That night whilst I laid next to Liam and listened to his peaceful breathing; I found myself unable to will myself to get out of the bed and leave. Selfishly, I had chosen to stay despite not feeling like I deserved him. The idea of just going and never knowing his love again was overwhelming. For whatever reason, he had sought me out, but due to his preference for sadism and his level of intoxication that couldn't happen.
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Several days then pass with Liam leaving the bed early and only returning late at night, drunk. He doesn't attempt to sleep with me again the entire time, instead opting to roll over to his edge of the bed, far away from me. Still, it meant there was a chance we could work through our problems because why would he sleep next to me with there being countless of other beds in his huge home?
It's now Saturday, and I wake up with my arms wrapped around Liam and my head buried against his back. The smell of alcohol lingers on his skin; Liam has been drinking heavily again last night. I haven't been with him long enough to know if this is the usual way he reacts to stress or whether this is just a one-off. Either way, I've added to his problems. He already has enough issues trying to keep his business afloat on top of trying to maintain a lifestyle that he has become accustomed to.
I release my arms from around him and roll over to my edge of the bed. Liam remaining in bed this morning and not disappearing at the crack of dawn is progress, but I don't want to push him. I just wish that he'd talk to me.
"You're finally awake then?" he asks.
"Yes," I reply, confused as to why he hadn't pushed me away. "Do you want to talk now?"
I roll back over and come face to face with him. He appears troubled, and I'm wracked with guilt again at hurting him. I naively thought that being accountable for my actions would be the right thing to do, but clearly, Liam doesn't seem to think so.
"Not yet. I need time to process some things," he responds, simply.
"I understand."
I feel terrible at being the source of his troubles. I wish I wasn't like this, but until he opens up about his own feelings, I can't attempt to repair the damage I've caused. It can't be irreversible because he wouldn't have stopped me from leaving. Maybe it's just a matter of finding out what my sentence will be and then this will all go away?
Liam gets out of bed and walks to the bathroom to shower without another word. We usually shower together, but that's out of the question for the moment. I'm missing the intimacy with him. Being near him and not being able to just talk to him is isolating. Maybe I need to learn how to be happy by myself, so I don't feel so needy? With a sigh, I climb out of bed and head to the ensuite in the playroom.
On my return I find Liam dressing. I glance over his body for any signs of another on him, but he appears unblemished. I don't think he's been seeking out comfort from another yet, but I don't know how long that will last. I know I'm not allowed to be jealous as part of our arrangement, but I hope he doesn't seek solace from another.
I pull on a t-shirt and some jeans. I'm supposed to be picking up Selena within the hour. As far as I know, that arrangement is still going ahead, although it is unclear whether he will be joining us or not.
"Liam, are we cancelling plans with Selena this weekend?" I ask quietly.
"I forgot about her. Fine, pick her up but come straight back. No stopping elsewhere, remain in your car, then return to me immediately. I'm not risking you being arrested again."
"Are you sure you don't want to pick her up then?"
"I don't have time. I've got some things to take care of this morning. Just do as you're told, and nothing should happen."
"Okay, Liam," I nod.
"I mean it, lover. Straight there, straight back. No fucking around," he warns, turning to face me. "I'll punish you otherwise."
I leave the house immediately afterwards to pick up Selena. With it being the first time that I've been outside all week, I'm feeling anxious, so I put on my shades to hide my black eye and not attract attention. Liam had also used my submissive nickname, so I don't want to disappoint him by getting into trouble again. I switch on some music and cautiously drive the twenty miles.
As I pull up to what is becoming my usual spot, I see Selena trying to fend off some unwanted attention from a group of guys, and I sigh in frustration. The universe is conspiring against me to get me to break my bail conditions. Grudgingly I get out, mentally remind myself to not punch anyone in the face and stroll over, trying to appear casual.
"Hey, baby," I say, smiling.
She turns around, and relief passes over her face, so I pull her against me for a kiss. Hopefully, they'll get the hint that she isn't interested and scram. I've already broken one of Liam's rules which has put me in a bad mood, so they better be quick about it.
As they give up and leave, my hand slides into hers, and I lead her back to my car swiftly and lock the door. The quicker we're back, the better. I can't trust myself to not retaliate.
"Thank you, Matt," she smiles gratefully. "They were saying some vulgar things..."
"Like what? It can't be worse than the things I've said to you, surely?" I snigger.
"You telling me you want to eat my pussy is completely different to some stupid randos saying it. Seriously, thank you."
"Well, I just saw a woman in distress, and I had to save her."
I turn my music back on in my car then glance over at Selena. Her red hair is a slightly darker shade, and she's wearing a black skater dress with creepers. She is definitely more my type than Liam's, I suspect.
"So Peter Parker, what are you listening to?" she asks.
"Alexisonfire. What's this about Peter Parker?"
"You said you save women in distress, like Spiderman saving Mary Jane."
"Heh... Spider-man would have been incredibly lucky if M.J. was as gorgeous as you are."
Her face turns scarlet, and I feel embarrassed at my cringy attempt at flirting.
"You think I'm gorgeous?" she asks, nervously touching her hair. "No-one has told me that before..."
"Yeah, definitely," I reply, also feeling shy. "I'm glad everyone is blind then because I doubt I'd have had a chance to be with you otherwise."
"But you're hot. I'm sure you can get anyone in bed."
"Then I open my mouth and make an idiot of myself. Relationships don't last long for me. Four months is the longest anyone has stuck around."
"Four months? You're that bad? I've had fuck buddies for longer!"
"What the hell Selena?! That was mean."
I pretend to sulk, trying hard to not laugh as concern flashes across her face.
"Oh Matt, I didn't mean to upset you!" she responds, looking horrified.
"Maybe you should make it up to me... Flash me sometime?"
"Whilst you're driving?"
"Oh, fuck no, not whilst I'm driving. The last thing I need is a driving charge too. Do it when I'm not expecting it. I like being teased a little," I grin.
"Okay, that sounds like fun. Just one condition. You do it too."
"I might be able to do that. If you're a good girl."
"What's the plan for today?"
"Well, personally I'm hoping for a lot of sex. Do those plans sound good for you?"
"I think I can pencil it in."
Selena's hand then slides on to my leg and up to my crotch as she bites her lip.
"Selena. Shit. I'm driving."
"Then you better try to ignore me then," she teases.
She undoes my zip and slips her hand in and grasps me firmly through the material of my underwear. Gently she starts running her hand up and down and builds momentum.
"Are you trying to torment me?! Ah dammit, babe. Fuck..." I groan as I grip my steering wheel tighter.
I end up having to pull over near to Liam's house. Selena unbuckles her seat belt and climbs on to my lap. It's not comfortable in such a small car. Her lips are on my neck, and I desperately want to fuck her, but I know we can't do it here. Liam also told me to not fuck around, and I'm now breaking the other rule to come straight home.
"Fuck me, Matt, here and now," she coos as she slides her hand beneath my underwear and teases the end of my cock.
"No, not without Liam. Let's just cuddle and makeout for a bit..."
"You're no fun," she pouts, turning away.
I need to take control of this situation before I give in and fuck her in broad daylight in the backseat of my car. I grasp her by the jaw and make her face me, so we make eye contact.
"Don't pout, rabbit. We're nearly back so it won't be long until I'm between your sexy thighs. If you keep teasing me like this, I'll tease you back, then fuck you here and withhold your orgasm."
I kiss her, then slide my hand beneath her skirt and caress her through the thin material of her lacy underwear. She starts to sigh and parts her thighs. She's already wet.
"Ah, Matt..."
"What's wrong? You were happily toying with me only a minute ago."
"That's different..." she sighs, thrusting her hips forward to rub against my hand.
"Why? Because it's me being tormented? That wasn't very submissive of you. What would Liam say?"
"He'll be mad..."
My fingers slip under the material and enter her warmth. Silky, feminine fluids cover me, and I lift her hem up so I can see what I'm doing as I fuck her with all four of my fingers. Her beautiful pussy becomes drenched as I nearly get the entirety of my hand in. I could probably fist her fully if I'm in a better position. I can't wait to make that happen, and from the sounds, she's making, it's going to be a gratifying experience for both of us.
"Liam told me switches are fun because they'll try to take control if you show weakness. Maybe I've been too weak with you?" I whisper.
"I don't think I'm a switch..." she moans.
"You don't think? That means you don't know. Selena, if this was just between you and me, I'd be very keen to explore it."
I take a long look at Selena's flushed face then withdraw my hand, satisfied at the state I've got her in. I can't wait to release that tension I've built up inside her. Sex will be highly satisfying when it happens when we get back.
"You're so mean," she pouts again.
"Am I? If I have my way, you'll be wearing nothing but a skirt all weekend, and I'll freely do this to you several times a day. I won't let you cum until it's too much and you beg me. Now strap yourself in, rabbit, we're late."
She gets back into the passenger seat with a huff then fastens her seatbelt back on.
When we arrive, I chuck my keys onto the sideboard in the hall and call out to Liam. I know he'll be wondering why we took so long and it's my neck on the line. Selena follows me to the kitchen, but he isn't here, and the patio door is locked. I'm incredibly horny, and I just want to get Selena into the bedroom, but I need to speak to him first.
"Matt, are you going to take your shades off?" Selena teases.
"Uhh, I guess so..."
I remove them, tossing them onto the kitchen counter. She takes a hard stare at my face and giggles.
"Wow, your face is a state. I just thought it was a minor scuffle."
"I'd make a joke about how you should have seen the other guy, but it's really not appropriate. I got carried away," I sigh.
She picks up my grazed hand and strokes my knuckles.
"You hurt yourself when you hit him?"
"Just a little. Mostly it was caused by being tackled by some police officers. It was less sexy than it sounds."
"Why?"
"Because I didn't stop when they asked me nicely. I really shouldn't have behaved the way I did."
"I can't imagine you being that angry."
"Well, I scared Liam, so I can get that angry, especially when I think someone is going to hurt someone I care about."
"Really? I thought he wouldn't be scared of anything?"
"He's scared of me, I know that much. I need to get a bigger handle on myself. I seriously fucked up."
Her hand reaches to stroke my cheek.
"Does it hurt still?"
"It's no big deal. I've been in enough fights to not be bothered by some bruises."
As Selena stands between my legs, pressed up against the worktop counter, she continues to caress my face. The gentleness is very much needed. I kiss her lightly then pull away knowing Liam is waiting for us and I'm flirting with the boundaries. This has to stop.
"Let's find Liam. He's probably upstairs," I sigh.
"Yeah sure..."
We walk upstairs and find Liam in the study, filling in some paperwork with a large glass of what looks like whisky in front of him. He appears incredibly stressed. He looks up at us then glances at his watch.
"You're back then? You've been gone for some time," he says, unimpressed.
"That's my fault, Liam. Matt had to step in and deal with some guys who were pestering me," Selena unhelpfully, responds.
Liam stands up, flinging back his desk chair. His jaw is clenched, and his eyes harden upon me. I'm in trouble thanks to Selena.
"Is this true, Matt? Are you trying to fuck everything up and get put away?" he yells.
"I couldn't just leave her, Liam," I sigh.
"Selena, go wait for us in the playroom. I need to discuss something with Matt," he orders.
With a huff, she walks off. Liam should treat her like she's actually in a relationship with us. We shouldn't discuss everything behind her back. She has a right to be included in whatever he needs to say.
"I don't believe I did anything wrong," I shrug. "No-one got hurt, I wasn't rude. I just got Selena into the car safely. I'm not going to stand back and let her get intimidated like that."
"You care about her, don't you? Who do you like more? Me or her?"
"You're asking that stupid question again? You know my feelings for you."
"Then stop putting yourself in situations where you're going to get in trouble and be taken from me!"
"I think you're overreacting. Nothing happened..." I sigh, feeling frustrated with him.
"Am I? I have to worry about you overreacting to the tiniest thing any time you go out now. You never listen, and your behaviour is irrational."
"You make our relationship sound like such a hardship," I scoff.
"Well, it is! I should have just kept it casual and not got emotionally involved with you," he sighs, sinking back into his chair and putting his head in his hands.
I feel numb and rejected by this sudden revelation. Liam regrets our relationship.
"Is that how you honestly feel? Do you just want to have a casual thing with me? I can't just stop having feelings for you, Liam!"
"Perhaps. I don't know," he says, not looking up at me. "I'm just finding it hard to deal with you being the way you are. You never listen to me. You don't act the way I want you to. I need to be with someone who actually submits to me. This isn't entirely your fault before you think I'm blaming you, but I need control over everything in my life."
"Do you need me to serve and be fully obedient to you?" I ask, knowing what his answer will be.
"Yes. I think that is what I need," he says quietly.
I sit down in the other chair feeling stressed. Always doing what Liam told me to do would mean giving up my freedom to him. It's a huge decision to give him full control over me. It's not just a regular submissive and dominant relationship, it's consensual ownership. I'd need permission to do anything.
"Liam, I'm going to need to think about it. Give me until after my court appearance, please? I can't make a decision like that quickly."
"Sure. I can understand you need time. Right, I think we're done here. Leave," he responds dismissively, picking up his pen.
"Liam, please don't be like this," I reply, sliding on to his desk as I push his paperwork out the way.
"Matt, I'm trying to work," he sighs, frustrated.
"I want to spend time with you. It's been days since we've had time together," I respond, moving to sit in front of him, parting my legs either side of his.
"Are you attempting to seduce me?" He asks, flinging his pen down.
"Yes, is it working?" I reply, reaching out to tug playfully on his navy blue tie. I want to tempt him to join us in bed, or at the very least, fuck me.
"These cheap tricks of yours don't work on me," he says, tapping the desk beside my leg.
"Do they not?" I ask, smirking as I lean forward to kiss him. "You still owe me a punishment for breaking the rules today, Master."
Liam pulls away from my kiss and scrutinises my face with a serious expression upon his own. His tight-lipped mouth curves up at the corner as his eyes begin to gleam at the realisation that I want him despite our argument.
"I almost forgot about that," he growls. "Bend over my desk, now!"
I'm eager as I slide off the desk and lean over it, as he removes the tawse from his desk drawer. Standing behind me, he unzips my jeans which he lowers along with my underwear down to my ankles. My t-shirt is then lifted up, and I sigh at the sensation of his cool hands on my back and the soft material of his cotton shirt brushing against me.
The strikes are harsh, but I bear it, unflinching, making as little noise as possible. We've had no contact in days, so I've been desperate for his touch, and I'm finally getting it. Selena's grateful smile had been worth this anyway, and I try to breathe evenly as it lands and viciously smacks and nips against my skin. After receiving fifty of his best, I lay against the desk feeling breathless, overwhelmed and hardened. I pray that he'll fuck me after this. I need him.
With delight, I hear him unzip his jeans then his hand threads through my hair. His firm hand yanks my head to the side so he can see the expression on my face. Quickly he takes me, but then he pulls out only minutes later to finish over my stinging arse and lower back before pushing me away. I glance up at him, bewildered as he tidies himself up, and tucks his shirt in before sitting down at his desk again.
"Now leave," he says coldly, without looking at me.
"What the...?" I utter, baffled by the lack of mutual satisfaction.
"Do I need to spell it out for you?" he snaps. "This is your punishment. Take out your frustrations with Selena if you must, but I have no wish to play with you further today. I told you I have ways to deal with someone like you."
He looks smug as he loosens his tie, and his eyes briefly flicker up to me. He then gathers up the paperwork and receipts I'd messed up and gets on with the work I've interrupted.
I pull up my jeans, walk out of the study and slam the door behind me. I'm not used to Liam being this cold-hearted, and I've been left feeling like I've had a one night stand. Liam has refused me orgasms before but never entirely like this. He's only ever dragged them out, building up my enjoyment. I'm not sure how I feel about this.