The butterfly effect is the idea that small things can have non-linear impacts on a complex system. In other words, small events act as catalysts for starting conditions. The concept is imagined with a butterfly flapping its wings and causing a typhoon - thus the butterfly effect.
I end the call and sink down into my chair. Maybe I should be crying, at least feeling some morsel of sadness, but I feel indifferent. The selfish bastard died of a brain aneurism. So what. Selfish bastard!
A few days later I tell my captain I will be taking a few weeks off work. The precinct will have to survive without Detective Chase Barrows for a couple of weeks as I head back to my birth home to sort through some details of my father's death.
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Woodstock, New York, 2020
I gaze upon the old, gray house with familiarity. Although I haven't seen it in over two decades, it has remained untouched by time. Memories I had driven from my mind come flooding back with ferociousness. I see sunshine everywhere except over this house. Here, I see a dark cloud hovering.
Keys in hand I walk up the stone steps to the wooden double-doors. The doors don't appear as massive now. Looking around, the whole house appears smaller, diminished in my eyes. After unlocking the door, I slowly turn the handle and push the door open. It loudly creaks - the first sign of aging I have seen. Peering inside, I see the house hasn't changed since the day I left. My father's lawyer told me my father employed staff over the years for upkeep. Now, it is up to me to keep them or not.
Looking down at the keychain, I see the odd-shaped key and instantly knows what it unlocks - the west wing door. The west wing was my father's hideout from us. Noone was allowed. I recall the day I saw him leave without locking the door. As a curious child, I didn't miss this unique opportunity to sneak inside this mysterious part of our home. I still vividly remember the blackboards covered in random numbers, math equations, drawings. Gadgets covered work tables. I was so entranced, I didn't hear my father come back. The beating that followed would stay off any further curiosities on my part.
My father, Professor William Barrows, taught physics at a prestigious college nearby. When he was home, he spent his time locked away in the west wing. I remember all too well my parents constantly fighting over his distractions from family interactions. However, both my parents seemed to forget I was there, needing love from them. At eighteen, I left home and never returned. A few years later, I got word from a relative my mother passed away from cancer, but I knew what really killed her. She died of a broken heart. And I never forgave my father.
To my surprise, my father called several times after my mother died, leaving a message about wanting to meet. I was bitter and would delete his message. I saw no reason to let the selfish bastard back into my life.
Years as a detective have served to fuel my inquisitive nature. Now, I want ... no need ... to learn whatever it was that took my father from my mother and me. What was more important than us? I climb the long staircase to the west wing, curiosity quickening my pace. I unlock the door and step into the room. A feeling of fear overtakes me, but I shake it off, telling myself I have nothing to fear now. My father is gone ... forever.
I am surprised by what I see. Everything appears orderly, not the scattered mess of papers and blackboards I had remembered. I was just in this office that one time, but it made a lasting impression. The room has not seen a dust cloth in quite some time though. Obviously, his staff was not allowed in this room to clean. There are file boxes on the wooden bookcases labeled with the letters of the alphabet. Deciding to start at the beginning, I pull the box labeled "A", blow the dust off the top, and set it on my father's desk.
Pulling out the papers one by one, I spend the next several hours reading. Leaning back in the chair, I can't believe my eyes. Oh my God, my father was a nut case ... mad scientist ... whatever you want to call him. From the looks of these notes, he appears to have thought he discovered a way to travel back in time. He notes that each moment/place in time can be defined by four coordinates. And he even sketched some sort of device with notes about creating a wormhole evidently allowing a traveler to return to that moment in time.
Scratching my head, I really can't comprehend what I am seeing. The walls of his office seem to close in on me as a myriad of emotions overtakes me. First, I can't believe this actually works. Second, I am angry this is obviously the reason my father wasn't in my life. My mind spinning in a million directions, I am torn between thinking my father was crazy or a genius. Sometimes there is a very fine line between the two.
In his notes, it logs he returned to the same coordinates more than forty times before the coordinates change. I find these scribblings particularly interesting:
1st jump - Lambach, Austria-Hungary, March 27, 1897. Result: War still happened and worse outcome. Note: Killing Hitler won't stop World War II. Effects non-linear. Trigger a flutter. Side effects: headache for several hours, maybe unrelated
2nd jump, same coordinates. Result: War still happened. Earthquake added. Try a different flutter. Another headache.
And so on and so on until...
43rd jump, same coordinates. Result: No war. No other big events triggered. Success! Side effects: Headaches after each jump. Must be related!
I put my head in my hands, more confused than ever. Who is Hitler? I am a history buff and there was no World War II. And what does he mean by "flutter"? And why did he travel to some random place like Lambach, Austria-Hungary in 1897 forth-three times?
My inquisitiveness overtakes rational thinking and I spend the next three days pouring over boxes of notes. Time and time again, there are "jumps" listed with a faraway location and past date. All have events beside them that I never heard of and all eventually say "Success" before the coordinates change again. Slowly my mind absorbs the data, analyzes it, and I come to this farfetched conclusion - my father thought he was changing history. Who was this man I called "father"? My mind is truly boggled. Then, I find the device. A small hand-held metal device with dials to set the four coordinates. One end has a trigger and the other a hole. My father had to have built this as I have never seen anything quite like it. Another layer to this mystery.
Some force keeps pulling me into his research. I don't believe in time travel but can't walk away from what I am reading either. Oh for fuck's sake, just try the damn device keeps running through my mind. Obviously nothing will happen and I can stop spending any more energy trying to understand the writings of a lunatic.
I finally get to the end of the recorded jumps and find something shocking. In addition to his notes, there are numerous drawings of a woman - the most captivating woman I have ever seen. So beautiful, I can't stop staring. She has shoulder-length hair with side-swept bangs, wide-set eyes, and very curvy, full lips. There is something about her eyes - they draw you in. In several pictures, she is wearing a costume of sorts ... maybe a dancer. I suppose my father drew these pictures, but like everything else I found, I have no clue why. All I know is I need to find out more about this woman. These sets of coordinates never have the message "Success" beside them or any results. What happened? Did he quit going for some reason? So, if I am going to try this, I want to use the last set of coordinates labeled New York City, 1943 for my time travel attempt.
I can't really say I am nervous. However, I pick up the device and feel a slight sense of relief my father enabled the device to log the beginning coordinates, eliminating a worry to figure out which numbers will bring me back. "What am I thinking," I mutter aloud, "thinking this might actually work?"
And then it happens. Not sure why, but a growing possibility that this all might be real creeps inside me as I pick up the device. Taking a few deep breaths, I point the device to open space and wait. I am looking for something to happen. It does. A dot of swirling light appears and gradually grows until about six feet high and four feet wide. I stand there staring. Then rapidly blinking. Sputtering curse words. Then I close my eyes and step through the opening. When I open my eyes, I find myself standing in an alley, feeling very dizzy.
I am across the street from the nightclub, Copacabana. At least I see something I recognize. Looking for street signs, I see I am on 60th Street. Trying to get acclimated to my surroundings, I take in the dress codes and cars of the people around me. It certainly looks like it could be New York City in the 1940s. I have to give it to him - he did it. The selfish bastard did it. Shaking my head, I still can't believe it. Then, I see her. Her! She walks right out of the nightclub. It has to be her. She is wearing the fur-collared coat my father had her wearing in one of his drawings.
My attraction to her takes the lead and I dash across the street calling, "Ma'am. Excuse me, Ma'am."
"Yes," she says turning around to face me. Oh my God, her voice is like an angel. And she is stunning. His pictures could never capture her beauty in person.
"Do you have the time?" is all I can think to say.
"Yes, it's 2:00 am. If you are wanting to go into the club, you are too late, we just closed for the evening."
She eyes my clothing and continues, "Are you new in town?"
"Yes, I am. I ... ummm ... am staying at the hotel a couple of blocks away. I just got to town and am looking for a little something to eat."
"Well, you are in luck. I know a fabulous all-night diner a block away. Want me to show you?" she says, batting her long lashes.
"Yes, thank you."
As we stroll along, I ask her many questions, trying to keep from sounding like a detective. I learn she is one of the Copa Girls and lives right around the corner from my pretend hotel.
"Here we are," she says, stopping in front of the diner.
"Thank you so much for your help. Could I convince you to let me buy you dinner? If it isn't too late for you. I would be happy to walk you home after."
She smiles and agrees, telling me she is hungry after performing in her shows. I quickly find her beauty is not the only thing about her that captivates me. She is charming, intelligent, and vibrant. I really haven't met another woman like her. I tell her I am a detective and she tells me about her career as a dancer. She hopes to work her way up from Copa Girl to a broadway show. My hand eventually ends up holding hers and our eyes keep locking. My cock strains against my dress pants. I don't remember the last time I felt this aroused. She is breathtaking and her name is Cathryn Peterson.
After what seems like hours of laughing and chatting in the diner, she tells me she needs to get home and get some sleep for she performs again tomorrow evening. She allows me to walk her home, her arm tucked in mine. The city apparently never sleeps, as there are still quite a few people walking the streets. We reach a narrow brownstone and she announces she lives here. We climb the stairs to her doorstep.
I turn to face her with my face very close to hers. I watch in amusement as her nervous eyes keep darting between my eyes and my lips. I tilt my chin, whispering, "I want to kiss you, Cathryn."