What am I, straight, bisexual, gay? At this point I don't know.
I always considered myself an average guy. Never had any thoughts
about doing anything sexual with another guy. I was a girls only
guy.
I guess I never knew what to look for in a woman. I'm in my second
marrige, and it's been going down hill for a good while now. My wife
has gotten into drugs. And has some weird people always around. She...
calls them friends. None of them held a job... I'd had just about all I
could take.
We were living in an apartment at the time. It was a holiday, and we
were having a party at our place. I didn't want to be surrounded by
only her dopey friends all night,so I envited a coworker. I'll call him
Greg. He worked in a different department, but would get sent over to
help out once in awhile. I didn't know him very well,but he seemed nice.
So I invited him. I was happy he came.
He mingled awhile, then just came over to me. He didn't seem to care for
their company either. Although he didn't say so. As we were talking, it
was as if I were seeing him for the very first time. Then a feeling came
over me, I can't explain. Suddenly I was feeling very attracted to him.
Maybe it was the drinks I'd had, or maybe I just needed some fresh air.
I said, "It's stuffy in here. Let's step out for some air."
We went out the patio door into the back. All the others were so wrapped up in themselves they didn't miss us anyway.
About 50 feet back there was a creek,and a brick wall about three feet
high along the bank. We sat down on it and started talking. As we talked,
without realizing it, we got closer together. I kept feeling a strong
attraction for him. I was confused by that feeling. But I just wanted to
be close to him.
He must have felt that as well.
We stopped talking and were just looking into each others eyes,as if we were looking into our very souls.
I couldn't resist at that point,and I put my arm around his shoulders,and he leaned toward me. I realized he was feeling that too.
So without another word I leaned in and kissed his lips. Softly at
first. Then with more passion. Our tongues explored each others mouths,
and my hand went to his crotch. He didn't resist. I was enjoying this more
than I ever had with a woman.
His hand was on the back of my head, forcing our lips tighter together. I could feel his erection,and mine was hard as well. I wanted to take him to bed and make love with him the rest of the night, but I knew we couldn't tonight. I broke the kiss and told him, 'I want
you'.
He said, "I've wanted you since the first time I saw you."
I told him, "We'd better get rid of our erections. Someone may miss us and come looking."
He said, "I can tell you now what I've been feeling all this time. I fell in
love with you the first time I saw you.
I stuttered, "I.... I'm confused. I've never felt this for a guy before. Let's get together and talk about this after work. I know I love holding and kissing you. Right now I want to be with you all the time,and I don't know why i'm feeling this way..."
We returned to the apartment.