I feel so bad, but my physical attraction is so strong. I still want him inside of me. I want him to come home. In my heart, though, I feel trashy. I didn't plan on having any type of relationship, sexual or otherwise, with him, but knowing that I was lusting after a married man just made me feel disgusted. There's a reason why I have a stepfather. My biological father cheated on my mother after 25 years of marriage. He wasn't apologetic, either. He was actually an asshole about it. When my mother said she needed time to repair her heart, he filed for a divorce because he said “he didn't have time for games”. When I told him that I wanted to stay with my mother and I didn't want to continue a father-daughter relationship with him, he proceeded to wipe clean the bank account with the money my mother had saved up for my college tuition. He spent it on the wedding of him and the woman he got pregnant during his marriage. No, I'm definitely fighting this attraction to my professor. I wouldn't destroy a woman like that whore destroyed my mother. Not all women are fortunate enough to find a man like Brian. Thankfully, my mother did.
“ Yes, my husband and yes, he's married. And you are to stay away from him. Do you understand? Otherwise you could lose all of your financial aid and get kicked out of Howard. She has her finger pointed in my face. Although I am a peaceful spirit, I do not condone disrespect.
I take her finger out of my face and say, “Look, lady. I want your husband, but I don't want to want your husband. Be grateful for that. What am I supposed to do about this class? I don't have the money to pay for it.”
She narrows her eyes at me and says, “Watch yourself, slut. You're going to stay in that class if you can't pay for it, but stay away from my man.” Is this woman stupid? If a cute teenage girl told me she was attracted to my husband and she wanted to stop, I would make the proper arrangements, but this woman.. is not smart. Man, I'm so upset. Why is this happening?
“ Next time you call me a slut, I'll make sure you have a reason to,” I say through clenched teeth. Honestly, I'm not angry about her calling me a slut because I know that that's not true, but the fact that I have to be in a classroom for an hour and a half with this beautiful man.. man, I'm going to fail.
I leave out of the room and notice there were a line of angry students waiting for the financial aid advisor.
“ Well, its about time,” one girl hissed at me.
“ Sorry.”
I rush to my dorm room.
..
I'm running to that classroom like my life depended on it. I feel like if I didn't have him inside of me, I was going to burn from the lust that ached between my legs. I stop. I feel him already. I can feel that painfully sexy vibration running through my veins. I look down and the only thing I'm wearing is an open robe. It's blue and green, very silky, and slides right off. I run again because the vibration is starting to consume me. The door to the building is open and the way to his room is glowing on the floor. I follow it in a hurry. And then I get there. And he's there. And he's waiting for me.
“Professor.. I don't know why I'm here, but I want you-”
He comes over and puts his hands on my lips and then the hand travels down to my sensitive place. Fuck it, I'm just gonna say it. He traveled down to my pussy. My wet, warm, sensitive pussy is devouring his fingers.
“Fuck,” I say. He raises his eyebrows.
“You're using very bad words in my classroom and that is something I will not tolerate.” He then grabs my hair and pulls the ponytail out. He slides the robe off. He steps back and looks at me. I can see myself in his hungry eyes. I'm against his desk with puffy hair, red lipstick and nice sized breasts.