As far as my limited mind can forsee, I need it to be forever.
Actually, I have failed at the majority of tasks in my life. Laughter is no issue, as I said, Im used to it.
There is no love without drama. I think that is the point being made. If you dont want drama, dont enter a relationship. If you want one, then deal with the drama. I got sick of trying, but I dont wish my life on anyone...well maybe pedophiles and terrorists. Anyway, Im not wired for this stuff, and I really hope I am that rare and that you are just going through....being 20. Thats all Ill say on the matter
Thats all I pretty much needed, Maam. This has been going on so long, I needed a ”forum” to put all my data into and see if my conclusion was right. And both are. My situation is my fault and mine alone. My personality, my wiring, all add up to this mess. Result, women see me as prey, something to use and toss away. So, I make the necessary changes and do my Job, and only my job. I was cursed to be the protector of women, now I can just tell them what they have always told me, ”sorry, Im not good enough for you”, and go on within the limits of my duties. Thank you for your concern and input, have a nice day
Ref Mr Lafayette, thank you for the input, the issue is resolved, I just go day by day, as I have, not being with one. And if the urge to talk to one rises, I just remember the pain, and the comments here, and it goes away, replaced by all too familiar anger.
I was on several sites, and did not fluff or exaggerate my profile. All sites, per their guarantee, had to give me free membersbips when theinitial failed to yield results. When those failed to yeild results as well, the sites had no guidance for a situation like mine I guess. I dont understand the captain save a wench remark.
And, as far as Im concerned, your gender is just as dangerous to me as those who shot at me, just in a different way that requires different protection.
Ref Ms Delphi, I have been to the wizard, since a med I am on for spinal damage, is also reommended for mood issues, they said I just need to focus on my positive traits, this has been addressed. And the last girl...all the young ladies that spoke of me...that was her pier group.
Ref Ms Delphi, I have been to the wizard, since a med I am on for spinal damage, is also reommended for mood issues, they said I just need to focus on my positive traits, this has been addressed. And the last girl...all the young ladies that spoke of me...that was her pier group.
15 months, going on 16 now.
Im glad I could help. A joke? How fitting, thank you for putting me in the correct perspective.
Thank you for your input.
Wonderful. More reason for me
Best way to numb/remove sexual and relationship needs?
Removing desire to impress or be with any female. And no not going gay. Same issue, different gender
Was not looking to meet wome.. Needed broad base of intelligent people who would be frank, honest, brutally so, in order to assist and clarify my issue. This is resolved, decision madd,, thank you for your time.
Not an issue anymore, thanks for the replies,
No, dont want to live like this. But as you and others have pointed out, its just me. This wasnt a pity party, not intentionally, just tired of why I was going through it time and again. Noone at all to blame but me. Thanks for the honest input.
Im old, nick name has hound in it.
Well great points made, thanks. Ill address them and be gone
I have talked to the wizard, a few times, they make us after a tour or a bad scene on shift. Ive talked to them about this, my ”low self esteem”, Ive told them allllll that Ive said here and much much more. ”You need to focus on the good qualities you have, lets list them....oh...well, you have a unique skill set. I...Ill have to do some research. ” and Im sent on my way. I figured there woukd be something, someone out in the ether who would know what to do. I have always been respectful to women, thanks to ptsd from before joining, I HAVE to protect them, I cant hurt a woman or interfere in their lives negatively. If I do, I leave. The larger scope is, this is noonea fault but mine. I dont blame that gender for their actions, just wish I could have fit ones expectations. Youre right, Im the only constant in the formuales failure, si,, what do you do in that case...remove it. So I will remove myself from the equation. Theres the grain I was looking for
