The nausea isn't as all-consuming as usual when I crawl in my underwear across the air-conditioned lock-up to lie gasping and perspiring at its edge. I must be acclimating to time jumps.
Coherent thought's a luxury in these first few minutes so I simply wait for my breathing to steady and the shivering to kick in as the chequer plate metal floor absorbs whatever residual heat I possess. That way, at least I know I'm alive.
As the mind fog lifts and the hum of the cobalt fluorescent light replaces it, I haul myself to sit against one featureless wall of the empty box, hugging my legs for warmth. I try to focus, sluggish at first before restructuring neurons race, overtaking my ability to process them. Where had everything gone wrong? When was the skewpoint? Today? Last week? Am I losing my mind? Are the more frequent memory gaps a by-product of the jumps? Or do I just need sleep?
I rub my eyes. Dare to stand, slithering up the wall for support until the need to hurl subsides. Lunge for my drawstring bag and gracelessly dress, tugging the jeans and T-shirt over the boxers I'd jumped in; too hot for anything more.
Leaving the bag, I head for the exit, catching sight of myself in the CCTV screen adjacent to the door release. I glance up at the camera in the corner, run my hand through the sandy mop of hair, tug my Converse baseball cap on, then palm the large button and wait for the roller door to rattle up enough to duck beneath.
I know what needs to happen. No idea how to do it, but it has to be fixed.
When all I'd been doing was making money it had been easy. Just me tangled in my own quantum web. But I'd got sloppy. Complacent. And now lives were at stake. One in particular. The blunders I made yesterday or last month or… whenever, would collide again tonight unless something radical changes.
Visions flash through my head. The street. The knife. The pain etched on her face. The blood, so much blood. I shiver.
My many jumps to correct events or figure where I'd screwed up had ended in vain. Nothing ever changed, besides me looking like I'd gone three rounds with Thor's hammer.
As I tap the lock code, slam the button on the control panel outside StrongBox#158 and the gears grind to seal the room shut, I know options are running out.
It all starts and ends with her.
Talia.
~oOo~
I know where she'll be. Dante's Italian off Carlisle Road. Prescience is like that.
Out of sight from across the road, I watch her enter, take a window seat, sweep those auburn locks behind her ears, and lean over the table to scan the menu. So radiant. Smart. And a sexual firecracker. No wonder I'd fallen for her so hard in such a short space of time.
Space.
Time.
Nobody knew, including her. The lie about my sizeable lottery win was almost true. It's just the lottery happened to be the stock market, and I happened to know which stocks to short for the biggest gains. Without detection.
Or so I thought.
Figured opening multiple accounts was smart to spread the risk, using various addresses: work, home, my parents. Ensured I bet modestly. No windfalls, but enough to gradually amass a small fortune. Enough that I could refine the physics while Professor Barnes and I penned the paper that would make us household names, and I secretly built a better machine in the university basement. No cameras. No prying eyes. No observation, and that was crucial.
Despite the improvements, I still had no way of knowing exactly when I'd land, but that's the nature of quantum theory. If you know speed, you can't accurately predict position. If you know time you can't predict energy usage. But none of that mattered. The principles mattered.
All I needed was somewhere big and metal, so the margin of error was good enough I didn't end up fused with a wall or, in the case of my first jump, sprawled on the floor of the ladies' toilets at a 1986 university disco. Mercifully, the girls who found me thought my incoherence and vomiting were because I'd had a skinful.
So I rented the lock-up. Tested it with smaller jumpfields. Ventured into the recent past with baseball cap pulled low to reduce risks of being photographed. To further minimise traces of my presence, I used a public computer at the library to place a few trades based on stock fluctuation photos I'd taken on my phone, then returned to the lock-up and collapsed the experiment.
I allow myself a smile. For all its uncertainty, quantum physics could be so damn predictable.
Across the street I watch the bubbly waitress carry the coffee pot over. Charlene's new, and I swear AI. Nobody could be that cheerful in real life. Talia accepts milk and glances over her shoulder as the Venetian blinds on the door clang, probably to check if it's me. Or Victor, her possessive ex.
If only he knew the half of it. How Talia and I'd started chatting in Maestro's over the thumping beats. How we danced and flirted as the lasers swirled and the alcohol flowed, gradually drifting closer until we were almost touching, the rest of the clubbers melting away. How she made my insides fizz when I drew her to my body and brushed my lips to her neck, her ear, whispering how magnetic I found her. How she dragged me from the club and we didn't even make it to the taxi rank before slamming into a secluded shop doorway, lips fastened, hands clutching over and under clothes.
Her scent was intoxicating. Skin feminine and warm as I dug my hands into her panties beneath the floral sundress and gripped her bottom, lifting her against the wall and marking her neck with my teeth alongside the spaghetti straps. I'd scraped my forearms on the brick but barely noticed as she reached beneath herself and unbuckled me. Slid her hot hands over my engorged shaft, tugged her panties aside and guided me breathlessly to her wet entrance.
It was frenzied. Intimate. Dangerous and stupid given how many laws it broke. But neither of us could stop. With legs locked around me, she clawed my back and rode hard, rocking, grinding and bouncing between my buried length and the wall until she tensed and shuddered. Her stifled gasps in my ear triggered my climax deep inside her clenching heat.
We'd drifted, buzzing for goodness knows how long before disentangling to make ourselves presentable. Fled. Grabbed a cab to hers. Shed clothes up two flights of stairs en route to bed, then explored one another well into the early hours, and almost daily since. Boundaries fell as we experimented. Fingers, teeth, ice, rope, toys; everything in pursuit of pleasure. The one-night stand that hadn't yet ended.
Victor found out a few weeks later. Went apeshit. Threatened to get me kicked off campus because his uncle was Dean of Applied Sciences. Good luck with that, asshole. My thesis'll pay his wages for years. And there's not much semester left anyway.
Someone hurries past me and it takes a moment to snap into action.
"Hey!"
My previous self turns and gawps. Takes a step closer. "Jesus. This can't be good news. You look like shit."
My voice sounds odd outside my own head. Less bassy. Like a recording. He… I, identical besides his hoodie and the cap I'm wearing, steps away from the kerb out of sight of the restaurant.
I stiffen my jaw. Glance up the street at some kids hoverskating to impress a group of girls. "I have to fix something. Change plans with Talia."
My doppelganger furrows his brow. "Victor, right? The email yesterday?"
I piece the timeline a moment. Merely nod.
"Can I help?"
I puff my cheeks. "Probably safer if there's only one of us today. Could you hole up somewhere? Don't talk to anyone. I'll be gone by," I check my watch, somewhat redundantly, "half-eleven, all being well."
Meeting myself's not as weird as I expect. Neither of us go into shock like in Back To The Future, but I guess if you know you're messing around with time travel already, the impact's lessened.
He nods. "Why don't you go back? I'll change our plans."
"Maybe. But I've seen the wreckage, you haven't. And nothing so far has worked. No point retreading old ground."
I let that sink in.
"Okay. Sure you know what you're doing?"
I scratch my stubble. "Nope."
"Figures. Well, if you need a hand, call m… wait, we share a mobile number. How's the network gonna-"
"Got you covered." I wave my phone. "Burner SIM."
"Clever."
I smile, peeking around the corner at Talia. "I better… y'know. Can't keep the lady waiting."
"Yeah, course. I'd say see you around but that's..." He tails off.
"I know, right. Keep your head down."
I hand myself the baseball cap, round the corner without looking back, jog across the sun-kissed road and enter the restaurant. Slide into the moulded plastic seat across from her.
She doesn't have to say anything for me to know what she's thinking. I shrug. "Didn't get much sleep."
The laminated menu catches the sunlight and I glance down. "Let's order. Lemme guess." Pressing long fingertips to my temples, I shut my eyes and make a low, "Hmmmm," sound. "Linguini, right?"
When I snap my eyes open I can tell she's impressed. Her cheeks lift. The same way they did when she giggled after I walked my kisses down her body and feasted on her pretty, bare pussy. I remembered my first true taste of her like it was yesterday, but it was probably four months ago. Maybe longer.
We'd been rolling and swapping places on the three-quarter bed in the loft room of her student digs, battling for control in a tangle of limbs and play bites when I'd managed to pin her down, both of us breathing heavily. The skylight sun cast her freckles in a golden hue, the ensuing kiss tasting of mint and raw intent.
"You're mine now."
"Only if you can keep me here."
"Is that a challenge?"
She beamed and I sat up, clamping her torso between my thighs. Grabbed the hem of her T-shirt and tugged it up towards the pillow. She wriggled. Her left arm was last to exit the garment so I held it, spun the material like a lasso over the edge of the bed and looped it around her wrist, tying it off. Heaved the free end up and hooked the collar over the brass headboard finial.
"There. You struggle, you rip it. And I bet you like that top."
Her eyes flashed, desire raging. Reaching for the hem of my own T-shirt, I yanked it off and did the same with her other wrist as she mock protested while eyeing my chest hungrily.
"Miss Talia Petrenko," I trailed my fingertips down the soft inner flesh of her arm, goosebumps forming, "prepare to be ruined."
She laughed. A contagious lilt that made her breasts shake in the lacy bra. I brushed their sides on my way down to unsnap her jeans, button by button, inching myself back with each one and lowering my face towards the mauve material until the heat from beneath registered against my lips.
My eyes never left hers as I kissed the moistening fabric. Then slender tummy. Twitching thighs. Sensitive toes. I took my time. Made her squirm. There's something magical about watching a woman gradually lose complete focus. Lose her sense of place in the world and become swept up in the moment. To give in to need. To beg.
Peeling off her underwear, my tongue and teeth took over. I adored the way Talia begged. She did so with her entire being, malachite-tinted irises widening as I nibbled my way across her skin to end millimetres from her clit, skimming it with only my breath. Her legs gripped and released my head. The sinew in her arms tensed against the bonds. Belly muscles tightened with each twist. And the thirst… that thirst burned behind her eyes.
Fuck, her scent was amazing. Rich and aromatic with a tequila tang that swirled as I lapped her slit. Her essence coated my lips when I French kissed her pussy and let it fill my senses, my tongue probing her core, drinking every juicy atom she surrendered.
When I introduced my fingers, she growled. When I curled them up, she moaned, opaque cream oozing into my palm. I devoured her zest. It drove me on, possessed me, as did her escalating cries and the way her curvaceous upper lip trembled when I wrapped her clit with my mouth and sucked her quivering jewel.
I didn't hold back, and neither did she, drenching my chin and the sheets as she giggled. I'd never felt so alive.
"Matt? Matthew?"
I focus. Realise Charlene's hovering with her tablet. "Sorry. One linguini. And I'll take the calzone, please."
She taps. Chirps, "Our pleasure," before scuttling off. Definitely AI.
Talia cocks her head. "What is it? You seem… preoccupied." Her inflection gives away her Ukrainian roots. So damn sexy.
"Nothing. Just…"
I want to tell her not to go out with me tonight. To avoid the movie so we won't run into Victor who'd somehow unearthed what I was doing. Vindictive bastard had demanded cash for his silence. A lot of cash I wasn't going to yield.
Tonight, he'd find me. Give chase. And in the ensuing tussle, Talia will be stabbed. My gut wrenches at the memories of stroking the damp hair plastered to her face, her breaths shortening as she slipped away in my lap. The gaping chasm it tore inside me. I can’t let that happen to the girl I want to spend my life with. Won't.
I'd tried covering my tracks better. Jumping twice, sneaking back after I'd left the library and erasing browser data. Other days I sat and watched Victor watching me, to figure out how he latched onto my scheme. Followed him. Found nothing.
Direct intervention's an option, but I have no idea how to go about it. I'm not a killer. Muscle can be bought from the small ads of disreputable publications, but that has far more potential to backfire. Not least police entrapment.
Treading gingerly's frustrating. Intercepting myself was my last real hope. I have to make it count.
I reach across the striped red tablecloth and stroke the back of her hand. "We should stay in tonight."
"And miss the last showing?"
"I know, but…" I should have prepared a reason. "We could… play?" Leaning in, I whisper: "Wanna blindfold you. Make you twitch and scream under my wandering tongue."
She smiles. "We could if it helps you relax. Is it your research?"
I nod.
"So tell me. What's up?"
"You wouldn't believe me." I sigh.