You're a chameleon changing your spotsSaying the words you think should be heardPleasing every one and no one, your heart rotsThat's fine, of course, whatever, how absurdTaking on hues and tones of those around youBlending, never calling attention your wayLosing yourself or never knowing whoNothing changed until that autumn colored dayWho are you? Whomever you want, I can be her and I doResponding, not now, no one ever se...

You lied to me, spinning tales so grandYou treated me badly, leaving scars on my handsYou promised me things you hadn't the right toYou let me love, hate you and told me we're throughYou made plans time and again and never showed You tried to appease me but your excuses never slowedYou made me laugh and once upon a time loved meYou were smart and funny, and made me feel so freeYou once treated me well and cared and fussed...

I cried again todayI do most days as I awakeQuestioning why I stayTethered unhappily to lifeTears and panic set inI struggle and thrash aboutTrying to quiet my mindI listen to the calming soundYour voice whispering the wordsCalming the inexplicable anxiety I feelI hear those names and feel safeTears and shaking soon abateI remember why I wakeHearing the names of those I madeI try to thank you againYou shake your headJust...

I want to touch you but circumstances, stars, space and time will not allow.I need to feel you but scanning my mind, heart, and will I don't know how.Frozen, cold fingers type and drip words upon my keyboard, pieces of my mind.Perceptions collide offering differing scenarios, both to blame, our hearts beginning to bind.Waiting, patience, I look and I search, but they are not so easy to seek out and find.Some days my heart...

Mike walks over to the bathtub and holds out his hands to me. I put down the vibrator and place my hand in his and step out of the tub. I'm placing my complete trust in him. I know he loves me and this is what I want right now.He places a finger under my chin and tilts my head up so I am looking him directly in the eye."You know how much I love you, silly, funny girl? I'd never hurt you for the world. We will only do this...

My mind has untied the ropes mooring me to reality.AgainPinging from light to light, finding universes and galaxiesof new ideas forming.AgainTossing about like a ship, swimming, dodging waves. A web of threads and rope pulling me along.AgainLaughing and cursing, I try it all. For now I have no need of sleep.I'm busy, my mind spinning so many plots and plans.AgainJourneying through time, I travel to places I never knew exi...

Color my feelings and shade them in.Paint my heart and lips red.Brush my mind with bright colored strokes.Prisms of light touch my soul when you color my skin.Crimson prints your fingers leave on my heart.Sunbursts bloom in my eyes when thoughts pass through.New colors discovered over time.Rainbow shades never seen before or again.Invented, imagined paint shades color my life. Fading but remaining forever yours and mine.

I tuck you back into your pants and give you another kiss. Resting my head on your shoulder, you pull out of the parking lot and onto the highway, heading for your family's home. I promptly fall sound asleep. It has been a very long day. I awake with a start sometime later and realize we are pulling into a driveway. I'm just thankful not to be on another plane. All I want to do now is shower and crawl into bed for a long...

Today my heart went wandering astray.Containing muscle, valves and bloodbehind a cage of bone, tissue and flesh.My heart should be able to stay.Unwilling to be restrained, I feel itreaching past my ribs.Unbidden in its search of the food that it needs.Leaving behind a mass that so easily bleeds.Today my heart went wandering astray.Organic brain matter a poor custodianof something of such value and wealth.I feel it traveli...

We'd been dating for awhile now. I knew you were from Canada, Newfoundland specifically. I of course had acted as if I knew exactly where that was. I have to admit geography was not my strongest subject in school or in life. I had to go home and look it up on the map. There it was. Keep going through Maine, New Brunswick, Nova Scotia and then across open ocean leading to Newfoundland. We had our first Christmas together a...

I have to admit I've fallen in love yet again,With something a bit frustrating and odd.Sitting in rush hour traffic, not if, always when.The AC can only slightly cool off my bod.Traffic just stopped at a total dead still,I give up and put the car in park.My body and mind hot, while I try to willThings I usually do at home in the dark.Four lanes of traffic across the beltway,Cars and truckers on each side of my car.This is...

Tonight is just us, dinner and a movieOnly good things we'll discussI search in my closet for just the right dressNot sure of my mood, should I show more or lessI can't go wrong with a short little black shiftStockings thong and a lacy bra giving my breasts a liftWe arrive at the restaurant and make our way to our spotWe pass a table with two businessmen ordering quite a lotI give one a smile as he notices my dress' deep...

The weekend has come finally we both are sayingWe wake early get ready to go and pack the carWindows down sunroof open and music playingThe sun warming us thankfully the drive is not farAs each mile passes we feel the layers of our soulsPeel back and expose the scars and revealingOld scars dent and dings each needing the other to feel wholeReaching out and touching again it's twin now healing Arriving at our slip our seco...

I wake up some time in the morning. I'm alone in my bed. I look across the room and see Mark and Heather asleep under the covers on her bed. I decide I need a little time away from them to get my thoughts together. I grab my things and go take a brief shower. I pull on a pair of tight blue jeans, a thin white t-shirt and my favorite black leather boots. Because it's getting a bit cool out these days, I also don my leather...

Did I just shout what I thought I did? Opening my eyes and seeing the smile on Mark's face gives me my answer. My thoughts and the sensations from my body are confusing me. I've done and experienced more things in the last 48 hours than I have in my whole life. I can hear that little voice trying to tell me that's enough for now. My body is heartily disagreeing with it. I am aching with desire, actually shaking with the n...