In Stead of Loving the Man I was with I pushed him awayI didnt know how to Love himHe was very good to me for a long timeThen our Love turned SouthI have searched my soul for reasons whyAll I foundI did not know how to Love HimI am learning to love through my soul and heartNot just my headThrough Music and writing tooIm learning to love for my future selfFor the one who follows my heart, My soulHe will always be in a spec...

This is hard to tell myselfI need to trust in myself againTo trust the people around me againTo Trust the ones I lovedFor the ones to come afterUntil I canI will be alone...They tell me it takes a lot of CourageFaith and LoveI believe I have Faith and the CourageLove will come laterIf and when it does I will be ready

What is Love A handful of promises That can be broken A heart full of Happiness That can turn into lonelinessCan I love again Like I loved back thenBack when life was much easier Before my heart was broken in to pieces all those years agoI have loved since thenBut, could not hold onto it I push everyone awayIf I can love myself Why is it difficult for me to love another....

The story behind the wheel barrow pictures: Well, since you asked, here’s what happened. I was living with my boyfriend (at the time) and he was renovating his bathroom. He had two friends over to help, Reggie, a tall black man with a linebacker build, and Rafa, a stocky Mexican. Both men have shaved heads, which I love! I had been helping the guys carry out the tile they had torn up. Living in Arizona, it's hot in July!...