Fuuuuuuck fuuuuuuckkkk fuuuckity fuck just one more thing to add to the ever growing list of things that I can't really control. Why oh why does it have to be this way. Can't one thing in my life be easy. I truly don't ask for much. Just to be able to pay without worrying where the next dollar is coming from. Fuck me
yesterday, there was a page on the whitehouse website about LGBTQ issues. today, it's gone. climate change page? gone. civil rights page? gone. health care page? gone. didn't take long for the new admin. to show their true colors, so really, fuck this shit.
You can’t truly call yourself peaceful unless you are capable of violence. If you’re not capable of violence, you’re not peaceful. You’re harmless.
Fucking cancer, you finally did it didn't you???
Fuck u

Art can never exist without naked beauty displayed. it pisses me off that people are still going on about trump/Hillary presidential crap.
I'm English but I see it all over this site and facebook and twitter and....
fucking hell get over it. trump is your new president. move on. live life.
I'm angry so ANGRY!! Life sucks and he made it worse yesterday!! I can't believe he can be this stupid, I just can't. The way he acts as though everyone owes him something fucking pisses me off!!
I AM NOT A RUBBER BAND. If you keep trying to stretch me in all different directions I will snap or in my case break. EVERYONE needs to stop doing it NOW. I can not afford to break now. I am running out of glue!
i fucking hate when lawyers act so fucking superior. would it kill them to drop the posh voice and have a fucking laugh? they're not any smarter than anyone else. we all have fucking letters after our names. doesn't change the fact that YOU made a mistake in a letter. but whatever. it happens. just chill the fuck out and relax.
I'm so tired of condescending shitheads.
Fucking dick balls ass hat I hate banks. I pay exorbitant bank charges on my account in my home country and now they have blocked my account because I have to provide some random fucking documents for their FICA compliance. Documents I don't have because I'M NOT IN THE FUCKING COUNTRY. I can't access my own money. How the fuck is that even legal.
I could very easily set my bank on fire right now.
"A dirty book is rarely dusty"
Shit, my phone is driving me bat shit cray with all of the notifications I'm getting from every news wire service known to man. *throws smart phone against the wall to be free of the noise*
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I'm sick of my forgiveness being taken for granted. I've got nothing left and nowhere to turn.. I give up..
What is so very wrong with me? Why am I not enough? Why am I never enough?
How is it that the people I want to be with so badly find it so easy to lose interest in me? Less than two months.
What am I doing wrong? What is wrong with me?
I think it's time to accept that I'll never have a family of my own like I wanted. I'm just not good enough.
I was scared to let you in. I was scared for us to be more than friends because I knew I'd let my guard down and be open and vulnerable with you. You told me not to worry. You told me that I was only scared because I'd only ever been with knobs and you weren't one. I believed you. I let you in and I let my guard down. For the first time in two years, I let my guard down. You told me it would be ok.
Now you tell me you're losing interest and don't know why.
Guess what? IT'S NOT OK!
I'm hurt and angry. I want to call you and message you and ask you why. I want to tell you that it's not ok and you are a knob just like the rest. There's no point. You told me all of that and I just said, 'No worries.'
You're young and immature, you're stuck in a rut and don't know how to get out of it. The simple fact is that you need a bomb up your arse and can't even see it. You're shutting down and hiding where it's safe. You're not happy but you're too comfortable to burst that little bubble you live in.
You've just ruined the best thing that ever happened to you. You'll realise in a few years and then you'll start telling me how much of an idiot you've been. It's what they all do. Everyone realises how fucking awesome I am eventually, but they all leave it too late.
Note to self: You are worth more than someone who leaves you feeling like this.
Take some time and wallow but don't let it consume you. Just because he broke his promises doesn't make you worthless. Just because thing didn't work out the way you hoped doesn't mean they never will.
Sometimes life is shit. Things will get better and you will come out of this stronger.
DAMN! Cruel and unfair shit happens! Life throws horrible shit!
NHS mental health provision. Absolutely fucking abysmal. It's no wonder suicide rates are so high when services are basically impenetrable.
How hard can it possibly be?! Once you've done your assessment and decided someone needs help
a) PRIORITISE your patient load
b) REFER them to the appropriate specialist/ team
c) COMMUNICATE this to the patient so that when they are feeling the lowest they ever have, they won't have the added stress of chasing you to find out what the fuck is happening and if they're going to get any sort of bastard help
d) get an appointment for your patient and tell them about it
e) if you haven't made any progress with this in TEN CUNTING WEEKS and your patient calls up and politely asks what is happening/ if you've managed to sort anything and you promise to find out and call them back that afternoon- CALL THEM!
No wonder people moan about how wank the NHS are.
So many idiots. Everywhere.
This is fucking bullshit.
Really Fucking annoyed.
What type of message are you sending you sub-standard school?
You set the class a Shakespeare assignment for half term/homework. You dangle those posh smelly expensive pencils they all covet as prizes for the best presentations.
My son and my friend's son worked hard and trust me, getting 10-year-old boys to get off their Xbox's to research Shakespeare and do their school projects is no small feat, but they both wanted a chance to win those bloody pencils.
Now I can understand that with a class of 25 kids not winning was a possibility. When I picked him up from school, and he was sulking, I honestly thought he was over reacting. Apparently not.
My friend who's son also worked hard on the project and didn't win is upset too. Apparently, one little boy hadn't done his homework/project and was taken into the ICT suite to do his quickly. They made him one of the winners.
A second little boy had put his on a USB, and they couldn't view it so no presentation and yet he was one of the winners too.
Second child aside, how can they reward a child for not doing his homework and not the children who did? What kind of message is that sending to the children who did work hard and do their projects?
Honestly, my friend and I both have very upset kids right now because that was not fair. It's sending the kids the completely wrong message. They best not bloody complain now if Reece or any other child doesn't bother doing theirs in future because they set the standard today IMHO.
Grrrr, Fucking school.
Family are currently in a bit of a housing related crisis. Dad is overwhelmed and stressed out by it. Brother has grandiose ideas but a zero hour contract so really needs to readjust his views. His fiance is in her own fucking dreamworld and doesn't seemed phased by any of it and also 'doesn't have time' for a part time job to help out financially, despite the fact she's only in uni 11 hours a week.
So it's all left to me to prevent them from becoming homeless as the place they are renting is about to be sold by the landlord. None of the rental properties I've found are any good. Dad needs a bungalow with step free access. Brother needs a garage for his motorbike. His fiance needs somewhere with decent transport links so she can get herself to uni rather than relying on my elderly disabled father to drive her. They've poo pooed all but one of the places I've found. So I put a £150 application fee in for it. And then they decide it's actually not suitable.
I've now had to start looking at alternatives, like benefits to supplement their income, social housing, temporary housing etc. Dad doesn't care as long as there is a separate shower. Brother doesn't trust the council to find somewhere. His fiance might not even qualify to live with them as she's only been in the country 18 months.
Received a letter from the council on Saturday saying they need two months bank statements and proof of income for each of them. I was due to go home on Saturday, back to my husband and my own house and my own chores and responsibilities. I haven't seen him since Valentine's day. But, being the sorter of the family I agreed to stay so that I could sort it all out and hand the evidence in on Monday morning as soon as they open.
It's now Monday evening. My dad has finally got me his bank statements but not proof of income so I'm gonna have to trawl through them so I can highlight and annotate them to explain all income. My brother still hasn't printed his wage slips off for me and isn't happy about having to share his bank statements with the council. His fiance doesn't have a bank account or any income so I need to write a letter outlining this. Then tomorrow morning I have to take his fiance to the team stop which is a twenty minute drive away, then take all this stuff to the council offices and have them copy it, then come back to their house to drop their paperwork off, and then I can finally drive home to my husband, who I won't have seen for a week by this point.
Then tonight, my brother announced we will have either Indian or McDonald's for tea. Which requires me driving to either place, buying food for them and then driving back. Despite the fact that there is food in the house, but nothing to eat as he didn't bother to get any meat out the freezer when I asked him to this afternoon. There are frozen pizzas so I said we could just have them, hut his fiance doesn't eat pizza. He doesn't want to eat something different to her so we have spent the last hour debating what we will do and are no closer to a decision.
I am currently feeling completely unappreciated for everything I've done for the last few weeks trying to prevent their impending homelessness and then to add to that, they just expect me to buy fucking tea for them. I want to see my husband, I want to go home, I want to sleep in my own bed and curl up on the sofa with my cats. I also want some fucking thanks for all the stuff I am doing for them and not just to be exploited and taken for granted because my husband and I have a very healthy income. Yes we get a lot of money, but in the last couple of months I've spent over two grand on these three people and yet they can't even cook me a fucking meal.
To add to all of this, I have now been off work for over three months with depression and anxiety. I think about killing myself daily and it's struggle just to get out of bed. But I have done everything I can to help them, regardless of this. And all they do is fight me, moan and procrastinate. Why do I fucking bother? Right now I feel like telling them that they can shove it up their ungrateful arses and then driving the hundred plus miles home too see my love. But they wouldn't do anything about their housing situation and then in a few weeks when they have nowhere to live I know I'll feel guilty as hell. So I'm stuck here, trying to organise these fucking ungrateful morons while feeling suicidal and missing my husband like hell. I don't know whether to cry or scream.
How can you still, after all of this, be such a blind, delusional fool? How can you not see that you are hurting/endangering those who do or used to love you?
I've had no love for you for a long time - that's been no secret - but I never honestly thought you'd pull shit like this. We all just thought you were an idiot, but this... What the fuck?
And how do you think it's going to end? Things are not going to be okay, no matter how much you pretend otherwise.
You're just an ungrateful cunt, and I hope I never have to see you again.
I'm sick and tired of you being the headline topic whenever I talk to my family. You don't deserve the time and energy and tears that have been wasted on you. Do everyone a favour and just go away.