I wake up the next day curled up against my beau's firm, muscular chest, and my manhood locked away again. Its morning stretch is uncomfortable with it being unable to become fully aroused, but I feel less frustrated after yesterday. Liam had made love to me, and we're both on the same page about where our relationship is going.
After our lovemaking yesterday, we'd bathed together, ate a delicious dinner Liam had cooked, and then spoke for hours about what had transpired in the playroom. We'd discovered something new together, which had been exciting for both of us. Liam had only used forced feminisation in the past for humiliation with others. He'd never found the end result so sexually arousing before, and for whatever reason, it brought out his more tender side. I, on the other hand, just felt content with myself, almost like I had uncovered something I was missing. Either way, it was something we both enjoyed, and we've now decided to explore it further.
With a yawn, I turn to look at my peacefully sleeping, attractive, sadistic partner. I have never loved anyone the way I love him and a pang of regret over the way I've recently treated him hits me. I also don't understand why I've been so resistant to hand over full control to him when I trust and love him so much, but after my court hearing on Friday, I think I'm going to take that next step and pledge voluntary servitude. Distracting myself from the constant stress in my life is an appealing option whilst I wait for news about my daughter. As I attempt to sit up, Liam's eyes blink open at my stirring, and his arms wrap around me, pulling me against him; preventing me from leaving the bed.
"Good morning, beautiful," he whispers, stroking my cheek.
"Good morning, Daddy," I murmur, happy to be within his bed again.
"So, I thought that we could go shopping today," Liam says, leaning over me. "My treat."
"Are you sure?" I respond, gazing up into his handsome face.
"Absolutely. As beautiful as my doll is naked, I would like to dress her up," he says as he gives me a gentle kiss. "We should start with lingerie, stockings and at least one pair of shoes."
My cheeks warm as I become shy thinking about it.
"I would like that, Daddy," I nod meekly and smile.
"God, you're so cute," he groans, rubbing his nose against mine affectionately in an eskimo kiss. "Let's shower so we can go out and buy you gorgeous things."
In the shower, Liam kisses me affectionately, but he doesn't initiate anything sexual like I'm expecting. He's still very much the alpha male and the dominant person in this relationship, but his sadist urges appear subdued. This time last week I'd spent a great deal of the time being skull-fucked, slapped and chained up in the playroom. This is a notable difference, and it began the moment he removed my facial hair.
Liam towel dries me gently afterwards then guides me over to sit on the bed. Obediently I sit, and I watch as he plugs in a hairdryer then sits behind me, his legs either side of mine and dries my hair. Usually, I'm just rubbed partially dry like some kind of mutt and I quite like this softer side to him. I feel loved, and in my fragile state at losing my daughter and being used again, it is very much needed. I'm looking forward to spending the day with him.
The sound of ringing from the bedside cabinet interrupts us and Liam switches off the hairdryer and reaches out for his phone. Whilst he answers it, I run my hand through my hair and surprisingly, it appears silky smooth, compared to its usual wavy, slightly coarse feel.
"Hello?" I hear Liam say, reclining behind me. I turn around wondering who he's talking to with him not usually letting his phone interrupt his time with me. His calm expression changes suddenly, and he gestures for me to leave. "I need to take this, get dressed, and I'll see you downstairs."
Reluctantly, I do as I'm told and walk towards the playroom to get my clothes from the dresser. I pull on some boxers and a pair of skinny jeans with a band t-shirt in front of the mirror. I've never put much effort into my appearance, and I've always been untidy. I dress for practical reasons only. I'm stunned by how good my hair looks, though, and I spend a moment playing with my parting. I then run my thumb over my light stubble. I need to deal with this when we return from shopping.
Downstairs, I make a bowl of cornflakes, and I stand to scoff it whilst I wait for the coffee machine. Liam has been a while which strikes me as odd. He always puts pleasure above work which is why James handles a large proportion of the monthly party preparations.
"It's unladylike to eat like that," Liam growls as he enters the kitchen. "Someone needs some etiquette training."
"Sorry," I smile apologetically, as he approaches.
"Although, this doesn't appear to be Dollie, but rather Matthew," he says as he presses up against me and strokes my jaw.
"I'll shave when we get home, Master," I respond, closing my eyes, expecting to be kissed.
Abruptly Liam moves away, and I look down to see him holding a measuring tape around the widest part of my chest. I wait whilst he then measures underneath and smirks. Afterwards, he takes my coffee for himself and sits at the counter, reverting back to his usual behaviour. He then gets his wallet out and removes a platinum card which he holds out to me.
"I have things to take care of today. Don't return home until you've spent at least two thousand on some sexy, little outfits and anything else Dollie wants. You're a 36A so you shouldn't run into any problems. My pin is six-one-two-eight. Don't forget it and also keep out of trouble."
"Oh, sure, I guess I can do that," I sigh, taking the card, saddened our date has been cancelled. "Is everything okay, Liam?"
"It's nothing to worry your pretty little head over," he smirks.
I'm irritated that he won't open up to me, especially with me not being allowed to have secrets, but wordlessly I leave the house and walk down the driveway. In the car, I put on my CD player, and Led Zepplin comes on, reminding me about Selena. I don't know how she'll take the news that I enjoy wearing women's clothing, but neither Liam nor I plan to let her know about it yet. I check my phone to see if anyone has tried contacting me, but there's nothing. Justin hasn't responded to my voicemail, and Louise hasn't replied either. Exasperated, I stick it in the glove compartment and grab my shades to put on.
It's not a long drive to the shopping centre, barely half an hour, but my mind is in overdrive on the journey about my task. I haven't stepped foot in a lingerie shop my entire life, and I'm now expected to go in and buy some. I can't help but fear that women are going to think of me as a pervert, although I do technically class as a deviant. Still, I had hoped Liam would have been with me so I could have relied upon his confidence.
The first place I head to is Victoria's Secret. It's bound to have what I'm looking for, although I have no idea of what style I would like to wear. I'm intimidated when I arrive, with the pink and black, glossy signage clearly aimed towards women, rather than someone like me. With a deep breath, I step inside, deciding to use the cover of wanting to treat my girlfriend, but within a minute of walking through the doorway, I'm approached by an attractive, blonde woman in a black dress with perfectly manicured nails. Instantly I feel nervous, and my hands become clammy, certain my cover story will be foiled in an instant.
"Hi, is there anything I can help you with?" she asks, smiling cheerfully at me.
"Uh, yeah! I need underwear, bras... panties! You know?" I stumble. "It's for my girlfriend."
The sales associate doesn't laugh at me like I'm expecting. Instead, she guides me towards some lingerie sets, continuing to smile warmly. I guess my awkwardness is normal to her.
"Do you know her size? Any particular style you're thinking of?"
"Yes! 36A and a size twelve in panties I think?" I respond, looking around at the different colours, designs, and feeling more overwhelmed. I'm then drawn to a see-through, blush pink, lace bra with pale blue embroidered flowers and bows. It's incredibly feminine, and I can't help but imagine Liam's face when he sees it. "I like this..."
"We have a garter belt and thong to match..."
"Great! I'll get those too!"
The assistant is fairly chatty as I continue to choose underwear, opting for pastel and white lingerie; ones that appear more romantic than racy. I expected my tastes to be similar to what I enjoyed seeing Charlotte wear, but what I prefer seems to be more delicate given the option.
I move on to picking some cami's for bed and then a gorgeous, floral, lilac teddy with a balconette neckline and a small cut out area below the chest area. It comes in pink as well so I get both. I then find an ivory, lace robe in the sale section, so I pick that up too plus some stockings.
The sales assistant is beaming as she leads me to the cashier's desk to pay. Nervously I hand over Liam's platinum card to pay when they give me the grand total of over one thousand and four hundred pounds, but thankfully the sale goes through without a hitch.
Laden with striped pink paper bags, I decide to head to a department store next in a bid to find some shoes. I don't hold out much hope for these with women's sizing being limited, but it's worth a try, and I like the idea of looking at some makeup and replacing the awful lipgloss Liam had bought me.
The moment I walk into the shop, I realise I do now have the predicament of having to try shoes on. Unlike the underwear, I have no idea what size I need, or whether I can even stand in heels. I don't want to disappoint Liam though, and it's not overly busy, so I press ahead, deciding to choose some makeup first, before going to the shoe department.
Choosing the makeup itself isn't overly difficult. I opt to go simple with lip tints, black kohl, some mascara and then a palette of nude and brown shades. The hardest part is choosing a fragrance I like that doesn't remind me of an ex, and I spend some time at the fragrance counter, trying many of them, again using the excuse that it's a gift. Eventually, I find something I love called Flowerbomb. It's a bold, highly feminine scent and I'm sure Liam will be thrilled with it.
Deciding I can't put it off any longer, I browse through the shoes on offer at the back of the store and then opt for a pair of patent pink, stilettos in the largest size which is an eight. After a quick glance around I sneakily try them on, but unfortunately, they are too small, so sheepishly I place them back on the shelf and try looking for a nine. I find several pairs of eights and many sevens, but a nine seems to be eluding me to my dismay.
I continue searching through the racks for some time, and to my delight, I find a pair of open-toed, pink, satin and lace heels with a T-bar. They're slightly lower than the other stilettos, but there's still some height, and they're sexy. I adore heels, to the point of it being a fetish before I was introduced to BDSM, but I never expected I'd end up owning a pair for myself, especially ones so beautiful. My cock begins to react, remembering how Charlotte used to make me kiss her's before she dug them into my back. Thankfully my chastity cage uncomfortably prevents me from getting an erection, but I'm filled with lustful thoughts of potentially using the heels for something dirty the moment I'm let out.
In my happiness, I try them on right there, and I manage to squeeze my feet in. I take a few tentative steps, checking how they feel before I look at them in the mirror, and raise the bottoms of my jeans to see them better. I bite my lip, feeling pretty damn sexy and excited, much more than when I was looking at the lingerie. I don't know how women wear them for long with how unsteady I feel and the ache I'm already experiencing, but the pain will be worth it.
Snickering behind me then distracts me from what I'm doing, and I glance around mortified and see two, older women pointing at me, laughing.
"He's a brave one, isn't he?" one of them cackles loudly.
I instantly feel my cheeks and ears burn at being caught, during what is an erotic moment for me and remove the shoes. Picking them up, I head straight towards the checkout, not wanting to try on anything else. I know I haven't spent the full amount that Liam told me to spend, but I'm sure I've come pretty close which should be good enough, I hope.
As I start to wander back towards the car, still feeling the flush of shame, I pass an Ann Summer's shop and stop. Liam told me I could buy anything that Dollie wants, and I still have nearly two hundred to spend. Some new toys could be fun, especially ones that may enhance the pleasure available to me, now I'm more limited in that department. I decide to enter, hoping to find something that I can enjoy using with Liam on my return.
Not wanting to be accosted again, I quickly head to the toy section to look for a dildo. The selection is quite limited, but I find a seven-inch, realistic one with a suction cup. Smaller than William's thick cock but not so big that Liam should get a complex. I then discover a remote-controlled prostate massager which is an obvious option, knowing Liam will probably take great delight in using it on me. I then grab some more stockings, including crotchless ones and several pairs of knee-high socks with bows on, before placing them on the counter, and looking away shyly.
The purple-haired cashier starts putting through the stockings, barely interested as she continues talking to another colleague but then smirks as she sees the prostate massager.
"Do you need any lube for this?" she asks, glancing up at me. "Well, fuck me, it's Matthew."
I get a sinking feeling in the pit of my stomach as I recognise the woman as Sadie from my class; my brother's ex-girlfriend who I fucked. The last time I saw her, was when John beat me up during one of my most self-destructive moments, when I came clean over it, and ended their relationship. She's changed her appearance a lot since then.
"Ah, Sadie," I smile awkwardly.
"So is it true that you're gay now, psycho?" she grins. "I heard Louise dumped your sorry arse 'cause you fucked some guy. Everyone's talking about it."
"Actually, it's Louise that cheated," I respond, sticking the card in the machine to pay.
"So, d'ya fuck Justin when you had that threesome with Ruth?"
"How did you know about that? And no, I didn't. He's my best mate."
"Really? He's been talking shit about you all over the internet. Said you're a massive attention seeker. I told 'im he's best off without you 'cause you're a fucking psycho."
It would seem the photograph Liam had taken to annoy Charlotte had circulated further than I had expected.
"Look, I don't care what other's think about me, and I don't even use social media. It was nice to see you again, but I really need to get going."
I pick up my items and shove them in my other bags, too angry to wait around any longer. I never liked Sadie, but she was friends with Ashleigh, so she always gave me shit. I don't know why I allowed myself to be seduced by her that one time, but at least it stopped my brother making a huge mistake and proposing to her when I told him about it.
Disheartened about hearing I'm still being gossiped about, I drive back to Liam's, hoping he isn't busy anymore and can spend some time with me. I need reassurance. I'd rechecked my phone the moment I got into my car, and there had been no response, which reconfirmed everything I had been worrying about. I don't know what Justin has been saying about me, or whether I want to know, but I miss him.
Janet gives me a curious look as I walk through the door, laden up with bags. I'm tempted to ask her where Liam is, but I know she'll be evasive like last time if I ask her nicely.
"Is Liam home?"
"He is out."
"Do you know where?"
"Yes, but I haven't been instructed to tell you," she simpers, looking pleased with herself.