Happy..... but I've got a fuzzy head!
Drunk, joyful and desperate at the same time.
Confused and a little sad.
Working, but wanting to be on Christmas holiday
Hi-Manic... (WAY TOO HIGH!!!)
(You never get used to it but when it arrives you recoqnise it...)
Nerves like STRETCHED VIOLIN STRINGS, High-Panic-Anxious and for no earthly reason...
Nothing changed between yesterday and today but today I'm FIZZFUCKED!!!!!!!!!! On one level it's really fun but on another you are aware of potential fuck up... (And physically it feels nasty...)
"Something's boiling in my blood,
And not something I ever should or could profoundly say...
But I just think I'll use the ink, I'll type quite madly 'cos I'm just this way...
You LUSHIE motherfuckers make my day...
"The CRAZINESS I do confess enables me
To write and pour and so express
The nonsense that is mine,
YOU MUST FORGIVE ME!!!
"You're all a part and parcel of a place that I moved into,
And be you Catholic or Protestant Buddhist Islam, (NO!) or Shinto
You sexy fuckers came my friends in time...
And lots of what I do here is a crime...
"I mean to not hurt ANYONE
I came here just to have some fun
It's been a few years now and I'm doing, (not fine!!!) but OKAY...
And I'll be back tomorrow, that is Tuesday...
"I'll be here as long as YOU let me stay..."
xx SF
Relieved.
When I heard about the tragedy in Glasgow today, I couldn't get hold of my ex and my children for a time.
I can't begin to describe the panic that followed.
Thankfully, they were safe and well and my heart goes out to those whose lives have been touched by this today.
Life is fleeting and fragile, grab it with both hands.
A bit stressed....I have a lot to do in the next few days.....UGGH.....
Tired from working out, but incredibly aroused...
A bit stressed. Trying to get everything ready for lots of family arriving tomorrow. Tired too, not sleeping that well past couple of nights. But, shopping is all done, so that is good! Overall, happy to be alive.
