My footsteps echoed in the corridor as I approached the Wayback version of the Infernal. Unlike back home at Time Central Station, the hallway was bereft of others hustling about. Other than the clomp-clap of my rubber-soled, era-appropriate shoes and the flapping of a leather backpack matching every step, my only company was James excitedly pontificating "our" plans.
His too-loud voice droned on, but I paid his words little heed. He didn't seem to note that "our" plans included me shooting through the Time-space-matrix into the malleable future-past and him sitting there, all snuggled up and cozy, taking notes. My forebrain was occupied with mustering the courage to once again step inside that doorway that leads only to pain, infinity, and oblivion.
I took a mental tally of the contents of my pack. My notebook, Dr. Shadah's future research, an all-purpose sheath knife suitable for any era, a steel machete serrated on one side, a small powder-propelled pistol, and plenty of nine-millimeter projectiles to go along with it, some rope, some high-strength adhesive tape, a battery operated light, some wound-sealing spray from the late twenty-first century, and some minty green liquid in a plastic bottle to rinse out my mouth after I shot into the early twenty-first. I also had an era-appropriate, false identification badge, some local currency, and some cheese wrapped up in thin, clear plastic, in case I felt hungry, as well as a map of the region to study.
My plan was simple. Get to the restaurant before Dr. Shadah leaves, convince him that I need his help to fight the vamps, and have him tell me their location. I had three hours to pull this off, which was more than enough time. As I hadn't been implanted with the artificial tachyons yet, there was no way for me to signal Wayback to pull me back through. So, instead of them doing a reverse shoot, they'd have to forcefully pull me back by keeping the machine zeroed in on my electromagnetic signature. It made no difference to me. It felt the same with either method, from what I had heard.
A far too jovial voice broke my internal reverie. "Well, well, well. By that shaggy mop of flaming hair, I would think that either they lifted the no-pets ban around here or that sexy lump of flesh would be Gail Cavalier!"
I looked up to see none other than Dar Langston, himself, strolling down the hallway. Not only is Mr. Langston Dr. Purley's boyfriend, but he is also one of the most active agents in the bureau. Short, handsome in a sort of rebel leader of the resistance sort of way, and always smiling and flippant, he was one of the few Time Shooters that operates in multiple eras. Dar handles a lot of the fundraising up and down the time stream, as well as being our main recruitment officer. He was the one that initially recruited me. While his profanity-laced speech and cavalier attitude rubbed many the wrong way, I always enjoyed his company. His constant cheeriness is contagious.
"What's it to be this shoot, my friend? Do they need more Peking Duck, or did Epstein wear out his Bee-Gees CD?"
We both stopped as we approached each other and clasped hands. "Not this time, Dar. I'm headed to 2007 to hunt down the damn Vampires."
Darwin shook out his long hair as he laughed with true mirth. "Make sure you take along plenty of garlic and stakes!"
"No, really, Dar! I'm serious. They cleared me to find the smallest T-mass, so I can stop the Biters from plaguing your future."
"You're serious?" He smiled. "Then why do you wear your hair that way?" He reached out and embraced me. "Good for you, being promoted from lackey gerbil to a real mission that makes real change. Besides, it's about bloody time we did something about those Biters."
"Thank you," I said, hoping to sound more confident than I felt.
"Get it?" Darwin exclaimed loudly to James. "Vampires? Bloody?" Dar's face lost its mirth. "Good luck," he said. "Don't get yourself fragged." He turned away and began caterwauling some song about Rock Sand turning on red lights.
I looked at James. "What is a rock-sand?"
James sighed and lowered his head while shaking it back and forth. "ROX-Anne," he corrected. It is a woman's name. "You know, the song? The Police? Sting?"
"Oh," I said. "Nobody gets stung in my time. Humans destroyed pretty much all the bees in the twenty-first."
James made an anguished noise. "Let's get you to the portal before you drive me crazy!"
We walked the remainder of the distance in relative silence. I steeled my nerves and concentrated on arousing myself. Before we even got to the double doors leading to the Time Chamber, I could feel the static in the air. A small platoon of docs was in the room, pouring over Vid-screens. Not a single white-coated scientist seemed to be smiling. That was disheartening. I felt the terror of having to walk through that doorway, leading to infinite pain and loneliness, well up inside of me once more. It took every ounce of courage I had within me to not turn and run in the opposite direction.
James spoke up, alerting the docs that we were here. "James Carlson here with Gail Cavalier from the 24th, reporting for jump 71307-1A."
One of the white coats looked up and acknowledged us with a nod. He looked down at the screen and shook his head. He looked back at us. "We're having trouble zeroing in on that spot. I can get you within one hundred and one hundred of your target, maybe closer."
"One hundred of what?" I asked.
"Miles or minutes or both," he replied matter of factually. He grunted at something on the screen and pointed, while another doc nodded. He then turned towards us. "We can only keep the circuit open for about three or so hours of linear time. Do you still want to shoot? If you don't do it now, we probably won't have another window for a few linear months."
"A few?" James cut him off.
The head scientist grunted again and nodded. "Approximately 6.37 months." He shrugged and then went back to checking the readouts.
James looked at me, quizzically. I knew what he was thinking because I was pondering the same thing myself. I made up my mind to go anyway. "We'll shoot now if that's alright with you. I'd rather take my chances now and loop back than miss this first shot."
He nodded and said, "just one more thing." He sat himself down at a primitive Vid-screen terminal and started typing away. Swearing loudly, he put me very ill at ease. "That's no damn good!" he said, turning off the Vid-screen.
"What is the problem," I asked. "Can I still shoot?"
The doc gave me an odd look, noting the worried look on my face, then tilted his head back and laughed. "No, nothing like that," he said. “Since you were going into late 2007, I was hoping you'd pick me up a movie, but it will have just made it to theaters two days before you get there. You'd need to wait around about five months for it to be released on DVD."
I was wondering what a DVD was, but my question was cut off before it began by another scientist, who was checking the connections to the infernal. "I'm an orphaned wizard with a lightning bolt on my face!" The others laughed, but I didn't understand.
"We're about as spot on as we'll ever be, Dave," one of the scientists manning a Vid-screen near the back said. The lead Doc, named Dave I assumed, looked at me and nodded.
"Just give us a minute to charge the circuits, and you'll be ready to stroll on in."
"Not exactly what I'd call a stroll," was all I could muster.
James looked at me with his mouth agape and his eyes wide open with excitement. I quickly pulled out a map of the region I was heading to. I figured that if I could hold the image in my mind as I moved from my physical essence into the void of the Matrix, perhaps I could use infinity to memorize the area. The lights dimmed for a moment and then grew bright. My internal terror grew bright and stayed that way. Doc Dave looked at me, holding up three fingers, reminding me that I only had a short time before I got pulled back. I nodded, steeled myself, and then took a step through that coldly demonic metal doorway.
Another timeless infinity spent in the ethereal void. First, the anguish of having your body shredded from your soul, and then the terror of being alone and incorporeal for eternity. Even my orgasmic state did little to quell the feelings of isolation; insanity soon set in. I crossed the line between coherency and lunacy so many times that I all but rubbed it out. Throughout all, those waves of pleasure ran through my mind.
When I initially regained my sanity, I committed every recalled detail of Dr. Shadah's and James' supporting research to memory. The map I had just viewed was thoroughly memorized, as well. I then ran every imaginable possibility, regarding the up-and-coming encounter, through my mind until I had a plan for every contingency that I could fathom.
That was merely the blinking of an eye in an endless infinity. I wished that I could at least sleep; anything to turn off my mind—anything to negate the eternal loneliness, even if for just an instant. I recalled one of my instructors, back upstream at Time Central, mentioning that the first Time Orphans were given a sedative to render them unconscious while they floated through the timeless void of the Matrix. This was done in the first shoots and proved to be fatal or worse. Regretfully, this either ensured insanity or the Time Orphans choked and died on their vomit when they were spit out, whole, at the end of their arc. If one is going to shoot through time, then fully conscious was the only option.
Ultimately, the despair began to take root and its hold over my psyche grew stronger and more enduring. When I felt that I was on the cusp of going forever mad, I suddenly felt that welcomed, all-consuming pain once more. Then, I felt the shock of every atom of my body being slammed together all at once as my being was pulled from the edges of reality into its material form. I collapsed onto the soft, warm ground.