Part 1 It was a sin. I knew that. I knew that it is and I fought it and I was afraid. But it was a terribly strong temptation, too; unending, coming from somewhere else or from inside of me. And I fell. Again and again. I felt guilt, anger and despair, and vowed that I will resist countless times, and I took my vows seriously and really fought the sinful urge. But there always came a point when that other voice got to me—...