CHAPTER 21: “So he seemed to soften a little? Is that what you’re saying?” said Claire.“Yes, sort of. He said he’d think about things. And I think he will. He has her to think about now too not just himself. That little wrinkle might just be what he needs to get him of the dime,” said Rodney.“My God I hope so. It sure as hell is time, no fucking doubt about that,” she said.“You have never been more right,” he said.“So whe...

It wasn't easy to get you to this point But it was worth it because here we areSo patient was I waiting for the walls to come downI don't think you knowWalls were not meant to keep us Away from what we desire or to protect usThey are there to challenge us to work Harder for what we wantTo fight for what lights the soulSo many nights we spent questioningSlowly discovering each otherUncovering what few give away hereYour fe...

Is this what limbo feels like? I’ve often wondered, The indecision of my mind, Joining the pain in my heart. I’m his whore, his mistress, The bitch who would ruin a union, Never thought I would be that, Shame is under my skin now. It makes me unsure, Trying to step away, I’m almost there until he calls me, My mind forgets how much it hurts. Too scared to step away, I want him so badly, I’ve never known love, never, Addict...

When one is not enough You lie Fearing commitment Wanting less Lonely Wanting more Suffocated Excited by the new Afraid to lose the old Spread thin Juggling Never satisfied And finally Old.

No matter how liberal they are, a lot of men suffer from some form of homophobia. I think the two biggest fears are that a gay man might be attracted to him. An even stronger fear is that he might reciprocate such feelings. My own life might even inadvertently help to strengthen such fears. After all, I’ve always been a straight woman, until at 53 I spotted a beautiful (and also straight) redhead named Justy, and fell ins...

The music begins. The room now alive with motion. Colored gowns and dark suits, twirling, swaying, rhythmic. A stillness. Beautiful stillness. Standing aside, letting motion flow. Lost alongside a sea of movement until his eye catches hers. No longer invisible she writhes under his gaze. Her body motionless, Inside, simply swooning. A hand extended, offered with silent command. Accepted with barest tremble, and his knowin...

I gave you the best of me,And we were happy,For a moment in time.When our souls embraced,And we glimpsed a realityThat no one could understand.But I didn't care,Because all I ever wanted wasTo stay in that moment,For all eternity.With you.With your love.But along the way,Doubt crept inAnd seized me.Took hold of my emotions,And toyed with my heart.Made me question,Made me fear.It feasted on my insecurity,And scoffed at my...

The vampire tried to bite me, in a dream I had once  Instead, he bit my fingerI woke up with my heart pounding  My finger hurt The vampire was someone I adored  He glided through my days like a slim, dark silhouette  He was always quiet – quiet, I thoughtBecause he was elegant and reserved  But quiet he was, because he had no soul I tried to kiss the vampire one night  We were standing outside in damp and cold airMist swi...

I let the amazement wash over me with an unadulterated wave as I stand there silently. Looking down at you, I quietly take in yet another moment that seems to expand infinitely outward as it stops time once again. The early afternoon sun is coming through the sheers and has not quite made it all the way across the bed to where you are sleeping. Dust particles tattle as the late summer breeze puffs into the room cool from...

I am lost without you...Lost in the darkness,I call out your name,But I can not find you,I shiver in fear.The fear is polarizing,Causing me to freeze,Not knowing what to do,Or where to turn.I sit here crying,Needing to be rescued,Wanting your tender embrace,To make me feel safe again.I sit alone for hours,As night turns into day,And I realize I am still alone,My fears are real.My heart breaks.As I lay my head on my pillow...

In the darkness, I’m afraid. The unknown, the storm that might linger,  the clouds blocking the light. This darkness haunts me. It clouds my senses, makes me pale and faint. Turn the light on. I can’t breathe in the dark. .In the darkness, when everything feels so new, the taste of unfamiliarity fills me.  It fills my soul. My heart races.  I can’t contain your palate, trying to break free. I run my tongue along your dept...