I can't say for sure, but think it's around two o'clock on Saturday afternoon when my date with Mistress Virginia finally ends. Physically drained and mentally altered after my deranged night with the cougar Mistress, I'm stumbling in my heels, barely keeping up with Brenda as we walk towards her car.
"Sit up front with me, sissy-love," she says, tugging on my leash. "We've taken another step towards our destiny, so we have things to discuss."
My mind's registering a complete blank, wondering what we need to discuss. Just squinting my eyes in the bright afternoon sunlight is about all I can manage.
"I know you're tired, hon," she calmly consoles me. "We'll make one fun stop, then I'll take my sissy-poo home, so she can sleep."
Tired can't begin to describe how I feel as I plop my worn-out ass in the seat of her Mercedes. Mind-blown and dazed might be a more accurate description of my condition. Cloaked in Virginia's innocuous charm the entire night, her carefully chosen words and mesmerizing persona didn't just blow my mind, she took me into a hypnotic trance and reprogrammed my thinking.
Brenda already had me peering over the edge of that slippery slope, so it didn't take much to send me tumbling into the eternal sissy abyss of no return. The cougar Matriarch embedded kinky sissy programming so deep into my subconscious that I'm not even aware she did it.
So I didn't know why I got disgusted with myself this morning when I woke up horny and started jacking off. I just got this yucky, sick-to-my-stomach feeling that I never wanted to do it again. Real sissies never jack off anyway, so why should I care?
My pussy's where it's at for me now, and it felt so natural fucking myself with the dildo Mistress conveniently left on her pillow. I didn't even care when I realized she and Brenda had come into the bedroom. Knowing I was being watched made it so deliciously kinky, which made my prostate orgasm more wonderful than anything I could have imagined.
Another weird thing is, I don't know why I'm craving female urine so much, I just am. And while not every sissy is a piss-drinking slut, the special ones like me are. I know I'm special, because Brenda and Virginia told me I was when they took me in the shower and drenched me in their golden essence. My little clitty got really hard as my belly filled with nectar, so I mean, how can something as thrilling as that possibly be a bad thing?
But all that seems so distant now as my body yearns for sleep. I haven't eaten anything since last night, and seeing as I can hardly hold myself up, Brenda lays my weary head onto her lap.
~~~~~
"My Mistress was very pleased with you," Brenda tells me as she backs out of the driveway. "She's quite impressed with how far along you are in the process."
"You mean the sissy process?"
"I mean the sissy whore process, hon. Isn't that what we both know you want? She talked to you about the ultimate dream every Hierarchy Mistress has, didn't she?"
"Well… when we were soaking her big, dreamy tub, she told me about the Hierarchy sissies and all the kinky things they do. She said every Hierarchy Mistress wants her sissy to be a Hierarchy whore."
"It's our greatest symbol of achievement, Mandy. And what did you think about becoming a sissy whore in the Hierarchy, and doing kinky things for big money?"
"I got really excited about it, at least I think I did. Actually, I was excited the whole time we were talking, because Mistress kept playing with my clitty and sticking her fingers up my sissy hole. It turned me on so much that I ate her out real good after she dried me off."
"Yes, she told me how much she enjoyed that. You've become a very good pussy licker, you know."
"I should be," I giggle. "I've been eating you and Sherry out every single night for the past two weeks."
"You've learned the techniques very well, my dear. I think it's time to try you out with a woman you've never been sexual with before."
"That might be fun."
"Oh, it'll definitely be fun. Virginia thinks your tonguing skills are good enough to start bringing in money, but I want to see how you do with an unfamiliar pussy before I send you out on an actual whoring date. Do you think you're ready to try it?"
"I'm so ready to try it. When can it happen?"
"I'll have to see when I can arrange it with one of my lady friends, but it'll happen when you least expect it. I know how fragile you'll be with a superior woman the first time, and I don't want you getting nervous about it beforehand."
It's nice to know that Mistress is thinking about whoring me out to her female friends, but I'm too tired to get all that excited about it right now. All I want to do is close my eyes as her hand caresses my breasts. My little sissy titties will only be pumped-up for another day or so, and I want to enjoy them for as long as I possibly can.
"Do you like sexy surprises?" she asks after we've been quietly driving a while.
"Sexy surprises are the best!"
"Then sit up, pretty sissy. We're going to one of your favorite places."
"Oh wow, Mistress!"
I see the familiar pink neon sign.
"Adult World…! Can I suck some cock in the glory hole room?"
"Why do you think I'm bringing you here? You've been such a good sissy, I think you've earned a feeding."
"Thank you, Mistress! I'm so hungry for cum!"
"Look at you! You sure did wake up fast."
"Of course I did. Cock is my most favorite thing!"
"Have you ever noticed, hon, how cocksucking always gets you so excited?" she asks as she parks the car. "Think about it. If you love cocks so much, then… you must be a queer girl, right?"
"Well… maybe… I might be queer."
"No maybe about it, babe. You're definitely queer, and you know it."
"Okay, you're right. I'm queer, and I know it."
"And don't you just love it?"
"Yes, yes, yes! I do love it! Now can we please go inside? I really need to suck some cock."
"In a sec… I have another surprise for you in my purse."
Okay, I'm excited, but I don't think whatever's in her purse can be as good as sucking cock. Brenda's grinning as she pulls a prescription bottle from her purse.
"Guess what this is? she asks, shaking the bottle.
"More sissy pills?"
"No, don't be such a cunt. Read the label."
"Es… es… estra… diol? What's es-ter-a-diol?
"Hormone pills, silly. Estrogen? Estradiol? Get it?"
"Fancy name for girl pills."
"They'll make you a fancy sissy. Go ahead, take one."
"Right now?"
"Why not? Your tummy's already full of female nectar. Take a pill, suck a cock, swallow male cum… and presto…!
"You have the perfect hormone cocktail."
"Okay," I gulp, "if you want me to."
Fuck, she tricks me like this all the time. First, she gets me all worked up and excited about sucking cock, then she whips out the hormones and mind-fucks me. I had no idea yesterday that I'd be starting on estrogen today.
Taking such a big, life-changing step isn't something I've really thought too much about, but then again, I remember what Virginia told me last night. I've never been able to make my own decisions, not really, not the big ones.
I pause for a moment, wondering if I really want this. Real hormones, real tits, becoming just like the real sissy girls in the hypno videos? Really…? Me…?
Everything about this lifestyle is suddenly becoming so real, but I know Mistress wants this for me, and I know she's always right. While I consider the reality of my situation, Brenda patiently gives me all the time I need.
"It's your decision, honey-love… your body, your future. What do you want your future to be?"
'Fuck…' I think, 'I know she's right. Maybe I do want this. I know I at least want to want this. I definitely know I'll always have a burning desire for cocks, because I'm dying to be fucked by one right now. I do want to be sissy in every way possible, and I so want to please my Mistress. I want to please her so bad, I'll even take hormones to prove it!'
I stare with devotion at my Mistress, my goddess, her beautiful eyes drinking in the sight of me nervously taking the pill from her hand and swallowing it. Smiling, she cradles my face between her soft palms, forcing little moans from my mouth as our lips draw close and meet in the most tender, loving kiss I think I've ever had.
Tracing her fingertips around my swollen nipples, she tells me how lovely I'll be when my natural tits begin to grow. I'll be so attractive to men and women alike, because sissy is my gender, and I was clearly meant to be a fuck toy for both sexes. This must be the permanent sissy state of mind they always talk about in the sissy hypno videos, to just accept ourselves as sex toys, and to go forward in life being just that.
"No regrets, my precious sissy?"
"No regrets," I answer, "I want to be a total sissy for you, with natural sissy tits for everyone to play with."
"Right now, sissy-love, your hot lips need to be played with. Everything about you at this moment screams 'cocksucker'. Shall we go in and get you fed?"
"Mistress, I love you so much!" I say as she leads me, collared and leashed, toward the entrance of the adult superstore.
All she says is, "Who does your ass belong to?"
And I say the only thing I can say, over and over again, "My ass belongs to you, Mistress!"
~~~~~
Once we get inside, Mistress prances me around the magazine racks, holding my leash high and tight to show me off and let the guys know a hungry cocksucker has entered the building.
"Who wants to feed my bitch?" she announces.
It's still mid-afternoon, so there are only five or six guys in the place, but that's enough for a start.
"How much?" one of the guys asks, which surprises me, because I've always sucked cock in here for free.
Brenda's surprised herself, but her business mentality is quick to respond, "Twenty bucks. Hand it to her before you stick your cock through the wall."
"Is her slut mouth worth twenty bucks?" a smart-ass blurts out.
"Honey," Brenda brushes him off, "this bitch gets fifty for a private. She gets you off, or the blow job is free."
She then points towards the video arcade, "This way, boys. Twenty bucks buys you a party in her mouth."
My heart's pounding with anticipation to the sound of my high heels clicking on the concrete floor. I'm flaunting my fake female figure, strutting hot and sassy in my padded pussy panties. Knowing I've got guys with hard cocks following me always gets my blood boiling. I've got new energy, cuz I'm a hot sissy, wide awake, and dying to suck those cocks!
"Go on in," Brenda tells me when we get to the room in the back with the holes in the wall. "I'll be back in a few. I want to check out some prostate toys to add to your collection. Will you be alright by yourself?"
"Of course I will. I've done this like, four times already."
"Don't suck any cock unless you get a twenty-dollar bill first, and you make damn sure no one comes in and tries to fuck you."
"Geez, Mistress, I'll be fine. It's not like I'm a rookie at this. I'll lock the door, okay?"
Sometimes I think Mistress acts like she's my mother. Well, she's not my mom, but she definitely owns me, so I guess she's just looking after her property.
~~~~
My heart races after I lock the door and sit on the stool in front of the rectangular hole. A knock on the wall, a twenty-dollar bill is handed to me, and a limp penis presents itself through the opening. It's not that big, but I know how to make it grow. I take a deep breath and lean forward. Almost instantly, my body starts tingling like it always does when I have a cock in my mouth. A soft groan drifts in from the other side as I get him fully erect and rock-hard.
While stroking him softly in sync with my mouth, I wonder what this stranger looks like, and who he might be. Not knowing always adds to the excitement I get from sucking random cocks. After a few minutes of loud groaning from the other side, the stranger knocks on the wall. I don't stop as he knocks harder, letting out a series of grunts as the anonymous erection errupts in my mouth.
Streams of hot, stringy semen flow down my throat, making my body shiver along with my pulsing clitty as it empties into my mouth. It's really thick with good volume, but slightly bitter in taste. Most of it, luckily, goes smoothly past my tastes buds as I swallow.
"That was great, you freaky little whore," the stranger on the other side laughs as his cock withdraws.
God, how I love this. A hard cock exploding in my mouth does something for me that nothing else can. Six months ago, I would have been emotionally broken to be called a fuckin' freak after I'd just given a man such pleasure. But months of continuous sissy sex training has hardened me.
I've become immune to verbal abuse, and my inhibitions have melted away. A freak is what I am now, a little homosexual whore with her first dose of estrogen dissolving in her gut. Sucking cock in female clothes makes me yearn to become as female as I can be.
My thoughts are soon interrupted by another knock on the wall. Another twenty-dollar bill, and another fresh, partially erect dick enters my space. This one's thick, long, and my favorite quality… uncut. I show my appreciation by covering its length with soft, passionate kisses before taking it deeply into my mouth.
This new stranger gasps as I work him over, pressing his entire package into the opening, so I can play with his balls as I suck. This one also lets out a loud series of grunts as another load of semen floods my mouth.
I swallow greedily at first, then allow it to linger a few precious moments in my mouth, enjoying the taste, texture, and volume of his load before swallowing it in a single gulp. My pulsing little clitty leaks pre-cum as the large wad travels down my esophagus, and seems to make a splash when it drops into my nectar-filled tummy.
The third cock is rather small and unimpressive, yet I don't feel the least bit disappointed. I wrap my lips tightly around it, anxiously working him to get to the flavorful result that is sure to come. Minutes later he starts knocking, loudly moaning on the other side of the wall as I pick up the pace to milk him. His load is as unimpressive as his cock. Not much volume, and watery too, but tasty nonetheless, and another load down the hatch.
I hear them outside joking and laughing about the kinky little queer-whore with the hungry little mouth. I don't care what anyone says about me anymore, because most of it is true anyway. I'm a sissy cocksucker, the sex toy I'm meant to be, and nothing can ever change that now. Anxiously waiting for my next cock, Mistress's face appears through the hole instead.
"Having fun, homo girl?"
"Oh yes, Mistress. I sucked three cocks already!"
"I love the happy look on your face, but you also look very tired. Unlock the door, I bought you something you're gonna love."
"But what if another cock needs me while I'm away?"
"He'll just have to wait, queer girl," Mistress laughs. "Hurry up and open the god-dammed door."
Suddenly realizing that I really am a dumb cunt in moments like this, I feel stupid and silly as I get off my stool to unlock the door for Brenda. The kinky programming Virginia installed in my sissy brain is making me act more stupid than usual, and I'm having trouble just unlocking the door.
My stupidity makes me so fucking horny, too, cuz I know the only thing I'm good for anymore is serving cocks and pussies. I can only guess what other changes might be taking place inside my head. Changes I can't control, but changes I want and can only surrender to.
"Were you having trouble with a simple door lock?" Mistress sneers playfully as I let her in.
"No, I was just thinking about how horny I am. It's so confusing to think about why I like it so much, and how happy I am about it."
"You're happy, hon, because you love cock. I've kept you on a pussy diet and deprived you of cock the past few weeks, so you'd realize what you are. You're a homosexual, cock-loving whore, who also knows how to please the ladies. Isn't this what you've always wanted?"