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Jollylolly and Shylass have just given me orgasms of the brain You minxes!

Want a lick of my creamy fudge? Mazza gave it to me.

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Dear lord...I am on page 20 of the results from google and still nothing relating to me whatsoever under the search "StillUndecided" and it keeps adding the space. Damn.

Page 40 - Still nothing.

StillUndecided Lush - Still nothing.

StillUndecided Lush Stories - Actually comes up with Lush, but with Clum...er...?

Clearly, I cannot be found


(Watch somebody go prove me wrong now)

With the safesearch turned off: CLICK HERE


You're number one! As it turns out, there are a lot of Lush stories with the words, "still undecided" in them!

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I wasn't sure whether or not to click on this thread. "Scrubber" means skank where I'm from!

I don't know what you mean...

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I am quite shocked you aren't stocked up on Gingerbread shower gel by Philosophy. You need to buy it if you aren't already aware of it. They have gingerbread lip gloss too.

I eat gingerbread, but lather up in vanilla. I'd be foaming at the mouth if I had Ginga gel, cos I'd be trying to nom it! When I shower in the mornings, I like lemon souffle gel, but vanilla is the usual option, as I'm always so grumpy, I need something to cheer me up. I do have some gingerbread handwash, but I'm saving it.

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Ain't that kinda like asking your mother if she thinks you're good looking?

My mum says I'm really pretty when I wear my hair down (but only then).

I am the flip side of asking for detailed stuff, unless I know the person pretty well, in which case I have a bit more confidence to ask (and get a truthful answer).

My downfall is that people take the time to comment, and I am terrible for writing to them and thanking them for taking the time, even if I didn't like what they said. I get in such a pickle about who I have and haven't written to, and I don't want to seem like I'm pushing, or something. I need to work out a system for that (thanking, I mean, not pushing).

Perhaps, if people wanted, they could start a thread advertising for somebody/more than one who would specifically read a single story (more and people would shy away) to critique them? I wouldn't be brave enough for that, but I'm sure others are. It could be done via PM, but if people are very serious about wanting feedback for improvement, I would say that could be the way forward for some braver souls than I. Over on the blue site, I believe there is a hidden forum for just that purpose, if one signs up for the focus of it, but there's nothing to stop people here advertising for that specific task, surely? I guess it all comes down to how brave you are, and how anxious you are to sift through the comments of those who might take up the request. Just a thought.

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Earlier today, I got told I smelled like vodka...not sure if it's my favorite shower scent, but it could be worse...

Alcohol acts like a disinfectant.

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Funny, I don't think I ever thought to Google my screen name here before seeing this...a bunch of drinks, bars, burlesque stuff, restaurants and the like...it's not till the seventh page of results that my profile page on the blue site shows up...and no sign of anything Lush yet...

I personally don't see a whole lot of value in Googling my screen name here, though I do have Google alerts set up for my real name, as well as some lines from poems of mine that tend to show up on the net a lot...

You should try doing a Google search for your real name sometime...much more fun...and if you go down to "Advanced Search" you can search within a domain, like say "Facebook.com" and find out everyone who has mentioned you over there in the past year...

Like I said...much more fun...

Blimey. Wish I hadn't just done that! My old job just came back to haunt me. Plus, I got a few mentions for starting a popular thread in a game forum called... "Fairyland".

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*Imagine Lush button here*

I keep forgetting to take a picture of my cherries for you. One day I shall remember.

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It's 40 min past midnight and I'm a tadpole.

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I've just washed dishes. I don't do that much but when you're at a mate's and they've cooked for ya, that's what you do. That bit of advice is free by the way.

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This short video says what I'm trying to say, much better. The right one (your perfect fit) will come along, eventually.

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Yup. I'm a silly kinda girl......

Silly is fab.

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Wow. Thank you so much for taking the time to respond in such detail. And for the wonderful things you said. Your insight and empathy is most appreciated.

You're very welcome. I apologise profusely, both for waffling on, and all the annoying spelling mistakes I made. I can't change them now, as you've quoted me.

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Thanks for the advice Its just sooooooooooo damn hard to keep it shut you know .. like for instance if he says dont mmhm me.. and then asks a yes or no question i mean... how tempting is it... lol

I should try harder

I get the feeling you don't want to try harder. I also get the feeling that you will probably reach the point of wanting to try harder fairly soon, if your Master is anything like those I have been reading about on here. Maybe a lot of it is force of habit? I think you may need to think very hard before giving any replies!

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Thanks everyone for the input. I guess what really, really bugs me is the Silent Treatment. If someone wrongs me, friend or more than that, if they try to make amends, I WILL respond in some way. Especially if the wrong was an aberration in an otherwise positive relationship, I would respond and explain how I felt and why I wasn't willing to forgive them and give myself and the other person closure. The exception I guess would be if the wrong was something really heinous betrayal or deliberate, malicious public humiliation.

I just don't get people who cut you off without specifically telling you why, even if to them it seems obvious. I spent something like $700 on her over 10 months, never hit on her or behaved inappropriately in any way. I have "SUCKER" written all over me, I know. She got the benefits of a boyfriend without having to be a girlfriend. Typical "nice guy" story--it's a pattern. I'm not saying by any means that she owed me sex or a deeper relationship in return for my spending money on her because it was totally my initiative, but she was not perfect. Ironically, nothing I said in the note was factually incorrect--she treated me like an option while I made her a priority--but the tone was harsh.

All those things said, my brain tells me to forget her but it's going to take awhile because I fell VERY hard for her--I've truly never been in love before--and I was willing to ignore some of her traits that otherwise would be pretty major dealbreakers. The thing is, this happened along with two other traumatic things--the chronic pain and I confirmed that I am adopted years after my parents died (that's the traumatic news that caused me to get drunk and send her the mean note). My mother, whom I took care of in her final years when she became disabled, swore up and down that I was not adopted after I was told otherwise. I feel like my whole life is a lie.

In terms of my pain, it's a longstanding degenerative spine disease that flares up every few years but tests don't show exactly what's causing the pain which makes it difficult to treat. I am actually looking into acupuncture but based on everything else I've tried--injections, physical therapy and most recently a procedure to "burn" nerves causing pain--I'm not optimistic it will work.

I really do appreciate all the comments.

Well done for being so honest!

I will say this, because I know it to be true, having been hurt very deeply myself: Never forget that other people do not always act the way that we act. I am the same as you. I think arguing and shouting and fighting is pointless. Sure, if you're angry, have a vent. But do not discuss things when you are worked up, because it will become distructive. Go away, calm down, come back and hear each other.

Just because you act like that, however, does not by any means guarantee others will. In fact, mostly they don't. We do not all think alike, and it is foolish of us to be surprised when others show that they don't.

You mention the money a lot. When I spend money on a friend, it is because I have it and I can. I do not tot it up and think, "I spent all this money on you". It is a gift I am willing to bestow, one tiny way to show that I care. It is not something I would list as that important (unless it was an unpaid loan).

We are often willing to overlook faults in those we care deeply about, but the hope is that they are willing to overlook ours too. They do not always. If, as you say, this lass was abusing your generosity (in whatever way), then she is either not the lass you thought she was, or you were hoping to yourself that she would change, or see your true value.

If she treated you like an option, whilst you made her a priority, it does not follow that she will change how she treats you. She was not the lass you were hoping for, because she could not/would not return the depth of feeling and life investment in her.

Besides the horrible news you had regarding your adoption, the relationship you have had with your friend is now a period of mourning and grieving. It is, quite simply, a bereavement. Either grief that she was not what/who you thought, or grief that she did not want you to be for her what you wanted/needed. It is emotional bereavement.

It is understandable that you would would go through crisis with the news of your adoption, and again, there will be grieving, anger and pain of a different nature to work through.

The physical pain (and I do understand long-term pain) will also drain all your resources, physically, emotionally and mentally, making it much harder to deal with. I understand that. What is not acceptable is overstepping boundaries because of it. I would suspect that you lashed out at the first place where blame and hurt could be directed - her. This in itself is a symptom of you knowing it had no future, in my opinion, and building frustration and resentment. It wasn't healthy, and I think you knew that.

You have many, many issues and griefs and traumas to cope with, and it is going to take you a long time to deal with and heal from it all. Tears last for a night, but joy comes in the morning. I have a saying, I wait for a Better Day. I know it is crap right now, and one day it will get better. I just have to wait for it. And the same is true for you. Feel the pain, accept the hurt for what it is and slowly work your way through it. Remind yourself, you wait for that Better Day. It will come eventually. And you will know it, because you will sit back and say, "Hey... this is Better..."

With regards to the acupuncture, I didn't think it would work for me, but my doctor treated me, and I am now able to walk. I still have to have it on a regular basis, but I can walk. I still have problems, but nothing at all like I used to. You will need at least three to four sessions to know if it does any good for you, and you will need to tweak the amount of time and places the treatment is given. I have little scars now so my doctor knows where to put them, and I have 7 minutes (most people there have about 15 minutes).

I do hope you are able to find some sunlight in this dark time, and that your Better Day is just around the corner.

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Quote by SlavePrincess
the phone call continued ... I said the next royal fuck up

"That's what you think"



Seriously anybody wanna help me out

Maybe just stop talking so much, or unless asked a question? Stuff comes out of my mouth that I kick myself for, and I don't even have a Master. Just as well.

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Someone gave me a 2. LOL

I merely consider a low score an indicater of the reader's intelligence. Hey, so I didn't write a wanker. Deal with it, suckah!

I totally beat you! I just got a 1!

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I think they should, perhaps, add a new category here on Lush for Ginga Poems...

Once they add that...I should have a bunch of more new entries....

Is that a euphemism?

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i only posted in all 3 so i could get a range of answers?!?!?!!?!?

If you wanted a range of answers, wouldn't the Sex Tips forum be the best place? Since a wide range of people read it? Often, posting the same thread more than once across various forum sections is seen as trolling, and two others sites I belong to actually give out warnings to people who do it.

Quote by Pixie
I did this because it was a member request. I wanted to get an idea of how well it would go over, and well........it went over like a fart in church.

Hey, lass. Sometimes, farts in churches make the preacher finish sooner, so we can all go home for lunch. I know, I tried it.

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My trolling sense is tingling.

You can get cream for that...

Quote by Jillian22
Everyone's opinion has been very helpful. I have actually started talking to mu husband about having more sex and he said he would try. ( I have to convince a man to have sex with me) never thought that would happen. But so far everything is status quo. No extra effort yet. Not even when I touch him in the morning. I'm a little fed up. I have been texting with my new friend and we even had lunch. HE wants to meet at his place in the morning for breakfast when no one is there. Which to means he wants to do the do. I'm excited and afraid at the same time. But the idea of a man wanting me, and showing it like I know he wants is going to be fun. I didn't tell him if I'll meet with yet. but I am thinking about it, and i have already masturbated once thinking about this beautiful black beast fucking me. Maybe its like what some of you said, i've already made up my mind, its just a matter of time and convenience.

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I voted "no".

I've seen posts on Facebook where friends use some kind of app to discover who's been visiting their profile. I don't know whether it actually works, but it seems to generate paranoia. I'd never use it myself.