“I left a bag of toys on the bed for you to pursue if you want to," I told Jane, as I knew this would drive her curiosity to the brink and prod her to explore.

Of all the things I love about Jane, and there are many, her drive for exploration, fueled by her curiosity, is one of her most sexually attractive attributes.

She laughs and calls back, "I'll bet there are toys!" Moments later, I hear the contents being emptied onto the bed, followed by some quiet laughter with a throaty exclamation, "Oh my, I am not sure about all this."

There is nothing crazy in the "toy" collection. A simple stimulation device with adhesive electrodes, a medium-sized anal plug, a small leather crop, a string unibody suit designed for pleasure, an adjustable cock ring and a vibrator. I do withhold a couple of other "toys" just for the element of surprise later on!

I tell her I will be busy for the next hour or so, but to have fun on her own until then. I also ask if she wants some brown liquor. Before she answers, I begin pouring her a Bourbon, neat. Of course, she was ready for that! I leave the drink by the bedroom door at the top of the stairs for her to discover.

I set off on my tasks, trying to contain my excitement. This feeling is something I want to savor as it is hard to uncover, let alone experience. After a while, I could hear Jane softly laughing from upstairs, just above the hum of the vibrator and crack of the leather crop as she was starting to explore and experiment with the toys.

I have to replace the furnace filter, set up the new Govees for temp/humidity and water leakage. As well as to complete several other winterizing chores. Nothing much, just some easy projects to keep me busy for a bit and to let the anticipation grow.

It is hard to explain how this feeling engulfs me. I would call it one part horror movie, where you are waiting for something to pop out around the corner. One part child's anticipation, where just before you open your Christmas presents, you are bubbling over with excitement, and one part primeval lust and aggression, where you know you will not be denied.

This concoction of emotions is very intoxicating, and it is all I can do to concentrate as I work to finish my tasks. There is very little noise or commotion from the bedroom as I finally begin my journey up the stairs. Every sense is on alert as my body begins to tingle in anticipation of what awaits me around the next corner.

I slowly peek around the bedroom door frame to see her lying in bed with the blankets pulled up to her soft face. Her brown eyes peering curiously back at me. The toys are spread out at the foot of the bed, except for the smallish pink vibrator, which I can faintly hear below the covers.

I smile as she smiles distantly back. I am glad she is enjoying herself. She is so giving and willing to please, but at the same time, she needs a lot of stimulation to peak or reach orgasm. I am willing to help/try to provide that, but she also enjoys being hands-on with the experience too.

I watch for a minute so I can hear the vibrator surging, working and seeing the covers moving slightly about halfway down the bed as she searches for pleasure. This is one of my favorite times in our ongoing friends with benefits relationship, as the anticipation and lust are beginning to build.

I used to think that my orgasm was the goal of sex, but I have slowly learned (due to several great teachers) that there is nothing as satisfying as the blazing look of physical hunger, raw lust and wanton desire in the eyes of your partner.

I now receive as well as relay those primeval communications and begin to release my own pent-up pheromones. The room now smells and feels different, with a slight musty odor catching my senses. Is it me, Jane or a room closed off for too long? I want this moment to last and last, even though I am being compelled to become involved.

I love being naked, especially with someone who looks at my nakedness with true hunger and want. Desire is the best filter ever designed and would make the genius who converted it to a usable tool a billionaire overnight. I try to slowly take off my clothes, but my hands are a bit faster than expected, and within a matter of seconds, I am standing at the foot of the bed fully exposed, just watching her seductive actions.

As I am getting older now, my erections are less predictable and sometimes harder to come by, as well as being inconveniently tardy and slightly embarrassing. Jane has never been disappointed or upset with this issue, and ultimately, I will overcompensate in order to make up for my lacking and inconsiderate penis. I can always get hard, maybe not hard enough for rough intercourse, but certainly hard enough for masturbation. That is where I am right now, as I stand at the foot of the bed watching.

As I hungrily stare down at her, I begin to rub my bare chest, moving my hands from my ripples to my cock and balls and back again, firmly stimulating those areas that I rub and touch. Jane's eyes begin to follow my hands as I begin to arouse myself. I finally settle on my cock and begin to stroke it slowly. I have been body waxing for some time, and I love the whole waxing process. What is bad about hot wax, the pain accompanying the hair removal and someone’s hands all over your body. I especially like the Brazilian wax, and I think Jane likes it too, as she loves giving blow jobs and is most excellent at it.

The sensation of handling your cock in this early stage is an amazing feeling. He knows it is not about him, but he loves the sensation, and it helps to alert the rest of your body to the upcoming engagement. My body temperature rises slightly, along with the need for expanded breaths, which makes my body begin to thrum with desire.

At this point, I can see Jane's eyes look up into my face, she throws back her covers, releasing a beautiful pheromonal fragrance hiding just below them. This scent has taken centuries to perfect, but today it is perfect.

She is now fully exposed and using the small pink vibrator to stimulate herself around her vulva, moving slowly along the contour and opening leading to the clitoris. She exhales and stops the stimulation by clicking off the vibrator, the buzzing surge and background noise disappear.

She stands up and is a beautiful sight to see. At 5'10", with a firm and toned body, she looks undeniably gorgeous! Her smile is infectious, and her height and tone give her a strong physical presence. Her breasts are B+ cups, attentive, firm and obedient.

We both love to kiss, and standing naked, facing each other, is our preferred kissing position. We fit together perfectly with my penis pushing between her legs, just below her wet pussy, in this embrace, our lips meet and our kisses begin. Gentle and soft, we explore each other's lips, face and neck areas. Teasing, light and respectfully, we start out.

Soon however, we need more than gentle and soft as our urgency begins to build. I use my hands to pull her face toward me and hold her closely as my tongue continues to explore her mouth. Our tongues collide, wrestle and strive for control. Her hands are wrapped around my neck, and she begins pulling me, as if to pull me inside her body. We grapple like this for an eternity, or so it seems. Neither one of us gives ground, with the urgency continuing to build. Jane finally breaks off the embrace, but instead of pulling away, she slides slowly down my body until she rests on her knees. Her hands grab my ass cheeks, and she begins pulling on them as her mouth finds my cock. It feels unbelievable! She is on her knees, looking up at me and lustily sucking hard on my cock, I am hers!

She reaches around to my ass cheeks and grabs them, pulling open the crack to my asshole and exposing the desire within me to have that orifice violated. That will come later, however. She is excelling at this blowjob, as I knew she would, but it is too early to cum in her mouth. Prolonging the encounter is my overall goal as we have all afternoon for fun. I gently push her head back and away as I work to break her grip. She resists at first, relenting only grudgingly. I push her back and pull her to her feet, then twist her body so that her back is to the bed.

We engage in additional kissing and touching, but now it is my turn. I suddenly push her backward, and she falls roughly onto the bed. She squeals in surprise and scoots up into her previous location. I forcefully pull her knees apart, thrust my head between them and start licking and kissing my way to her pussy. I start at her knees by kissing, licking and nibbling up each leg to her vulva. I truly love going down on Jane! Her fragrance is intoxicating, and her juices taste like a forbidden nectar which I cannot get enough of.

I try to be sensitive and lightly trace the outline of her vulva, sampling her juices and feeling her warmth build. I want to be that great lover and drive her to an immediate orgasm, but I know she is complex and building the sensations and feelings is something she enjoys. So, I calm down but continue to explore and probe. I can feel she is enjoying it, gyrating in my open mouth and moving in rhythm to my tongue.

After I have had a mouthful of her juices and my tongue is fatigued, I begin working my way up her torso. Pausing on her belly button, then her lower rib cage and finally her right breast.

I lick, kiss and nibble on her breasts, cupping them in my hand and bringing the nipples to attention. I do this for both breasts, even squeezing them together so I can get both nipples into my mouth and suck on them at the same time. She squirms with enjoyment. I continue moving up, chest, neck, chin and finally her full lips. There is something very satisfying about kissing with her juices on my lips. My furnace only grows hotter during this encounter. It is interesting for me to experience desire in this new way, not about being pleased but by pleasing another, with all my being.

I roll off her and onto my stomach, pushing up to my knees. She knows what this means, and she rolls onto her knees behind me to engage in a simulated doggie style position. She knows what I like. She firmly grabs my hips and begins to thrust into me, rubbing her pussy onto my ass cheeks. I can feel her wetness as she pushes into me. Occasionally, she uses her open hand to roughly slap me on each of my ass cheeks.

This is where the first of the toys comes into play.

In a gravelly and submissive voice, I ask if that was as hard as she could hit. I reach out and grab the leather crop and now hand it to her over my shoulder. She laughs a bit, grabs it, and gives me a firm swat. The swat feels electric. I shudder as it pulses through me. I ask her for another, and then another. She is swatting me only on my ass cheeks, so I tell her that she can swat me wherever she wants to.

Jane is not aggressive or violent in any way, so I must coax her to give me what I want, and I want her to hurt me. I want to feel some pain at her hand. I know that may sound silly and even depraved to some, but it is a desire I have and one that I require some satisfaction for. Most times, I take the matter into my own hands, but it is extremely satisfying to have your lover provide the service.

She takes a moment to adjust the crop in her hand and then swats me across my back. It was sudden, electric and hard. In other words, perfect. The pain was sharp and yet welcome. It is hard to describe the feeling of want and desire wrapped together within a blanket of pain. But it is freeing and exhilarating.

She continues to grind into me, and I feel her wetness spread as she rubs her pussy on the back of my thigh and ass cheeks. I know this seems odd, as a cisgender man, to say, but at this point, I long for her to penetrate me. I shiver with excitement at this thought. We have played with a flimsy strap, which did not really perform properly, other than allowing me to simulate giving her a blow job. That session is still active in my memories.

I now reach for another toy, the anal plug. I spit on the end of it and hand it over my shoulder to her. She laughs and asks. "What do you want me to do with this?" I laugh and groan, "Please!" I beg.

"You are naughty!" she says as she whacks me hard, across my upper back. She stops grinding and pulls back a bit. I feel her place the plug between my cheeks. She moves it around as she positions it on the edge of my anus. She begins putting pressure on it, but is unsure of how hard to push. I push back into her and feel the tip of the plug start to push in, and it is electric. I push harder, and the plug goes all the way in and nestles in place. I love how it feels!

Jane laughs and whacks me again. She continues to dry fuck me doggy style while grabbing onto my hips, my shoulders and even my hair for leverage as she smears and rubs her juices all over my backside. With each thrust, she pushes on the plug, which feels amazing and is driving me wild! "Don't stop", I beg her.

"Harder", I say. " What do you want harder?" she asks. "Everything", I gasp. She laughs. I tell her, “Pretend I am your ex and take all of your frustration and anger out on me!" She quiets for a moment, as I egg her on. "I can take it!" I tell her. "Please, baby, hurt me!"

She rocks back, and I feel her next swat in my bones as she lets loose across my ass cheeks. "May I have another!” I grunt. I get another across my lower back, then across my upper back. Again and again, she lashes me. She moves closer and starts humping me harder now. Contacting the plug every time she slams into my ass. The contact, grinding and crop are all working together and bringing me the pleasure, release and pain that I desire.

After 10 minutes of this, she collapses on me and pushes me down flat on the bed. As she lies on top of me, pinning me down, I breathe hard and shiver as the excitement slowly starts to fade.

(Continued in Part Two)