After 20 minutes of curvy street roads I was home. To my own place. He never wanted to move in together. That was another argument. But in the end it was a good decision and less of a hassle. I opened the door to a neatly ordered home. Wood floors, light colored walls and windows opened to let the breeze in. I liked it light and open. Visitors could see the woods through my back windows in the living room. The open kitchen was to right of it, along with a side bedroom and bathroom. In the back of the house I had a separate hallway. Leading back to my bedroom the walls showed my life in pictures. Graduating from Kindergarten, high school, and college. I received a BA in English, but I worked in a Marketing Office down town. Some times degrees aren't everything. But I hoped to write books one day. Maybe be a teacher. Who knows.
I changed for the night. A few of my friends heard about the break up and wanted to take me out for some drinks. I thought it'd be great to catch up. That and I really needed a stiff drink. I took a shower and laid out my clothes to get ready. I looked in the mirror critiquing myself. I was slender and worked out when I could. Running is what I enjoyed to do. I was tall and had great assets. My eyes were a straight blue and my hair was long brown, laying against the mid of my back. I bit my lip trying to figure out if I should be more casual or dress up. I figured I might as well go all out and chose a sleek black dress and pumps. Fixed my make up and was ready to meet up with my friends.
That night we went to a hot new club down town. The line was wrapped around the building, but the girls didn't mind. I was glad I dressed up. Both my friends had done the same. I greeted both my friends when they found me in line. Kate was shy yet devious. I had met her at work and hit it off right away. She was a good friend and was very adventurous. Of course she wore purple. Great heels and a few accessories in her dark hair. Jen was about the same, but wearing red. She greeted me with a big hug and was ready to dance.
"So," Jen started. "You ready to kick the night off right. Forget the morning. The past is in the past."
She made me smile. Trying to comfort me, I hugged her again. I could have cried, but I didn't want to ruin the night. I stayed positive and we talked about work and other things to take my mind off things. The line was starting to move and we entered the club. The music was loud and streams of blue and greens lights swept the floor. The DJ was pretty cute, but what I really needed was a drink and a hot dance. I ordered straight rum on the rocks. I really didn't care, and I really needed it.
"Let's go!" I grabbed Jen and Kate. "We should dance."
Kate set down her drink and followed after Jen and I. I led her by the hand and started moving to the beat of the music. We all got close to the middle and didn't think. Just danced. I noticed Kate was interested in a guy that caught her eye. I nodded that she was ok and watched her put her arms around his neck and dance. It was harmless. Well, to the point of their clothes were still on. I just continued moving to the rhythm and noticed Jen in front of me. She was smiling and just moving with me. She got a little closer to me and put her leg in between mine. We were a lot closer, but we kept dancing. I swayed my hips and noticed she was still looking at me. Her dark eyes burned through me. I smiled and got a little closer. She fit perfectly against my body and we started grinding each other. I checked to see where Kate was and she was intently moving with her new found friend. I laughed and put my arms around Jen's waist. She didn't flinch and ran her hand through my hair, making me look at her again.
"Your eyes are beautiful." Jen said.
I just smiled and switched movements when the song changed. Jen was now behind me and I felt her hands on my waist. I intertwined my fingers with hers and bit my lip. I had to turn and face her. She was still staring at my blue eyes. They became fixed with hers and I didn't look away. Jen moved closer. I almost couldn't breath with how close she was. My lips moved across hers and I felt that I was becoming wet. She wasn't worried and just moved with my body. One more song went by with a Techno feel to it and I had to get some air. I excused myself and went to the restroom.
"Are you ok?" Kate asked still close to her male friend.
"Yeah." I shook my head repeatedly. "I just need some air."
I walked to the restroom and looked in the mirror. It was still pretty crowded in the club and was reaching 2 am. I heard the door shut again and looked up. Jen had a questionable face and approached me.
"Are you feeling ok?"
She felt my head with her hand, inspecting me and checking if I was ok. I nodded my head again and looked in the mirror. I swallowed hard and turned to face her. Her eyes were deep in thought. Wondering what I was thinking. I wanted to know what she was thinking.
"Danielle. Are you ok?"
She asked again. I shook my head and walked out to the Bar. I felt her follow me and sat next to me at the Bar. I got another drink and ordered one for her.
"Its ok," she said. "everyone goes through break ups. Trust me I've been through my fair share of what you think is love." She patted my knee and took a drink. "Listen, why don't I take you home. You can sleep. And then start a new day."
I sipped my drink and agreed with her. I watched her walk to Kate and tell her we were leaving and if she wanted to join. She had declined and would see us at work. Kate was a big girl, she could carry herself home if need be. Plus, she hadn't drank much so we both were ok with her staying. I left my car in a lot a couple streets down and just rode with Jen. The whole way I just watched the trees pass by through the window. I felt sick. Something was not right.