As a gay man living alone in a small country town, I don’t meet very many others like me. I haven’t been close to anyone in quite a while. Not a lot of openly gay men in this community. You add the fact that I’m a hopelessly shy introvert, and the chances of me finding a lover are somewhere between few and none. The only sexual encounters I have had lately have been with bi-curious men who just want a quick fuck or for me to suck them off. I do enjoy those encounters, but I crave a closer relationship. Someone I can hold in my arms, who won’t disappear after he gets what he wants. I’ve never had anyone to love or who loved me. So most nights, I fantasize about someone to make love with as I use my toys as stand-ins.

To help with my fantasies, I love making videos of myself masturbating. The thought of someone watching me as I stroke my hard cock excites me more than I can express. Whenever I’m making a video, I get one of my dildos out of my toy bag. Today I’m craving one of the bigger ones. I want to feel my ass complete with a big cock deep inside me. I start by teasing myself with my fingers to lube my hole and see how many fingers I can slide inside myself. My ass is so tight and wants to be fucked so badly. All of this teasing has given me a massive, hard erection. My cock is now throbbing, aching to be stroked. But not just yet. First, I need that big dildo lubed up and inside me. Sliding it in while closing my eyes and fantasizing about someone gripping my hips as he pushes slowly and deeply inside me.

As I slide up and down on that vibrating cock, I grab mine and stroke it. That feels so good. I continue riding my dildo faster and driving it in harder with each thrust. As I moan loudly, I get close to cummimg. But I want to feel this ecstasy longer. I don’t want it to stop. I slow down to enjoy the feeling of having this enormous cock inside me. I feel my own hard cock in my hand. As I remember that I’m filming myself, I start talking to that imaginary stud that’s fucking me. Treating me like I’m his own private pussy. I’d tell him how good he feels inside me. How I want to lick him all over and suck on his breast. How I long to kiss him passionately. I crave to be able to hold someone tight as we both cum together. The thought of someone’s cock throbbing inside me, filling me with hot cum, is all I need to slip beyond the point I can’t hold back any more. I let out one last loud moan as I finally let all of that pent-up sexual frustration explode. As the heat of ecstasy flushes through my body, I feel my cock throbbing in my hand, pumping out all my cum. I’m sitting there covered in cum, my cock still in my hand as it slowly relaxes. I still have that huge dildo shoved deep inside me, and the video is still recording. I bask in the glow of that wonderful feeling of my orgasm. Once I finally get my legs to stop trembling, I raise up and slowly pull the dildo out, loving the feeling of it sliding out of me. I stop the video and save it to watch again next time I masturbate.

This is my only release nowadays. Only able to fantasize about someone to make love to. With only my toys for company.

To help with my loneliness and the ache to find someone to love, I decide to take a vacation and go somewhere warm. Somewhere with a beach. Hoping that I’ll be able to meet someone like me. Someone I can share my desires with. So I scheduled a week off and got packed.

Once I get there and settle into my hotel room, I find a nude beach. Thinking it would be a great place to see who might be available. Loving the idea of being able to see all that someone would have to offer.

That’s where I saw his amazing nude body glistening in the hot sun. He was slim, tall, and tan all over. Unlike me, he didn’t have any tan lines. Just a perfect shape, an irresistible body. Firm, tight ass, and the most perfect cock and balls I’ve ever seen. He was perfect. And he was alone.

Sadly, I’m still just a shy introvert who doesn’t have enough self-confidence to approach such a beautiful man. So I just lie there trying not to stare, and more importantly, trying desperately not to get hard. I can feel my cock wanting to rise to the occasion, but this is not the time or place to be walking around with a fully erect penis. So I got up and quickly jumped into the cold water. At least if that couldn’t stop my erection, it would hide it until I could get control of my lust.

That night, back at the hotel, I had one of the most mind-blowing experiences masturbating while fantasizing about his gorgeous, nude body. I made up my mind that I had to overcome my shyness and approach him the next time I saw him. I had to at least try. I knew I wouldn't be able to stop lusting after him and his absolutely amazing body.

For the rest of my vacation, I spent every day on the beach. Lying in the hot sun, sweating and feeling the anticipation of seeing him again. Unfortunately, I never did, and my chance never came. All I had to show for my time on the beach was an agonizing sunburn.

The time came when I had to return home again, without ever getting to hold his beautiful, hard body, without being able to make passionate love to him. That last night before I headed home, I was overwhelmed with frustration. My heart broke. I lay there, blaming myself for my cowardice, angry at myself for being too weak to reach out to the very person I dreamt of. That last night, I actually cried myself to sleep.

Back home now and still can’t stop thinking about him, fantasizing about making love to his beautiful body. Longing to be in bed together, making passionate love. Only we are now thousands of miles apart. And worse, I have no idea who he was or where he is. But even that can’t stop me from craving his body next to mine.

Most nights, I lie here with my hard cock throbbing, dreaming of him. I slowly stroke my cock while fantasizing about us making hot, passionate love together. All I wanted was a sensual, passionate, earth-shattering love affair between two men. Craving each other. Wanting the feeling of our nude bodies touching. Wanting to kiss and lick him all over.

While I still hope that somehow, someday, we will be together, I let the thought of being with him excite me. For now, I can only dream of showing off my naked body, hoping that he would want me as much as I want him. To try to satisfy this longing, I dress up in my lingerie and search through my toy bags for just the right cock to shove inside me. Wanting to do anything that I hope would excite him. I imagine him naked, stroking his own cock, while he watches me slowly rubbing my hard penis. Feeling the excitement of wanting him to touch me.

I would love to be able to perform just for him. To share my videos so he could watch me fuck myself. Ruining my asshole with my largest, thickest dildo I have. Feeling it, stretching my asshole until it hurts so wonderfully. As I imagine that beautiful hard cock inside me, Fucking me and ramming deep inside me until his balls slap against mine. I dream of him holding my hips to pull me close to him while he continues to pound into me. Longing for his throbbing cock to fill me with his hot cum.

I have this fantasy of letting him roll me over on my back and grabbing my cock. Watch as he slowly strokes me until I get hard. Craving the warmth of his mouth sucking on me. Feeling his tongue licking my cock all over. The warmth of his hand rubbing my balls. He would continue until he brings me to the edge of cumming, but stopping just short of my climax. He’d then climb on top with me between his legs and slide my penis into his ass. Pushing me deep inside of him. I’d lie there and enjoy watching him ride my dick. Watching him slide up and down on my cock. Again bringing me to the edge and again stopping just short of me reaching the ecstasy of releasing inside him. He would then roll over on his back so I could move in between his legs. I’d slip my cock into that wonderful, warm ass of his. We look at each other as I continue thrusting into him. Pushing my cock deep and hard inside his hot, tight ass. Loving the feeling of his legs wrapped around me, encouraging me to trust harder and deeper. This time, as he softly moans, I continue until I can’t hold out anymore. We are both lost in the passion of our lovemaking. Gasping to catch our breath as I continue to pound my cock into him as deep as I can. As I reach that point of no return, I bend down and kiss him passionately. My throbbing cock fills him with my load of hot cum. Holding him tightly in my arms, I continue to kiss and explore his mouth with my tongue. After we would then fall asleep from the exhaustion of our passionate lovemaking, still holding each other, never wanting to let go.

I’m always thinking about what to do to myself in the next video to show off my beautiful naked body. Which toy I’ll use to make myself cum. Which toy will be my stand-in until I can feel his hands all over me as I cum for his pleasure. I just want to feel him fuck me deep and hard. I need to feel him inside of me. I crave to make love to him and hold him tight as he pushes deep into me. I want to please him in any way I can whenever I can. Wherever I can, I just want to be his toy, for him to use any way he wants. To fulfill all of his deepest desires and fantasies. Longing to be lying in each other’s arms after making passionate love together. There is nothing I wouldn’t do with him. Nothing I would hide from him. I’d let him use me as his toy to do as he wants. My body would be his.

I long to be with him physically, but my fantasies will have to be enough. I can’t wait until I have time to make another video. To stoke my cock, fantasizing that hopefully he will someday watch me, and want me as much as I want him. Until a time when we can somehow be together. All my passion is just for him. I would do whatever he wants me to do, anytime. He would just need to ask. Until then, I’ll keep dreaming that I have him in my arms. I’m his now and always.

All my love and all my passion belong to him.

I’ve fallen in love with a mysterious, dark, beautiful, naked stranger I saw on the beach.