Give up - your aren't a girl, so you can not become a better one.

I've never had the real "professional" painting done - the type that looks so real you could walk down the street and people would think you were in a bathing suit. I'd LOVE to try that sometime. But I have had my boobs painted and gone to Halloween or masquerade parties. Lots of fun and, if other girls are also doing it, you won't feel so alone and exposed. Personally, I have smallish breasts that do not really jiggle or bounce too much when I walk, and it isn't to hard to do this and not be noticed too much. But I have LOVED some of the comments I've received - and there's a secret thrill of exhibitionism too -- by doing it at parties, I get to see the reactions of guys and girls who are seeing me, maybe for the first time, in a social setting. You're reasonably protected from unwanted advances but in a great position to foster interest in your body. I finally got a guy in grad school who I had been trying to connect with - he was always too busy and pretty much said he didn't want any relationships. I got two glasses of nice single malt and sashayed up to him and casually offered his a glass and started talking. I had a big heart pained over eash breast, and pretty soon they were where he was looking most of the time.
Paint them - you'll get a kick out of and maybe make some new friends. If nothing else, in places like NYC you can walk around with painted breasts and can't be arrested - going topless in a non-sexual way is OK there (or at lease it will be until Mamdani takes over. Then comes Shariah and burkas and the mass exodus of modern civilized people).
Does she know you really like them? Does she know that you might miss them from a previous relationship? Lots of ways to bring it up without seeming like you're begging or asking or are upset with her. From my perspective - the guys I give them to know they are getting them because I want to give them, and actually like giving them - I consider it a gift - I expect noting in return but never turn down some reciprocation.
Maybe if you approach her subtly and let her know how great it would be for her to surprise you with one someday - a birthday? Christmas? Someone's wedding? And if a discussion actually starts, very nicely let her know that you do not expect one, that you do not consider a BJ as a condition of keeping the relationship alive, that you do not expect her to swallow your cum - but maybe during foreplay just a few minutes of sucking would be awesome.
Here's a thought. I have a cousin who is a few years older than me, who gave me a lot of pointers as to the art of sucking cock. We'd watch porn together. According to her, she loved giving her friends BJs, and I heard from one of her boyfriends that she was really good at it. Then, she was in a car accident, and had some trauma from the collision. One thing that happened to her was she now has a case of TMD - a disorder in her jaw that makes opening her mouth wide or for extended periods of time very painful. Needless to say, according to her, her BJ "career" has been severely cut. In fact, she has to stop sucking a cock after only a minute of so since she is in pain.
Now - she's transitioned to giving handies, and letting her friends cum in different fun ways - but he loves it when her friends point their cocks into her mouth and cum. That way she can suck fr a minute (maybe), play with the cock or watch him jerk off, then still accept the cum and swallow and enjoy it.
OK - this was a long-winded tribute to a cousin who has made a positive change. None of her friends get BJs anymore - they're off the table. But they still get to cum into - or in some cases - actually in her mouth, just not with all the oral in-mouth workup. They and she don't complain, but I can tell - when we watch porn - that she really would like to give what she calls a "real blowjob" - start to finish in her mouth.
Maybe your girlfriend has some medical issue you don't know about? Worth poking around a bit. When you cum - does she ever taste it? Maybe if you scooped some onto your finger and you sucked it off and said how delicious it was - and asked her to follow suit - if she won't, then its just some very personal issue she has with cocks. If she does - then maybe you two can start enjoying sharing your cum (collect it on her boobs, on your belly, in a glass - wherever).
Just my $0.02
My favorite place now would be on Hardings Beach in Chatham, past the second parking lot, secluded in any of the secluded little spots in the dunes. Been there with a lot of friends - lots of great orgasms under the stars. When younger, it was on friends' sailboats - sex at sea in unforgettable. As a young teen, when visiting family in northwester New Jersey, I would go hiking with a guy by the Delaware Water Gap up on one of the mountain tops and give blowjobs while enjoying the view of the river valley and gorge.
Mercy fucks. I've done it twice. Once with a friend who was just depressed over his life situation and needed a little cheering up. And then with a older man - I had been very good friends with him and his wife - when his wife passed away. After a suitable period of time to let him mourn, I decided to be nice and help him move along and get back into an active sex life. We'd had a flirting connection (not a physical or sexual connection) for a long time, and his wife loved it and played along with the flirting. AFter a year or so after his wife's passing, he just seemed so lost and not knowing how to start again ... a little TLC helped him immensely. He enjoyed it, I enjoyed it - and most importantly, he realized that I was being a good friend with benefits for him. He has moved on, is now seeing a woman his own age, and I like her. I don't think I'll be flirting with him again for a while, if ever - it was fun and I'll miss it.
We were on a booze cruise in Boston for a college graduation party. My friend and I were on the top deck, and he told me he wanted to cum into Boston harbor (I offered a couple of other warmer places, but he said "later" for those) - he wanted to squirt his semen into the harbor. So -- I said "lets make your wish cum true"
We went over to the side rail, he stuck his sock out as far as he could through the rails, and I jerked him off into the harbor. Being that it was a cruise with a bunch of drunken college kids, we ended up having a few people as an audience, and then got some applause when his cum shot into the harbor. We made sure not to do it into the wind! LOL.
I was at a party in college where that was exactly the game - everyone was good friends, of course - so nothing weird could happen, but the hostess had all the guys take their clothes off. The guy would stand behind a barrier with a hole at the right height (like a gloryhole). One by one the girls would walk up to the hole and reach in, and "evaluate" the cock. Not only was the goal to identify your boyfriend, but also to guess who the cock belonged to.
Surprisingly, the number of correct guesses was pretty low. If you wear a blindfold and have to pick out your bf's cock among one or two others, the odds are with you. But unless there is something extremely unique that you can pick out by feel, when there are 8 or 9 or 10 cocks for you to evaluate, it gets to be difficult. But that's what makes it fun.
Of coure, everyone out there with a wonderfully "dirty" mind can imagine other games with that "gloryhole" setup.
I have a cousin who is not spectacularly endowed - we were skinny dipping and I saw his 3 incher, and when teased about it by one of the other girls who was with us, it grew to just over 4 inches. And then he waved it at her and quipped : "Its not the meat, its the motion". And of course, it turned out he was right. He had her moaning in the dunes later that night. (I was really curious to check it out for myself, but never did that summer)
I can smell my aroma when aroused, and it drives me crazy if I'm at work and can't do anything about it. If I've had sex that morning with a bf, the combined aroma of my juice and his semen puts a smile on my face all day.
The scent of semen by itself gets me very aroused, and can keep me aroused for quite a long time.
Just to add to answer above. I "went out" just the other night with a guy I've known for a while from the lab, and another couple who are both good friends of mine. After a few drinks and dances at the club, this exact topic came up. When Jack (friend from the lab) asked me if I wanted to get together, I was OK with it and after all, he was a friend, somewhat of a nice fit with me conversationally and physically drop-dead-gorgeous. Yes - I had often wondered what he would look like naked, so, also yes - some sort of action with him that night was definitely on the table in my mind. My girlfriend brought up the topic of body count. All she would say was that she was "north of twenty". Jack said he was at seventeen and that he didn't go out that often, so it was sometimes months between sex. I have always been reluctant to give a body count, but I did say that my "number of guys sucked off" to "guys who'd gotten their cock into my vagina" was high. I was asked to elaborate, and said pretty much what I said in my other answer: I consider blowjobs and handjobs to be fun and to be gifts to friends, not necessarily meaning an emotional commitment. I've dated a lot of guys since high school, and have had fun with many of them, and had vaginal sex with several of them. As I've gotten older, I think lately I'm more inclined to include vaginal sex with most guys if I really like them, have somethings in common with hem, and trust them: I've lowered the bar a lot.
As for Jack: he did not disappoint me in his naked appearance, and he got very lucky. We are now closer friends, and we will be doing things together often.
Flirting is so much fun, and usually so innocent. I don't know about the feeling young part - yet - but I imagine it makes older people feel like they did in their 20s and 30s. Fun little anecdote - I flirt (not quite shamelessly) with one of my best girlfriend's dad. He flirts right back - an we do this in front of his wife! His wife has told me she actually likes it when I am around, because after I leave she has a "younger friskier" husband. The flirting is mostly verbal and with facial expressions (but I have arranged myself so that he gets an "accidental" view down my blouse every now and then. My friend gets a kick out of it.
But there will never be anything that happens - its just a fun game between a 30-something and her friend's 50-something father.
Trimmed is nice, but anything will be fine if the cock is attached to a guy I like. His grooming is his preference - and if I really like him enough to be sucking his cock, then I'll respect his preferences. I might mention something if I get too many hairs between my teeth, or if he needs to wash/shower - but the bush? No - its all about the guy.
When done right and with the right guys, this is close to perfect sex. I've been in great ones and few not so good. As has been said a few times above, it has to be with the right guys - preferably guys you like and who like you. There are a few opportunities to be abused in and MFM, so you have to trust the guys. Someone mentioned "practice" - the best 3somes I've had have been with the same 2 guys multiple times. The first time can be awkward (especially if one of them is your "boyfriend" and the other is a guy he invited and you don't really know that well.) The guys should be confident in their sexuality and not be put off by any contact with the other cock. I'm not a big fan of the two guys pairing off and leaving me playing with myself (it has happened) and for that reason, if one or both of the guys are bi, as we are getting comfortable the first time, I like to point out that I have enough places and energy to keep both cocks entertained at once. It can get "busy", but that is the fun. Two cocks in your vagina? OMG - it feels incredible.
And as much fun as it is when you are busy with the boys, sometimes it is as much fun to clean up and all three of you go out to dinner together. Sitting there knowing you've just fucked both of these guys and swallowed load of their cum always gives me a tingly feeling. And - over drinks and food - a little talk about heading back to the scene for another round can be very "titillating". LOL.
Have fun, but be careful. The wrong guy can ruin what should be just incredible fun.
I have a few friends,who are nurses and I have heard some very interesting stories.... I went to a costume party recently and "was a nurse". And I had a blast. About a month ago, a boyfriend and I tried role playing. I was a nurse, he was an intern. I was in charge of his " training". He got very well "trained" over the next several hours. We have repeated this game twice since then, and actually got his roommate involved so I "trained" them both. Amazing time.
Happened when I was in middle school. A girl friend was having a sleepover at my house when her folks were away on a business trip. She was my age but had "done some stuff" and told me about some of it when we were alone in my room. It went from comparing boobs to comparing labia, then she spread hers and slid her finger around in it and then tasted her finger. I wss curious - asked how it tasted. She said I could do myself or taste her finger. I tried her finger and thought it was ok. She asked to taste me - I said ok - but she got right down and used her tongue. I loved it. Then I did her. Loved it. We got together a few times over the next year in middle school, but I had "discovered " cocks in the meantime and found them to be much.more fun, and they came with a nice reward. In co!!ege, I was involved in a couple of mfm threesomes freshman year and of course lived them. Then along came a girl who was interested in one of the guys I was fucking . she,and I were friends and we agreed to have some fun with him together. It was during the fun that I started to get turned on seeing him enter her pussy and I got involved. When he withdrew from her I one time I took him.into.my mouth and the taste of her vagina brought back some sweet memories from middle school. I spent a few minutes earing her out while he was doing me doggy style, then we traded and she ate me. It was absolutely wonderful.
If you think your wife is the least bit curious to try something new and fun, let her know that lots of women have done it and don't regret it. In my case, I enjoy the tenderness of a females female interaction with a small select few girls I know, but still consider myself to be a raging heterosexual girl. I also am a huge fans of giving guy friends blowjobs and enjoy swallowing cum - in an fmf threesome, I always enjoy drinking the cum that flows out of my friends vagina, as it has been given a nice,additional taste . but that just kinky me.
Almost always! I think most of my guy friends like it - its just another bit of intimacy to enjoy. I love to do it - it is a nice way to wind down and relax after a nice fuck. Besides, there usually a little bit of goodness left in the tube, and I love getting it out - and tasting me on him is a bonus.
It feels abusive and I tend to put a,stop to it. I feel that having a guys dock in my mouth is my gift to him and it should be enjoyed the way I like to do it. I can't stand the gagging and choking, and do t k o who's a guy that supposedly likes me would like to see me gagging, choking, coughing and not enjoying myself. If he likes that kind of shit, he can find it with someone else.