Project Semi Colon: Lush Style

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Thank you so much ladies. I was definitely having a day and cried silent tears last night. The anxiety can be overwhelming at times. I really do have a lot on my shoulders, which I'm sure many of us here do. I am very grateful to have you to silently lean on when I need to and who are here to listen to me even when I don't exactly understand what I'm feeling or why. You are amazing women. Thank you for the support always. ♥️♥️

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love you. it doesn't really get better, you know, you just learn to live with it better. you're in good company here, though. did i mention i love you?

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I haven’t been here in awhile but that doesn’t mean that I haven’t thought about all of you. Today would have been my daughter’s 10th birthday if she’d had the chance to be born! This was her due date! She was taken from me brutally when I was and beaten! Three months earlier her father was murdered when he pulled over a young punk for a broken license plate light! This is why I thank God everyday for my almost 18 year old son who looks so much like his dad!
I’m always a little numb on this day every year. It’s not getting easier like they said it would.
She’s my little angel ?

Quote by TonyaL
Thank you so much ladies. I was definitely having a day and cried silent tears last night. The anxiety can be overwhelming at times. I really do have a lot on my shoulders, which I'm sure many of us here do. I am very grateful to have you to silently lean on when I need to and who are here to listen to me even when I don't exactly understand what I'm feeling or why. You are amazing women. Thank you for the support always. ♥️♥️

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Hey hey just having a moment ..sorry. Tears of joy, right! It's good to cry, it helps cleanse the soul. My mum always says, '..don't hold back your tears, Lisa ..they are the most expensive gift you have, share them with me ..' ..with my mum being sick, in and out of hospital, family demands, friends struggling and suffering, trying to please everyone ..ok, I got this!!

Just being silly ..not to worry, I'll bounce back!!! Bring it in group hug Be good. Take care. Stay positive and happy. Keep pushing forward. Bring it in for a final group hug

Have a super fantastic day y'al ..happy happy joy joy E xx

Quote by TonyaL
Having a day today. My anxiety has been high for a couple weeks. My therapist has been worried about me crashing for awhile. Today might be that day. I just am feeling so out of sorts. I wanna scream, cry, and curl up in a ball to disappear. I just feel like everything is so overwhelming. I feel like I carry so much on my shoulders and no one understands the weight of that. I worry about so much and can't stop. I saw my asshole stepfather posting on Facebook about having no one and how his life is and I just want to post so much underneath. How he took so much of my life away from me. How can he still get to me all these years later? How can a post make me feel so weak? All those people telling him how much of a good person he is and families drift apart. Do they know he was just found od'd left on a porch to die? Do they know he crashed my brother's car because he nodded out behind the wheel and my brother is responsible for the damages.
Then I was so anxious that every part of my body was wound up tight to go to court for disability. Just driving there was so hard. How can this be? I drove for a living and it was difficult to drive the highway and around the city to get there only 30 minutes away but felt like a world away. Of course I have no answers yet from that but things did seem to go well. It would definitely help some. Life is hard. Having anxiety and depression makes it that much harder. Some days I just don't know what to do. I'm sorry for letting everything out here I just needed to release some of this somewhere. I'm sending hugs to anyone who needs one. Thank you for being here.

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Thank you all for letting me rant. Hugs and kisses on demand.

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I have been part of Lush for just over a year now and in this thread. I did not know how bad a shape I was in when I got here, but the support was fantastic.

I met a woman the other day, a straight woman who needed something new and better in her life. A year ago I would have been too scared of, oh, all sorts of things I guess. I would have gone home that night wondering if I missed another chance.

I don't know where this relationship is going. She may decide she prefers men despite the crap she's put up with, or she may meet someone younger, or we might still be together in twenty years. We are lovers now and for as long as we continue.

All I know for certain is that none of this would have happened without you good people. I want to thank every one of you with a hug and a kiss. Even men. I love you all.

Crap. I'm crying tears of joy.

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I just saw this picture on Facebook. My counselor wants me to take care of my inner child. Show her unconditional love, tell her none of it was her fault, do things with my littley that would be great for the childhood I lost. My problem is I don't know how to do any of this. I've been responsible for so many people for so long I don't know what to do to just let my inner child out. I color and draw with my girl but does anyone know what else I could do to help my inner child?
Another "homework" assignment is to monitor my self-talk. I'm not even sure how to talk to myself except about what I need to do today etc. Any ideas would be greatly appreciated. Thank you for any advice or help.

I hope everyone is having a good day today.

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I am struggling with my emotions right now
My anxiety is going crazy and I will admit I felt more at ease venting here than in the ear of a friend.

I’ve written about my past and abuse in here and I know it’s a safe place.

I received a phone call a couple hours ago and didn’t know how to feel. An ex boyfriend who was a total tool and asshole tried killing him self tonight.
A few years ago after his daughter was born he contacted me and apologized for everything he had done to me and said looking at his daughter he hopes no one treats her the way he treated me and that he wanted to make amends and hope karma didn’t come back at him through her.

I forgave him and we haven’t spoken since

Our dads are still friends so I know he has a new son and what I heard was that his marriage was better than ever.

Then tonight a mutual friend calls me and tells me he’s in ICU from taking around 80 pills... that he was in a fight with his wife and took off and tried to get a cop to shoot him and ended up passing out DRIVING away from the officer
It’s INSANE

I should not care so much but I do!
I’m thinking about his kids and his wife
I’m thinking about how much people pretend to be ok when they aren’t

I just want him to make it and get help, I want to hug his wife and tell her she had support

FUCK!!!!!! I don’t understand why there isn’t better help out there for those suffering from depression and why people still feel ashamed to admit they need help without it getting to this point

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I have been part of Lush for just over a year now and in this thread. I did not know how bad a shape I was in when I got here, but the support was fantastic.

I met a woman the other day, a straight woman who needed something new and better in her life. A year ago I would have been too scared of, oh, all sorts of things I guess. I would have gone home that night wondering if I missed another chance.

I don't know where this relationship is going. She may decide she prefers men despite the crap she's put up with, or she may meet someone younger, or we might still be together in twenty years. We are lovers now and for as long as we continue.

All I know for certain is that none of this would have happened without you good people. I want to thank every one of you with a hug and a kiss. Even men. I love you all.

Crap. I'm crying tears of joy.

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I love you all It is simple as that, faults and all. Thank you for being you, special, unique and damn awesome!! Just knowing you exist is enough, that somewhere out yonder in the world, you are on the same planet as me. Thank you for the inner beauty you cannot see in your reflection but others do, and I am proud and honored to be one of those others. Thank you for that inner strength, you think you do not have but it shows in your every actions ..better stop while I'm ahead, getting a little emotional here .. tea anyone

Bring it in for a nice warm tight group hug ..let's spread from love love in here, some tears of joys, fun and laughter, and some good old sitting in silence. Yes, sitting in your room, all alone with your thoughts is good too. Just don't forget, you matter!! Ok ..I'll shuddup

Group hug everyone Stay positive, keep smiling and push forward. Love love me xx

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I really can't say this too often.

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Group grope everyone

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Group grope everyone

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Thank you all for being there for Grace. Apparently, group gropes are good for her. And so are true friends.