What the hell is wrong with me?

Here I am sitting in the lobby of our marriage counselor's office, waiting for my estranged wife. 

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Nine months ago, I did not have a care in the world. I was happy, I think she was happy, and our son would soon be going to first grade.

Our sex life was not all that great, having not been great since the birth of our son. I could live with it. Liz is a beautiful woman, five foot three, nice thirty-four B breasts, and awesome legs.

I masturbated to porn when I felt the need, and that helped me.

Then it happened. We had some new neighbors move in. A couple older than us with a teenage daughter. 

When I got home that night, Liz said, "Welcome home, Ryan. How was your day?"

I replied, "You know the same old grind. How was your day?" 

She said, "It was fine. I met our new neighbors and took them a welcome basket. Her name is Mona and his name is Ben. They have a teenage daughter named Bella. They seem like nice people, and Bella told me she would babysit Josh for us."

I said, "That's great, a built-in babysitter next door. I hope she is reliable. You know, we have had a lot of trouble getting someone we trust who shows up. How old is Bella?" 

She replied, "Mona said she was seventeen, but her eighteenth birthday was coming up soon."

"That's great," I said. 

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I remember thinking back on that day and how innocently I thought having an eighteen-year-old babysitter was a relief. Was I ever wrong about that.  

Two weekends later, our new neighbors invited us over for a swim party and a cookout.

We did our introductions at the party, and many of our neighbors were there. 

Liz and I were lying in some lounge chairs, sipping on a beer, when Bella came over to us. 

She stuck out her hand and said, "Hello, Mr. Swanson. I am Bella, your new neighbor, and hopefully your new babysitter."

I shook her hand and said, "A pleasure to meet you, and we will see about the babysitting job."

Liz said, "Don't listen to him, you got the job."

Bella moved closer to me to shake Liz's hand. Her pussy was only inches from my face, and I swear I saw some pubic hair hanging out the side of her bikini bottoms.

I had to stop staring before Liz saw me looking.

I watched each cheek of her ass move with each step as Bella walked away and jumped into the pool.

I had to remind myself that I was happily married and had no time for playing around.

The party went on for some time, and Liz and I got a little drunk. I found myself looking for a reason to walk over near Bella to check her out. 

Every time I got close to her, it was like she wanted to brush up against me. One time, the back of her hand hit my crotch, and she left it there for a few seconds.

I could feel my member rise, so I hurried back to my chair next to Liz.

When I got back, Liz said, "We need to get home and get Josh to bed." 

We went over and thanked Mona and Ben for inviting us to the party, and then we went home.

Liz put Josh to bed and then came into the bedroom. I watched her get ready for bed, and when she got down to her panties, all I could think of was Bella's ass when I was looking at Liz.

Liz jumped into bed like usual and turned off the lights. I slid right next to her and pulled down her panties.

Liz rolled over facing me and said, "Aren't you frisky tonight. Do you want something?" Then she giggled.

I rolled her back over and shoved my cock into her pussy. With the dim light of the hall light, I could see my cock go in and out of her.

All I could think of was that it was Bella I was fucking. That young, perfect ass of hers. Just waiting for me to take it.

Liz yelled out, "Not so hard. Take it easy on me."

That brought me back to reality and who I was fucking.

A few pushes into Liz's pussy, and I splattered cum all over her pussy and ass. 

Liz got up and wiped the cum off herself and said, "Maybe we should drink more often, you were a tiger tonight."

Liz jumped back into bed and kissed me goodnight.

I lay awake and thought about how I fucked my wife, but the whole time I thought about a seventeen-year-old neighbor. What the hell is wrong with me?

A couple of weeks went by, and my memory faded until the first time Bella came over to babysit Josh. 

She knocked at the door, and I answered, and she was wearing the shortest shorts you had ever seen, along with a halter top with no bra.

I stood there dumbfounded for a minute, then said, "Come on in, Bella. Let me get Liz, and we can show you what to do."

I yelled upstairs to Liz, “Bella is here, let's show her what to do."

Liz yelled back, "I am putting my makeup on. Show her the house until I come downstairs."

I pointed to the kitchen first and walked behind her. Her walk. Those butt cheeks. The way she moved. I was obsessed with her.

I had to control myself; I was getting hard.

Bella looked around the kitchen and said, "Anything I need to know in here?"

I replied, "No, just showing you around is all."

I took her to the den, then our office, and the entire time I walked behind her so I could see that perfect ass.

Liz came downstairs and said, "Let me show you Josh's room, but be quiet, he is napping."

I waited at the bottom of the stairs for them to come back down.

I now had something else to look at. Bella's perfect camel toe. It was as nice as, if not better than, her ass.

Liz was right behind her and said, "You have our numbers, Bella, so if you need anything, don't hesitate to call."

Bella went and hugged Liz and said, "Don't worry, Josh is in good hands."

Then she came over to me, hugged me, and said, "I will take care of everything, and I mean everything." Then winked at me.

She left, and Liz went back upstairs to finish dressing for our evening out.

I went and sat down to think about what Bella said. What did she mean by everything? Does she know I am checking her out? Am I overthinking all of this?

Liz and I went out for a nice dinner, then went to a movie afterwards. I can't say the images of Bella's camel toe and ass did not dance in my mind. It was hard at some points to carry on a conversation with Liz. 

I daydreamed through the entire movie. I was glad Liz did not like it. She may have asked me questions about it, which I would have struggled to answer.

When we got home, Bella was watching some TV, and she had not changed clothes. Her smooth legs glistened in the light.

Bella smiled at both of us and said, "Josh is an angel. Best kid I ever babysat for."

Liz said, "Thanks, Bella, that is good to hear. Ryan will pay you." 

Liz went upstairs, and I got my wallet out to pay Bella.

She stood right in front of me, maybe four inches away. 

She looked in my wallet as I opened it and said, "Whatcha got for me? Is it something good? You know I was a good girl here tonight. I like being a good girl for the right person. Are you the right person, Mr. Ryan?"

I looked into her eyes and knew exactly what she meant. I was not going to swallow the hook as much as I wanted to.

I mumbled out, "Let me see how much cash I have. I am glad you were good here tonight." 

Then I handed her some cash.

She took it and then hugged me, and I don't mean like a friendly hug, I mean like a hug you give a lover. I felt her tits rub against my chest as she did.

She kissed me on the cheek and said, "Good night, Mr. Ryan. Sweet dreams.”

I watched her walk out the door and shake that perfect ass. Liz was going to get it tonight. I had to fuck her.

I dashed upstairs, and Liz was coming out of Josh's room, and she said, "Josh is sleeping like a baby. Bella did a good job tonight."

I thought she was right. Bella did a good job of getting me horny.

Liz was a sexy woman, but Bella is the kind of woman you dream about.

Liz began getting undressed. I walked up behind her and grabbed her ass and said, "Your tiger is horny. Time to tame him?"

She turned around and said, "What's gotten into you lately? I can't tonight, I just started my period."

I got a frown on my face, and Liz knew I was disappointed. 

She dropped to her knees, undid my zipper, and pulled out my cock.

I loved blowjobs, especially when I could watch with the lights on. Her lips moved up and down my shaft as she looked up at me.

I had a vision; it was Bella's lips on my cock. She was naked, sucking my cock. Her big brown doe eyes were looking at me.

I put my hands on Liz's head and began pumping her mouth like I was fucking her.

How I wished this were Bella in Liz's place.

Faster and faster, I pumped her mouth.

I was about to cum and pulled my cock out of her mouth and shot my cum all over Liz's face.

I said, "Fuck, that was good."

Liz looked at me and said, "That's the first time you ever did that, Ryan. Have you been watching porn or something? Jeez."

She got up, washed her face, and then we went to bed.

I got up the next day and thought about what Liz said about me watching porn. I needed to cool it; this damn obsession I had for Bella. 

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The following weekend, I was helping clean the house, and I was in our extra bedroom, which overlooked our neighbor's house. 

I looked down at their pool, and Bella was strutting around it in a thong bikini, sweeping the pool.

My god, her ass. Fuck, it is so damn perfect, I thought.

She finished sweeping the pool, dove into it, and came out. Then went to lay on a lounge chair.

I was mesmerized watching. I couldn't move.

Then she undid her bikini top, exposing her perfect tits.

She looked up at our window and must have seen me. Bella began waving at me. 

Fuck I was busted.

Liz called from downstairs and said, "Are you about done up there? We have a lot more house to clean." 

I went away from the window reluctantly. I finished cleaning that room and Josh's and my office.

I went downstairs and said, "Upstairs is done, how can I help down here?"

Liz said, "Thanks, Ryan. I am about done; the only thing left is the kitchen, and I want to do that myself."

I replied, "Glad to help, Liz. I was thinking of moving my office upstairs to that room we never use. The light is so much better there. Would that be okay with you?"

She looked over at me and said, "I never did understand why you chose the room that you did. Go ahead and move your office in there if you want to, but you'd better get some help with your desk, it weighs a ton."

I said, "Okay. I am going back up there to measure the room to make sure it all fits."

I dashed back upstairs to look out the window, but Bella was gone.

I looked around the room and knew everything would fit in it.

I had a semi-hard cock thinking about Bella's tits.

I went to our bathroom, locked the door, and jacked off.

Thinking of Bella's body. Her tits, her ass, that perfect camel toe.

It only took a minute before I came in our sink. 

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The following weekend, I had a friend come over and help me move my desk and the rest of the furniture from room to room.

He asked when we got done, "Why the hell did you move into this room? The sun is going to shine right in your eyes, and it will be hard to see your computer screen."

I replied, "I just like it better, is all."

Liz treated him to dinner that night.

We were done when we heard a knock on the door. 

Liz got up and answered it, and it was Bella.

She said, "My dad told me to come here and return the grass clippers he borrowed from Ryan."

Liz yelled out, "Ryan, it is Bella. She has your clippers. Come and get them."

I went to the door to get them, and there stood Bella.

She was dressed in short shorts again, and I did not notice right away, and I am sure Liz did not either, but her shirt was damn near see-through.

Her luscious nipples were pointing right at me, almost asking me to suck on them.

She extended her arm and handed me the clippers, saying, "Here you go, Mr. Ryan." She peeked into the house and saw Liz was back towards the kitchen, then whispered to me, "I am going swimming tomorrow, and my parents are out of town. You may want to get a camera; you might see something you like." She then winked at me and went home.

Oh, fuck I thought. Now I am a peeping tom with a camera. If Liz catches me, I am done for.

The next day, I kept making excuses to go to my office. Bella was never there.

Liz told me she is going to the grocery store to pick up some items. She was taking Josh with her, and he loved looking at the toys at the store.

This was the perfect excuse for me to camp out by the window.

Thirty minutes after Liz left, Bella appeared by the pool. She looked up at my window and waved.

She slowly danced around the pool and took off her bikini top. She blew me a kiss and threw her top in my general direction. 

She then bent over with her ass pointing right at me and slid her bottoms down to her knees.

She wiggled her ass at me and took her bottoms all the way off.

She turned around and there it was. Her pussy. She had shaven it clean.

She playfully touched her pussy and would stick a finger in it, then lick her finger and point to me.

I was about to explode out of my pants; I was so hard. I don't know how long I watched Bella do the same thing over and over.

I would have jacked off right then and there, but I heard Liz pull up into the garage. 

I hustled downstairs to help unload the car.

After helping unload the car, I went to pick up one of Josh's toys from the yard. 

Bella came out of her backyard and saw me. She pulled down her bikini bottoms, put her finger in her pussy licked it, then mouthed the words, "That is for you. Come and get it if you dare."

This was getting completely out of hand. What the hell was I doing?

I have a loving wife and a great kid. I told myself, don't fuck this up.

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As much as I tried to resist looking out my window, I could not stop. My bathroom trips and masturbating became almost a daily routine.

I would find reasons to go and talk with Ben in the hope of seeing Bella close up.

A few times, I did see her. She would stand behind Ben and suck her finger. Fucking her mouth with it and then looking down at my crotch. 

I needed help.

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One day at work, I looked up and scheduled an appointment with a shrink. I was going to stop my obsession with Bella.

Later that day, Liz called me in tears and said, "Ryan, my mom is in the hospital. She was in an accident. I have to see her."

I replied, "Honey, I am so sorry. What can I do?"

She blew her nose and said, "I just can't take Josh with me. He does not need to see this at such a young age. Can you take him to work with you for a few days?"

I replied, "You know I can't. Let me think about it for a minute."

Liz said, "I got it. I will run next door and ask Bella to take care of him while you are at work."

Before I could say another word, she hung up.

Five minutes later, she called back and said, "Bella said yes, she would be happy to help. I have a flight out in three hours, so if you can take off early from work, that would help."

I replied, "I will be home in fifteen minutes."

On the way home, I was so worried about her mom that's all I could think about. Then, about five minutes before I got home, I thought oh shit, no wife and Bella to come home too. I am going to have to be strong to resist my urges.

I got home, and Liz was already packed, and Bella was there to take care of Josh in case I did not get home in time.

I hugged Liz and asked, "What can I do to help? Should we get going to the airport?"

Liz replied, "No, I have an Uber coming. Should be here any minute. I gave Bella a brief list of things to do and what to feed Josh when you are at work, but my mind is not all that clear. Will you promise to go over them with her?"

I nodded my head, and the Uber pulled up out front. I carried her luggage to the car and kissed her.

Josh waved at Liz as she drove away.

I looked over at Bella and said, "Let's go over what Liz wanted you to do, please."

We sat down, and Josh played with some of his toys right in front of us. We went over the list, and I added just a couple of small things.

After I got done, Bella said, " I am sure everything will be okay with me and Josh, but there is one thing. This Saturday is my eighteenth birthday, and my parents are having a party for me, so I won't be able to look after Josh that day. You are both welcome to come. It's just going to be a few of my friends and my parents' friends who come over."

I replied, "Thank you, Bella, for all of this, and I will think about the party. I need to see how it goes with Liz's mom first. I will pay you double what I normally pay you for doing this."

Bella got up and hugged me, then kissed me on my forehead and said, "Don't worry about the money, there might be another way to pay me. I must get home now. I know my dinner is ready. I will see you at seven AM tomorrow morning so you can get off to work."

She then left and went home.

I felt good after she left, knowing she would handle this situation well.

The first couple of days went by without a hitch. Josh was happy and taken care of. That was the good news; the bad news was that Liz's mom was touch-and-go for survival. I was unsure when she would return.

I decided to go to Bella's party. Josh needed some distraction, and so did I.

The party was much like the last one. Bella had on her bikini, and it was hard for me to take my eyes off her. She and her friends swam much of the day, and Josh even joined in.

Bella did not flirt with me much. She did it only once, when she sat on my lap, she was soaking wet from swimming and said, "Do you like something wet in your lap?" 

She ran back and jumped back into the pool.

I made an early night of it. It had been a long week, and I wanted to get Josh to bed.

I put him to bed, then went into my office. I turned off the lights and watched the party. I did this off and on while watching some TV.

I don't know what I expected to see besides Bella walking around in her bikini.

It got to be late around midnight, and I needed to get to bed, so I took one more look. Bella and two of her female friends were skinny dipping. They were very nice-looking, not as lovely as Bella, but nice.

I pulled out my cock and began masturbating, watching them. I imagined them all three fucking me. Fuck I was so hard, and I needed pussy so bad.

I was about to come when Bella and her two friends got out of the pool and looked up at my window, waved, and began fingering themselves.

Fuck was I busted again.

It did not matter; I shot a load of cum on my window.

I left my office.

All the way to bed all I could think of was that I am a fucking pervert.

The next day, I made Josh and me a nice breakfast, then went into the backyard and played a game of catch. He wore me out.

After the game, he wanted to play with one of his friends, so I walked him down the street to play with his friends. I told him to be home no later than five.

I went home and lay on the couch and turned on the TV.

I dozed off, and I was woken up by a hand on my crotch. 

I cleared the sleep from my eyes, and there was Bella naked as a jaybird with her head right near my chest.

I said, "What the fuck are you doing, Bella? You're naked."

She put her hand up my shorts and touched my cock and said, "I know I am. I am here to collect payment for taking care of Josh. I know you want to fuck me, and I want to fuck you, Mr. Ryan. Let's do it right now."

I was stunned and struggled to speak.

She stood up, undid my shorts, pulled out my cock, and began stroking it. I had to stop this, but I could not. My lust came over me.

I said, "Suck it, Bella. Suck it good."

She bent over and took my cock into her mouth, the entire time making eye contact with me. 

Bella said, "I know you have wanted this, Mr. Ryan, for so long. I see you jerking off in that window."

My face turned red with embarrassment, but she was right.

I said, "Bella, come here, sit on my face. I want to taste your sweet nectar."

She stood up, and I laid back on the couch. She lowered herself onto my face and began grinding on it.

Oh, the taste. My god, it was so sweet. Her scent was nothing that I had ever experienced before.

As I ate her, I could see her looking down on me and her perfect tits bouncing as she did. 

Those eyes looking at me were almost enough to make me cum.

Bella began moaning and then said, "Mr. Ryan, you're making me cum. Oh shit, this feels so good. Don't stop, Mr. Ryan. Please don't stop."

Her nectar began flowing onto my tongue and face.

My obsession was becoming my reality.

She rode my face harder and harder. 

She reached down and spread her lips and said, "Put your tongue in there, Mr. Ryan. Lick my hole." 

She rode my face for at least thirty minutes before she said, "Mr. Ryan, I want your cock in me. Fuck me, Mr. Ryan. I know you want to."

She was right. I had to fuck her now.

I picked her up and carried her to my bedroom, tossed her on my bed, and said, "I am going to give you the fucking of your life."

She put her head on the pillow, spread her legs, and said, "I sure hope so."

It felt like my cock grew three inches more than usual just looking at her perfect body and that pink pussy.

I slid my cock into her awaiting pussy.

The heat. Bella's heat was going to melt my cock. 

I watched as my cock slowly went all the way in her. 

She dug her nails into my back and said, "That's good, Mr. Ryan. I love your cock in me. Fuck me harder." 

I pushed my cock into her faster and as far as I could go into that heat.

This was nothing like I had felt before. Was it her age? Was it because it was sinful? Or simply because her pussy felt this way.

I was getting close to filling her up with cum, but I just had to fuck her doggie style. I wanted to see her ass jiggle as my cock went into her pussy.

I stopped, flipped Bella over, and said, "Doggie style now, Bella."

It was everything I thought it would be all those times I jerked off thinking of fucking her doggie style.

Fuck she was so hot. She was in heat.

I pumped her pussy faster and faster until I could not take any more and blew my load into that oven.

She rolled over and looked at me and said, "Was it everything you thought it would be, Mr. Ryan? I know I loved it. That was the first time for me, doggie style. That was the first time doing anything besides masturbating."

Oh shit, I thought. I just took her virginity. Fuck is she on the pill?

I kissed Bella then asked, "Are you on the pill, Bella?"

Bella replied, "Oh, yes, Mr. Ryan. My mom made me start the pill at sixteen."

I let out a sigh of relief.

I told Bella, "We can't do this again. I am married, and I feel guilty as hell. Besides, you need a guy around your age."

Bella climbed out of bed and said," We will see about that, Mr. Ryan."

I replied, "Bella, you can just call me Ryan. I am serious, we can't do this again." 

Bella laughed and said, “I must go, Mr. Ryan. My parents are probably wondering where I am. See you Monday morning to take care of Josh."

Bella left, and I can only assume she had some clothes downstairs somewhere.

I was overcome with guilt. Why the fuck did I do that? I am so stupid.

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Monday morning, Liz called me and told me her mom was going to make it. She wanted to stay with her for a few days after she got home.

I was happy to hear the news, but that meant Bella would have more chances.

I felt safe from another round with her. Although I wanted to, the guilt was getting to me.

The week went smoothly, and I minded my manners with Bella, and so did she until Thursday night.

I was sound asleep, and I felt a body next to mine. Being half asleep, I thought it was Liz.

Then I heard, "Mr. Ryan, I am here to collect what you owe me for taking care of Josh."

Before I could get a word out, she had grabbed my cock and mounted me like a horse.

She slid my cock into her love canal and began to ride me.

I was powerless. My obsession was getting the best of me.

I needed Bella. 

Her pussy was on fire again. I could feel her juices flow down my cock as she rode me. Fuck I loved this.

I knew I would not last long. 

Up and down, she went. The whole time, looking at me and smiling. 

Bella said, "Are you going to fill me up again, Mr. Ryan?"

That's all it took before I shot another hot load of cum into her.

Bella started to climb off of me, and suddenly the bedroom light came on, and Liz said, "Surprise, I'm home."

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Liz threw me out, and now I live in an apartment near my workplace. The only reason I am not in jail is that Bella had turned eighteen. Her parents are beside themselves. 

Somehow, Bella found out where I live, and she comes by every Saturday and Sunday.

I love fucking her. I can't stop. Look what it's costing me.

My wife, my son, and my house. Everything I ever did is gone.

I do wonder who was obsessed with who?

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I sit in the lobby of our marriage counselor, waiting for Liz. 

I already know the outcome. I am obsessed and can't stop.