I'm cleaned up, she dresses me in a short girly dress and baby socks. She might feed me from her breasts!
When I shower, I like to play with my 'pussy'. I lotion my fingers and push them a bit inside my hole, spreading my lotion-slick cheeks. I lotion my thighs and rub their smoothness together, or posing with my legs together, my feet aligned together, or half-bent, my butt out as if ready for fucking, bent over, my hands on my ankles, or kneeling on the floor, spreading my cheeks, exposing my 'pussy', my 'clitty' always hard, with a little pre-cum drop appearing.
I love being femme under my boy clothes. I always wear panties and sometimes a thong! I regularly shave my body smooth. As the smooth skin appears, I'm excited. I love rubbing lotion on my bare, smooth legs and feet. I try not to cum, just to prolong the feelings. But sometimes, even when I don't want to cum, I do anyway, I can't help myself! I want to wear a bra to the office, but I'm afraid I'll be noticed, so I don't. But I do wear silky, lacy tops under my shirt. And sometimes I wear stockings. Or short, thin girly socks under my regular socks. The feeling of these clothes and my smooth body under my suit or more casual pants and shirt is exquisite.
I do wish everyone there knew me, knew I was a sissy, knew how much I yearned to be their submissive little girly, knew how much I want to suck the men's cocks and be fucked by them, and, most of all, be a subby little girly licking 'mommy's' bare feet!
