I wasn't thinking at all when I showed Cait the toys, I was just excited about them and about the pictures I had in my head of us using them. “Where did you get those?” she said. She was lying on her bed naked, and I was standing on my knees between her legs. We had played with each other a little, and I had just pulled them out from under the covers where I had hidden them because I wanted to surprise her. I had the doub...

That summer and fall were one of the best times of my life. Before it turned into one of the worst winters. First, all my dreams came true, and then all my nightmares did. But, that's for later. I worked a little at the coffee shop, just a few hours a week, but it was something. Cait had a job too, and she was working a lot more hours than I was, so we didn't get to hang out as much as I had hoped we would, but I stayed a...

It was Cait's dad's birthday, and they had had just a few friends and relatives over for cheese and red wine, and when Cait and I went to go to bed, it was late and it was just Cait's mom and dad and her aunt Jessica and my mom left. Cait and I went upstairs and into Cait's bathroom and brushed our teeth, and then we took a quick shower together, and then after the shower, I sat down on the bathroom floor. I think I'd had...

Menthol. It's like trying to smoke a bar of Ivory soap, isn't it? But I'm addicted to these fucking things. Maybe it's a self-punishment thing. My wife, excuse me, my ex-wife, once told me my tongue tasted like a fucking ashtray. “How the hell would you know?” I said. “You haven't let me stick my tongue in your mouth for years.” “That's because it tastes like a fucking ashtray,” she said. Circulus in probando. So I tried...

I was going to call Cait back right away, but first I read the texts she had sent, and the first one said, 'Did she say anything?' with a blushing face, and the next one just said, 'What happened?' Then it was, 'Calling, want to talk. You okay?' and then, 'Call me pls,' and after that, 'Why won't you answer?' The next message was longer. 'You're kinda freaking me out. Something wrong? Pls call. Did mom say something? Are...

I stayed at Cait's place till the end of the week, and we figured her mom and dad hadn't noticed anything missing from their closet because they didn't say anything and they were cool and Cait and I had a lot of fun with the toy, and then on Friday afternoon I told them I should be going home, and Cait's mom said she could take me because she was heading out anyway So I said “Cool, thanks,” and I went to my room to get my...

Cait texted me a couple of days later, 'On our way home. Missed you!' and I sent 'Missed you too!' 'We can pick you up?' 'Great!' 'Great! 2 hrs or so.' So I took a shower and packed my bag and mom was still in bed, so I knocked on her door and opened it and said “Mom,” and she said “Hmm?” and sat up and squinted at the light from the hallway and I said “Cait's picking me up.” “Oh, okay,” she said and rubbed her eyes. “Wan...

I was at home with mom and it was getting late, and we were just sitting there together on the couch and mom was watching TV, but it was some stupid reality show and I hate those, but it was nice just to sit there with her, and I only had my underwear on under this giant blanket that I have, and I was just playing a game on my phone. Cait and her mom and dad had been away for almost two weeks, and I had spent the weekend...

We went home to Cait of course, and went inside and headed for the kitchen, but then Cait saw her mom sitting in the living room and she went in there first. Her mom had the TV on but was texting on her phone and not really watching, and Cait sat down beside her and without a word just put her arms around her gave her a long hug, and when she let go her mom said “Wow. Thanks, baby. What was that for?” and Cait said “Nothi...

“You really should cut down on the coffee.” “No way,” I said. “People who drink coffee live longer, you know.” Cait and I were in the cafeteria in the gym, and it was Friday. Her dad was downstairs working out, but he had been a little late and had only been doing it for like half an hour, and so we had plenty of time. I think we were both a little nervous for some reason, but we didn't tell each other that, it was just k...

I spent a couple of days with Lucy, and then I went home and spent the weekend there and then on Sunday afternoon Cait texted me and asked 'Where are you?' and I sent 'Home. You feeling better?' 'Much but I miss you.' So I wrote 'Want me to come?' and she answered 'Not without me there!' and I sent 'LOL' and a laughing face. I packed my bag and mom said “Are you leaving again already?” “Yeah, going to Cait” I said, and mo...

So, I can walk into a room, and everyone there suddenly wants to fuck me. That's what Cait's mom said, or something like that. And no, of course I didn't really believe her, that I had this superpower, the ability to turn people into raging nymphomaniacs just by being around them. Like I'm one of the X-Men. There's Wolverine, Spiderman, that bald guy in the wheelchair and then there's me. The Amazing Aphrodisia. Lady Lust...

Elisabeth, Cait's mom, my aunt Beth, is a therapist and she works at a women's health center and she and my mom didn't get along for a long time, and I know that bothered Cait's dad a lot. I never really knew what the problem was, and I didn't really care then because mom never let their issues get between Cait and me and she let me stay with them whenever I wanted. And anyway, that was years ago and they're really good f...

Whenever I spent the night at Cait's place, and I did that a lot of course, especially when school was out for summer or for the holidays, I would always use the guest room. When she was at my place she would sleep in my bed, but they had a really big house and I had always used the guest room there, even when we were little. So it was in a way my bedroom at their place, and Cait's room was on the same floor and they had...

Sunday afternoon and I was at the coffee shop waiting for Cait. I had slept way too long that morning but then I had called her, after a quick shower and an even quicker breakfast and she hadn't answered. It kept on ringing and then it went to voicemail so I hung up, and I was sure she had changed her mind about missing me or something, or maybe I had waited too long to call and I should have called her right after I woke...