Quote by AmeliaLeigh
Seeing so many posts of others sharing I’ve decided I would share as well.

I never had a childhood, what I mean is... at the age of 6 I was molested for the first time. I learned years later after finally telling my aunt about my abuse when I was 17. Because I was tired, I never spoke unless spoken too. I spent my days invisible finding glimpses of joy with a few friends. Anyways There was a family friend who started hurting me when I was 12 and didn’t stop till I told my grandpa. I learned there were investigations when I was younger around that time that I was hurt sooner. Seems my family is split in what really happened. My aunt gave me strength to tell my grandpa what was going on and he sent the man off our property that night and called the cops.

A few months later I lost a family member to cancer, my mom was diagnosed with stage 4 ovarian cancer... she survived but then my dad had a heart attack and needed surgery. I took care of both of them.

A couple months later my depression was too much

This was my senior year... I had reached my limit and took a handful of pills
I went to school and the nurse noticed something was wrong and I admitted to what I had done.
She called the ambulance and my parents, All I would say was I had cramps because I couldn’t admit what really was going on.

To top it all off the beginning of this school year was 9/11/2001

I grew up way too fast because of abuse and learned that my family suspected for years as a child I was being abused but no one helped.

This also taught me that death isn’t the answer no matter what life throws at me. Two years ago this month I lost my fathers parents. My grandparents were amazing and both died painfully... my grandpa had dementia, after his fall one day he broke his hip on the way to the restroom trying to prove he didn’t need his cane. Two days prior my Nanna told him she had stage 4 liver cancer and it was inoperable. He got staph from his surgery and died painfully a week after his fall while my Nanna was on hospice care at home. Her condition... she went down fast and when she lost grandpa her heart beat the cancer in claiming her life. Her last full sentence was I miss my best friend. Today is the anniversary of her death. I fucking hate August... my depression these last two years have changed me. I’m a different person, I fight to be positive and help others smile. I work with children because it was my dream and I believe if you can inspire a child early on then they can have a positive life.

I guess in my ramble and my attempt to tell my story, I wanted to say that no matter how hard life gets please find something positive no matter how small and hold on.

Quote by NEwaythewindblows
Myself, being a survivor...I can guarantee you one thing. At the very best, self medicating is a very short term solution to an extremely long and complex problem... What works for you one day, takes a lot more of the next, and so on, and so on, and so on. ( get the picture?) I'm begging you,* PLEASE, DON"T WAIT TO SEEK PROFESSIONAL HELP!!!* The longer that you wait the harder that it gets... Although prescription treatments can sometimes be a bit of a bumpy road at first. Due to the complexities of the human mind,( early treatment is kind of a hit or miss deal)... In the end you will be VERY HAPPY that you followed it with through with it... I offer all of you two things that in my darkest hours, has kept my from doing something very rash, #1 Is my faith that there is no heaven, and hell. There is only beyond or BACK HERE!!! (Think about that one!) I believe that if I screw this life up, that I'm just going to have to come back and do it ALL OVER AGAIN! That belief has saved my bacon in many desperate, and irrational times... And, #2 The phrase 'Misery Loves Company' is EXTREMELY PROFOUND!!! In my very darkest and most hopeless moments, I force myself to crawl out of whatever hole that I'm in,( no matter how deep,and bottomless that it is) and FIND A FRIEND!!!* Personal Note* Going to a club may seem like the easiest place to find a friend, it also not the best!!! You will NEVER find a REAL friend in the bottom of a bottle( or even a nice sticky 'J' for that matter)... I hope that by compromising myself like this, that I can reach just one soul in need. If I'm able to, than this will all have been so worth it...Peace, Love, and Understanding, to all of you my friends... Always remember, YOU NEVER HAVE TO BE ALONE!!! Warmest Wishes! _D

Quote by LYFBUZ
Never stick anything in your eye. I've seen enough horror stories about cheap or ill-fitting contacts that cause major issues. I would happily blindfold you tho.

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Actually my theory is that you are a middle-aged housewife in New Jersey, happily if boringly married to a doughy, balding CPA, with a house and a yard and a white picket fence. You have 2 preternatually normal children and a three-legged dog named Muffin.

I get the fear/trust thing if you are wearing the contacts. It's the idea of fucking a Village-of-the-Damned black eyed demon thing that makes me want to run screaming from the room.

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For them to properly fit your eye.

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They are hard to put on the first few times but there's a really well known Chinese site that only needs your prescription and they'll set you up.
You can get some as well if you know a special fx make-up artist.

I'll have to check if I still have a contact card from site.

Quote by seeker4


No experience with these, but I have terrible myopia and tried to get regular contacts before my wedding (25 years ago). I have the same issue with my eyes that you describe. The guy trying to fit me couldn't even get them in because as soon as they came close, my lid snapped shut. I gave up and wear glasses to this day. Maybe you can make it work, but if your eyes are as sensitive as mine, you may be further ahead to just stick to blindfolds and similar.

Quote by Verbal
Those sound crazy scary. Not only for the wearer, but the person looking at the wearer. Wouldn't they make your eyes appear full on black, like those demon children in horror movies? No thank you.

Why can't you just use ordinary vanilla blindfolds like the rest of us?

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Quote by QueenofDiamonds
I’ve always believed that penile penetration is the loss of virginity. So actual intercourse was it for me.

Quote by Buz
Absolutely both. It's always best when you're both totally into it and love pleasuring one another.

And ask her what she wants.

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http://www.seattlelatex.com/

I went there a while ago. We didn't buy anything. Super expensive. I think they sell stuff online as well, but if you want high end stuff you have to go in and get fitted...

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On topic though, this thread smells swampy as fuck. Wearing latex over your vag is not a sustainable practice unless you’re into guys who are into swamp puss.

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nothing

Quote by browncoffee
I need to write a new story! I used to write so much and now I'm just boring.

Seven shots of vödkã, please.

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You can help me steal back the Pioneer Square Totem Pole for the Tlinget Indians if you keep everyone on the Bill Speidel Underground Seattle Tour distracted while I pry it up.

Quote by Gillianleeeza
The joy of finding the "right" medication. I know when I need to return to meds but does it have to be so hard? Weeks to titrate up to a therapeutic dose and then another week or two to see if it is working or helping at all. Most seem to have untenable, at least to me, side effects. Now on round three of the hunt for something that will work.

I wonder sometimes why I bother at all.

Quote by ivanka_simkiewisz
Can we move the emoticons that most of us use more frequent
to the first two emoticon pages for Lushmail and the forum?

I not think the 49 I chose will fit only on the first page,
but if someone could make the choices themselves, and only fill the first page it would be great.

Such as:
(icon_smile, kekekegay, wave, hello2, welcomes, smooch, Hugs, Big Hugs, 675-lick, spank, Lwinking, f-hihi, Lfunny, lol, coffee, laughing3,6,8,9, manic, popcornanim, 3601, Bday1, toast, Applause, occasion1,4,5,6,7, cheerleader, cuteblush, Embarassed, boobieflash2, bootyshake, b229, love3,10, Shhh, Boo hoo!, dontknow, d'oh!, 588-rolleyes, Shame on you, lala, bs, rant, Brick wall, angry9, etc.).

It shouldn't be too terrible for Gav to simply (cut and paste the code) move their order of priority.
It would save steps for so many, saving wasted bandwidth time for Lush servers,
and/or at least be easier for everyone to use them I think.

Thank you...Have Lushie fun always...