I was spinning, spiraling, losing 
control of all that was earthly. 
The result of betrayal, of treacherous 
plans, of schemers who prey on naivete.

The darkness approaching, enveloping 
me in its quiet seduction. Nothingness. 
So easy to allow the blackness to take 
over, to sleep the sleep of the defeated.

I lay in the bosom of self-pity, lay there 
awaiting madness, awaiting relief, 
awaiting an eternity of pain, of not
knowing the warm kiss of love.

The icy cold fingers of depression 
are deceiving. The numbness soothes 
the pain, but it removes the senses and 
strips what little human dignity that remains.

And then you appeared, offering only a 
finger to touch, a calming voice to hear 
and the hint of a promise, an offer of help, 
a vessel to a sanctuary, a safe haven.

A calmer presence to my chaotic ways, 
you came with stability and friendship 
and asked for nothing in return.

Your lifeline brought a glimmer of light 
into an unthinkable darkness, shining 
like a beacon into my tortured soul, 
raising my consciousness out of the pits of loneliness.

My gratitude was slow in coming, 
such was the damage to my psyche. 
Yet you persevered, fed my soul, 
nurtured me back to a good place 
And offered me your heart.

Love grew from that chance meeting, 
love that continues to grow each day. 
For it was your love that saved me, 
brought me back from the brink.

I am whole again, able to face life's 
challenges and adversities, but I am not alone. 
I have a partner, a lover, a guide to help 
me along the way, to watch my halting steps 
and catch me when I fall.

Your love sustains me, drives me, fuels me 
as nutrition, gives me reasons to live.

It is this love, this giving, this care 
that is my inspiration, my impetus, 
my very reason for existence.

 I love you so...