I died. And yet I didn’t. Death was not what I expected. There was no tunnel, no light, no choir of angels nor a pearly gate. I found myself floating, untethered. Drifting, slipping in and out of dreams that may have been visions or perhaps glimpses of what transpired while I slept...
They, whether visions or dreams, felt life-like, sometimes stimulating a particular sense – sight, sound, scent, taste, or touch, sometimes singularly and sometimes all at once.
At times I tasted the sweet taste of nectar upon my tongue. At others, the tempting taste of lust berries until I was awash in ecstasy, memories of my time on the island with my human companions slipping through my thoughts or my alien lover, Isshu, memories of pain mingled with pleasure flooding my nervous system. And Prel, his bestial strength and the violence within him calling to my own primal needs.
Often, I felt the flutter of wings, or the brush of gentle touches from my brethren, the giant butterflies whom we named the beach we had washed up upon. At others, I could hear and feel the warm breezes upon which they floated or hear the waves and smell the ocean.
And more than once I could see the island through their multifaceted eyes, watching as the seasons turned. Summer to autumn. Autumn to winter. Winter becoming spring. And spring changing slowly back to summer. It seemed I watched the years pass, glimpsing changes both subtle and momentous. I watched as great storms raged across the isle. I observed as a band of the lizard folk who had captured us confront Prel and I watched as they lit great pyres for their dead the next day. I watched As Isshu floated listless in the pool where we had consummated our needs and lusts on so many occasions. I saw everything. Or perhaps the visions were the product of vivid hallucinations. Sometimes I glimpsed visions of the strange cavern I had discovered and the crystals within it. It seemed important, somehow, but the thought would slip away before I could solve its riddle and my memories would take over. The cave we’d discovered and taken shelter in. I could see the face of Emma and feel her soft kisses upon the tips of my nipples. I could taste her sex on my tongue and feel the passion growing within me. I could hear her moans as I fed from between her fleshy thigh and as she fed from me… at those moments, the secrets of the island faded into obscurity as I was, once more, cocooned in slumber, sleeping through what I suspected here not mere days, but months perhaps. Perhaps longer…
More seasons passed. I began to feel again. Not the sensations caused by my visions, but something more real. I felt my heart beat. My pulse throb. I felt the stirrings of both pleasure and pain as my flesh and bone began to miraculously heal, the vestiges of the monster that I had been turned into upon the Eye of Thermisto before this never-ending dream had taken me…
And then, everything changed and I awoke...
Or rather, I rejoined the physical world once more, encased in a hard shell-like substance. Panicking, I fought, the instinct for survival setting in. Eventually, exhausted, I had torn enough of the translucent encasing to allow air in for me to breathe. Spent, I simply lay there, waiting for my energy to return enough to extract myself from my confines, trying not to think about how similar this was to a recent memory of me being trapped in what can only be described a giant test tube.
Surprisingly, I felt no pain, although hunger was another matter. The chrysalis, for that is what it reminded me of, was full of viscous fluid that smelled both sweet and sour. It clung to my naked flesh as I sat slowly up, my limbs weak, atrophied from my long… hibernation. Without thinking, I dipped my fingers into it, and licked them clean. It fed my hunger, and I feasted on it, feeling slightly rejuvenated after I’d had my fill of the warm sticky goop (there being no other word to accurately describe it).
“Quel étrange nouveau chapitre nous attend? ” I wondered out loud, my voice so soft that I could barely hear my own words.
What a strange new chapter, indeed…
My exertions having exhausted me, I lay back and closed my eyes. This time there were no dreams, at least none that I could remember. When I awoke, I felt renewed. Stronger. I fed once more upon the thick liquid that filled the chrysalis until I felt sated. And then I fought my way free of the now broken shell, eventually falling to my knees, naked and dripping with the nurturing goop, upon what seemed to be a bed of thick moss-like vegetation.
As I lay there, butterflies settled around me. The very same that we had named the beach after. I reached out, not with my hands, but with my senses. I could feel them. Their senses, emotions, even their thoughts, primitive as they might be. I sent my own, communing with the warm breeze caressing my naked flesh I stood once more, unsteady at first, but eventually finding my equilibrium.
And then, I explored. I was near the cliffs. Isshu’s grotto lay behind me and the beach upon which we arrived after being shipwrecked before. I chose the beach. I was not yet ready for a reunion with my alien lover. Perhaps I would never be. I moved slowly. My muscles were weak with disuse. Besides, there was no hurry. I sensed that more than just weeks had passed since I’d fallen into my silk-encased slumbers. More than just months. Years. How many? I could not guess. What had happened to my companions? To Prel? To Isshu? I had no way of knowing other than discovering their fates for myself.